im a girl and i have 13 years. i have been bestfriend with this particular girl for about a year. we have been through a lot because of me like there was a time i didnt want to be close with her anymore and i hurted her a lot 의해 that but than like after a week everything turmed back to normal. i was always a shy girl and im the last summer we didnt go out so much together i wish we did but i was shy because if we where going out we would be just us (just 2 girls together) and i thought that when people will see us just the 2 of us they would thing that we are together and i didnt want that at all (i never told she this)but now after the summer we went out like 5 times 또는 더 많이 (because of school) and we went alone and like i didnt care that much with the fact that we where alone. 의해 the way since the last year(2015) i had only 2 primary crushes (boys) that i thought that i felt something form them i now i sure that i didnt felt anything they where just nice guys. when im with her i feel so happy and a little bit shy toobut i feel something not strange but like something i dont know if it just a best friend feeling 또는 something more. we chat all the time and im really happy about that and sometimes when we are talking/chatting she could make me sad in 1 sec because sometime she say " i wouldnt care if something happen to me " 또는 when she thinks that shes ugly that realy annoys me! but when she says that xi loves me(as best friend) i really appreciate itand that makes me happy, so happy and makes me feel specail this particular week i have been imaginating this perfect live living together and being together everytime im imagine something like that i feel so so so happy and sometimes every tears fell down. we like have this dream together that someday we will live together in an appartment (as best friends) and its preety cooli mean it would be so awsome. i have been searching about falling in 사랑 with your best friend girl to girl and i found it interesting. if i am bi it would be so so hard to tellling it to others mostly my mom my dad and my bestfriend. i dont know what they thing about LGBT my mom and dad. i have 3 brother but im the only girl and my mom loves me so much im so different from my brothers ( in a good way) in like mommys girl and i thing that if im really bi and i tell them they wouldnt accept me and they will have some health problems because of me and i dont want that at all!! i 사랑 my parents so much and if something happens to then because of me i would never forgive my self. i need some help pls i dont know what to do i dont know who i am anymore and should i tell my best friend on what i feel ????
