Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the 상단, 맨 위로 of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. 당신 were going to stand up for me. 당신 felt defensive of me. I should tell 당신 that I loved the way that felt. 당신 whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. 당신 felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know 당신 needed time alone. I have done nothing but order 당신 around and keep 당신 jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything 당신 do makes me 더 많이 afraid that this is not what 당신 want. I wish I could tell 당신 that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell 당신 that when 당신 walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel 당신 inside me and how amziing 당신 feel to me. I can feel 당신 in my core. The moment that 당신 took me in your arms and 당신 picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that 당신 would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that 일 in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid 당신 will find out I am not what 당신 want. 당신 will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need 당신 House. I need 당신 so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are 당신 so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother 또는 I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do 당신 want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just 더 많이 than 당신 can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" 더 많이 than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time 또는 barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. 당신 wait on me to screw up 또는 to let 당신 down.
House maybe that is why 당신 lied to me 또는 tried to get out of my birthday dinner. 당신 are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell 당신 afterwards because 당신 made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change 당신 have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well 당신 can leave. 당신 don't have to be here. 당신 are free to leave anytime 당신 want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One 더 많이 is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just said it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
당신 are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in 사랑 with you. 당신 were my 판타지 House. 당신 were in my head and now 당신 are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my 심장 now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched 의해 당신 and how 당신 feel when 당신 make 사랑 to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and 당신 put your faith in me and 당신 found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; 당신 turned a deaf ear to it and 당신 just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I 사랑 you. He led her to the 피아노 and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands 옮기기 across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted 당신 there." I didn't know how to say it 또는 how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized 당신 had always been there to save me Cuddy and 당신 took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much 당신 have given up and sacrificed for me. 당신 put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at 당신 about the surgery 당신 did but 당신 did it to save my life. 당신 knew I would be furious.
House did 당신 forgive me?
Cuddy 당신 have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The 질문 is now,
"can 당신 forgive me?"
"I 사랑 당신 Cuddy." "The way 당신 draw your bottom lip in when 당신 want something and 당신 don't know how to ask for it. The way 당신 raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when 당신 are trying to put your foot down. The way 당신 flirt with me and even the way 당신 look at me at the 공식 만찬, 저녁 식사 표, 테이블 when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought 당신 wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was 당신 naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House 당신 always want sex.
No. I want you. I want 당신 to hear 당신 laugh. I want 당신 to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want 당신 to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want 당신 to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want 당신 to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made 사랑 to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to show they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new 일 and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
