Why? Had she come back to finish destroying what was left of my peace? I could see she was crying, yet I felt no urge to comfort her.
"I just came 의해 to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to 당신 first."
I walked backwards onto the porch. I looked over to see Liz's expression. It wasn't happy. She was really mad at something. 또는 about something.
Bella, followed me onto the porch. I shut the door behind her.
"What,"I asked, placing a mask of no emotion over my face. I didn't want her to see how bad this was.
"I want 당신 back, I still 사랑 you. I see how much I need 당신 now. How can I have done that to you, choosing Jake..."
She trailed off, waiting for me to answer.
"I'm sorry, I can't do this."
"Can't do what? I know that this is hard, I still want 당신 though, I will always want you, we were perfect together. How could I not?"
"Bella, your so fickle. Can't 당신 see how much you're hurting him? I know I 사랑 you, but 당신 chose him, so 당신 should stick with him, go back, back to that dog and 당신 apologize. Please don't come back, I just can't take it. 당신 are too bad for me, and I really don't want 당신 anymore. Please, just leave."
"But, Edward,...I... I 사랑 you."
"But, I don't 사랑 you, not anymore."
She looked down, 더 많이 tears overflowing her eyes. I wanted to 덮개, 랩 my arms around her, but there was someone else that meant 더 많이 to me now.
"Go,"I said.
She stood there, then she slowly walked around me and toward her motorcycle.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I closed my eyes and went inside, my eyes pricked, like I would be crying, if I could. That was one of the worst things I've ever done, but I know now that it was for the best. That way I could have Liz.
I looked up at my revelations into the most beautiful eyes in the world.
"Are 당신 okay?"
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found something better. I also need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About the mind 읽기 thing."
"Mind 읽기 thing?.... Oh, 당신 mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand if 당신 don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if 당신 can forgive me, I don't like having 당신 mad at me. I want to tell 당신 how much 당신 really mean to me, but I don't want 당신 to leave, I don't want 당신 to hate me...."
She cut me off,"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even 당신 I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was all my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
This time I cut her off.
"It's not your fault. I know 당신 think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure 당신 won't really have it until you're a vampire, if 당신 become a vampire, but still I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, 당신 didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. 당신 on the other hand, 당신 didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
She stared at the floor, silent tears flowing down her cheeks. I felt the urge, once again, to comfort, and so I did. For the first time, I wrapped my arms around her, and I held her close to me, letting her cry herself out. I drug her over to the couch, so she could sit and I sat with her.
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I looked up as the front door opened. I didn't know how long I had been sitting here. Liz had fallen sleep. Her head rested on my lap. I let her there, for who knows how long, just not wanting to disturb her.
"How is everything?"
"Everything is fine. She feels horrible, but I think she is the one, she means 더 많이 to me than Bella did. I think that is 더 많이 than I can ask for. And I think she loves me back."
"That's wonderful, but, 당신 should let her in the bed."
"I don't want to wake her."
"Well it's almost time for sunset, so I'll go make her something to eat."
Liz stirred. She slowly opened her eyes. Then she stretched, sort of like a cat, and sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So do 당신 still want me?"
Of course I want you, I think I'm in 사랑 with you, and I never want 당신 to leave me.
She smiled at me. I smiled back.
"What do 당신 want for dinner?"
"I think I want some spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make 당신 some."
"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since 당신 make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"Liz replied.
Alice came through the door.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. 당신 are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"I said cutting her off,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to 당신 Edward,"she said, sticking her tongue at me.
I rolled my eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
"Okay, I 사랑 to shop, maybe I can get 당신 a present, since I 사랑 당신 and my feelings are returned. Besides. It's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for 당신 too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"she said jumping up.
I watched her leave. Then I grabbed the box and headed upstairs to my room. I was curious as to what Bella brought back.
"I just came 의해 to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to 당신 first."
I walked backwards onto the porch. I looked over to see Liz's expression. It wasn't happy. She was really mad at something. 또는 about something.
Bella, followed me onto the porch. I shut the door behind her.
"What,"I asked, placing a mask of no emotion over my face. I didn't want her to see how bad this was.
"I want 당신 back, I still 사랑 you. I see how much I need 당신 now. How can I have done that to you, choosing Jake..."
She trailed off, waiting for me to answer.
"I'm sorry, I can't do this."
"Can't do what? I know that this is hard, I still want 당신 though, I will always want you, we were perfect together. How could I not?"
"Bella, your so fickle. Can't 당신 see how much you're hurting him? I know I 사랑 you, but 당신 chose him, so 당신 should stick with him, go back, back to that dog and 당신 apologize. Please don't come back, I just can't take it. 당신 are too bad for me, and I really don't want 당신 anymore. Please, just leave."
"But, Edward,...I... I 사랑 you."
"But, I don't 사랑 you, not anymore."
She looked down, 더 많이 tears overflowing her eyes. I wanted to 덮개, 랩 my arms around her, but there was someone else that meant 더 많이 to me now.
"Go,"I said.
She stood there, then she slowly walked around me and toward her motorcycle.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I closed my eyes and went inside, my eyes pricked, like I would be crying, if I could. That was one of the worst things I've ever done, but I know now that it was for the best. That way I could have Liz.
I looked up at my revelations into the most beautiful eyes in the world.
"Are 당신 okay?"
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found something better. I also need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About the mind 읽기 thing."
"Mind 읽기 thing?.... Oh, 당신 mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand if 당신 don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if 당신 can forgive me, I don't like having 당신 mad at me. I want to tell 당신 how much 당신 really mean to me, but I don't want 당신 to leave, I don't want 당신 to hate me...."
She cut me off,"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even 당신 I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was all my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
This time I cut her off.
"It's not your fault. I know 당신 think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure 당신 won't really have it until you're a vampire, if 당신 become a vampire, but still I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, 당신 didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. 당신 on the other hand, 당신 didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
She stared at the floor, silent tears flowing down her cheeks. I felt the urge, once again, to comfort, and so I did. For the first time, I wrapped my arms around her, and I held her close to me, letting her cry herself out. I drug her over to the couch, so she could sit and I sat with her.
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I looked up as the front door opened. I didn't know how long I had been sitting here. Liz had fallen sleep. Her head rested on my lap. I let her there, for who knows how long, just not wanting to disturb her.
"How is everything?"
"Everything is fine. She feels horrible, but I think she is the one, she means 더 많이 to me than Bella did. I think that is 더 많이 than I can ask for. And I think she loves me back."
"That's wonderful, but, 당신 should let her in the bed."
"I don't want to wake her."
"Well it's almost time for sunset, so I'll go make her something to eat."
Liz stirred. She slowly opened her eyes. Then she stretched, sort of like a cat, and sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So do 당신 still want me?"
Of course I want you, I think I'm in 사랑 with you, and I never want 당신 to leave me.
She smiled at me. I smiled back.
"What do 당신 want for dinner?"
"I think I want some spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make 당신 some."
"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since 당신 make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"Liz replied.
Alice came through the door.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. 당신 are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"I said cutting her off,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to 당신 Edward,"she said, sticking her tongue at me.
I rolled my eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
"Okay, I 사랑 to shop, maybe I can get 당신 a present, since I 사랑 당신 and my feelings are returned. Besides. It's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for 당신 too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"she said jumping up.
I watched her leave. Then I grabbed the box and headed upstairs to my room. I was curious as to what Bella brought back.
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the 심장 which will stop beating soon, the 심장 which was the reason for me to live, the 심장 which she had given to me to keep 안전한, 안전 just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the 심장 which will stop beating soon, the 심장 which was the reason for me to live, the 심장 which she had given to me to keep 안전한, 안전 just like how I had given her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Breaking Dawn
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what 당신 think- does it help at all??
Characters Heights
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what 당신 think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when 당신 say one of the 코멘트 -and you've probably said one of the 코멘트 더 많이 then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure 당신 can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so 인기 if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my 프렌즈 just don't understand lol). How many do 당신 think 당신 can fill, 코멘트 below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what 당신 think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure 당신 can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so 인기 if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my 프렌즈 just don't understand lol). How many do 당신 think 당신 can fill, 코멘트 below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what 당신 think please.
How many have you filled?
So these are, 의해 far, my 가장 좋아하는 인용구 from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I 사랑 you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I 사랑 you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
