It can't be true its not, I told myself not beliving it.What is the point in my horrible life of living if she's not in it. The 사랑 of my life the only thing that kept me here.And know she's gone.Alice's vision was very clear about it I forced myself to shake that image out of my head, it was horrible ;she jumped and fell into the dark churning waters and floated there lifeless.Rosalie had also said she died.I'm a monster I should have never left her unprotected.I thought she would be safer without me and wanted her to have a chance at a normal and happy life. I don't want 당신 ,replaid over & over in my head, that scene in the meadow played over and over in my head like a nightmare I hated having to force those lies out.I could once again see her pale broken hearted face.I was dying of pain here and thats exacly what I wanted.To die.My world was so dark and meaningless now.I will just make sure and call Charlie."Hello is Charlie home,"I said trying to keep my voice steady."No,"a familiar voice replied with disgust I recognized it ,it was that Jacob guy that was at prom .I didn't care "Were is he at ?""He's at the funeral,"replied that same disgusted voice.I didn't want to hear anymore that was enough proof for me .There was nothing else I could do .Nobody else hated me as much as I did right now the pain was killing me but I woudn't have to suffer much longer. I would go to the Volturie .I felt like my 심장 was hollow ,like I had left every thing inside me with her and now it was gone forever.I was on the plane trying to tune out everyones minds. Once I landed in Volterra Italy I didn't even care anymore I ran at my normal speed I didn't care if people saw me.I wanted for the pain to stop as soon as possible.I entered the 성 and ran up to them and Aro greeted me kindly "Hello ,Edward ,what is the cause of your visit today?""I wish to die,I said calmly."But why we will not waste such talent. Come closer and let me see your thoughts ,I layed my hand on 상단, 맨 위로 of his ."Oh I see" , 당신 truly 사랑 that mortal this really amuses me."But 당신 know we will not kill 당신 Edward for no reason and Carlisle is a friend of mine"Aro declared. I stormed out impaitiently . I could not live with the pain any longer I could't hold it inside me it was to powerful it was eating me up.I will have to reveal myself as the monster that I am .I don't care if I go to hell for their is no hell worse than living without her.I plan to go out when the sun is up the highest at 12 PM .I waited impatiently in the shadows 의해 the clock tower.Here I go ,I thought I stepped out into the sun and waited to get everyone's attention.I felt a push on me and an angelic voice screamed "No!Edward,look at me!"That was quick,I thought.I opened my eyes and said amused "Amazing,Carlisle was right."That same 앤젤 said "You've got to get back in the shadows you've got to move!""I can't belive how quick it was.I didn't feel a thing-they're very good." So this is what heaven is like I don't deserve this,I thought."Death, that hath sucked the honey of thy breath,hath had no power yet upon thy beauty,"I murmured the line spoken 의해 Romeo."You smell just exacly the same as always," "So maybe this is hell.I don't care I'll take it." "I'm not dead Edward,And neither are you!Please Edward we have to 옮기기 they can't be far away!"I hugged her tightly and I never waanted to let her go.Whatever this was heaven 또는 hell it was wonderful."What was that?"I asked."Were not dead yet but we have to get out before the Volturi-" Suddenly I understood it was impossible that she was alive but for some miracolous reason she was.Oh no,I realized she was in great danger and we had to hide.I pushed her against the wall.But then I heard somebody's thoughts approaching us.It was Felix and Alec .I tried to be calm and said "Greetings gentlemen,I don't think I'll be requiring your services today.I would appriciate it very much if 당신 would send my thanks to your masters." "Shall we take this conversation to a 더 많이 appropriate venue?"said Felix."I don't belive that will be necesary."I said with my voice harder ."I know your instructions.I haven't broken any rules." "Felix merely meant to point out the proximity of the sun,let us seek better cover,"replied Demetri.I was nervous for Bella now so I said "I'll be right behind you,Bella why don't 당신 go back to the square and enjoy the festival?""No bring the girl ," Alec whispered.I felt a rush of anger and I coudn't do it I coudn't put her in danger again.I shifted my weight and I was prepared for anything now."I don't think so,I replied beyond angry."Not here .Aro would simply like to speak with 당신 again,if 당신 have deciced not to force our hand after all."Demetri said ."Certainly ,but the girl goes free."I stated."I'm afraid that's not possible."I was defenatly not about to let it go ,no one will ever hurt my Bella."I'm afraid that's impossible, we do have rules to obey." A snarl was building up in my throaght and my instics were taking over I tried to calm ,myself down ."Then I'm afraid that I'll be unable to accept Aro's invitation ,Demitri." "That's just fine ,"Felix purred."Aro will disapointed,"sighted Demetri. "I'm sure he'll survive the letdown." I replied.Felix and Demetri moved closer toward the opening of the alley were we were at ,and spread apart slightly so they could attack me from both sides if they had to .I was prepared to protect my 사랑 if I had to. I could feel my instics taking over once again.