here is a poem... my therapist wants me to find ways to talk about my feelings....
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
또는 did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed 의해 it.
deeply consumed like me.
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
또는 did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed 의해 it.
deeply consumed like me.
MUSIC
by: Charles Baudelaire
음악 doth 융기, 향상 me like a sea
Towards my planet pale,
Then through dark fogs 또는 heaven's infinity
I lift my wandering sail.
With breast advanced, drinking the winds that flee,
And through the cordage wail,
I mount the hurrying waves night hides from me
Beneath her sombre veil.
I feel the tremblings of all passions known
To ships before the breeze;
Cradled 의해 gentle winds, 또는 tempest-blown
I pass the abysmal seas
That are, when calm, the mirror level and fair
Of my despair!
by: Charles Baudelaire
음악 doth 융기, 향상 me like a sea
Towards my planet pale,
Then through dark fogs 또는 heaven's infinity
I lift my wandering sail.
With breast advanced, drinking the winds that flee,
And through the cordage wail,
I mount the hurrying waves night hides from me
Beneath her sombre veil.
I feel the tremblings of all passions known
To ships before the breeze;
Cradled 의해 gentle winds, 또는 tempest-blown
I pass the abysmal seas
That are, when calm, the mirror level and fair
Of my despair!
How I Really Feel About You
I hate putting up with this act.
I can't stand it anymore.
I have to tell 당신 how I really feel.
I don't know if 당신 will like it
but here it goes:
I HATE you, I don't EVER want to see 당신 again.
I hate that 당신 think I will do anything for you
because 당신 still think I like you.
I like someone new and I know that they
will treat me better than 당신 ever did.
That is how I really feel about you, and I
knew that 당신 wouldn't like it, but 당신 know what
I DON'T CARE!
I hate putting up with this act.
I can't stand it anymore.
I have to tell 당신 how I really feel.
I don't know if 당신 will like it
but here it goes:
I HATE you, I don't EVER want to see 당신 again.
I hate that 당신 think I will do anything for you
because 당신 still think I like you.
I like someone new and I know that they
will treat me better than 당신 ever did.
That is how I really feel about you, and I
knew that 당신 wouldn't like it, but 당신 know what
I DON'T CARE!
I Give 당신 These Verses So That If My Name
I give 당신 these verses so that if my name,
A vessel favored 의해 a strong north wind,
Fortunately reaches the distant future's shore,
And some night sets the minds of men to dreaming,
Your memory, like fables shrouded in the past,
Will weary the reader like a dulcimer,
And 의해 a mystical, brotherly bond
Remain suspended from my haughty verse;
Accurst being to whom, from the deep abysm
To the highest heaven, nothing responds, save me!
— O 당신 who, like an ephemeral ghost,
Trample lightly and with a serene look
Upon the dull mortals who found 당신 repugnant,
Jet eyed statue, tall 앤젤 with a brow of bronze!
I give 당신 these verses so that if my name,
A vessel favored 의해 a strong north wind,
Fortunately reaches the distant future's shore,
And some night sets the minds of men to dreaming,
Your memory, like fables shrouded in the past,
Will weary the reader like a dulcimer,
And 의해 a mystical, brotherly bond
Remain suspended from my haughty verse;
Accurst being to whom, from the deep abysm
To the highest heaven, nothing responds, save me!
— O 당신 who, like an ephemeral ghost,
Trample lightly and with a serene look
Upon the dull mortals who found 당신 repugnant,
Jet eyed statue, tall 앤젤 with a brow of bronze!
So sweet the hour, so calm the time,
I feel it 더 많이 than half a crime,
When Nature sleeps and stars are mute,
To mar the silence ev'n with lute.
At rest on ocean's brilliant dyes
An image of Elysium lies
Seven Pleiades entranced in Heaven,
Form in the deep another seven:
Endymion nodding from above
Sees in the sea a 초 love.
Within the valleys dim and brown,
And on the spectral mountain's crown,
The wearied light is dying down,
And earth, and stars, and sea, and sky
Are redolent of sleep, as I
Am redolent of thee and thine
Enthralling love, my Adeline.
But list, O list, so soft and low
Thy lover's voice tonight shall flow,
That, scarce awake, thy soul shall deem
My words the 음악 of a dream.
Thus, while no single sound too rude
Upon thy slumber shall intrude,
Our thoughts, our souls O God above!
In every deed shall mingle, love.
Romance, who loves to nod and sing,
With drowsy head and folded wing,
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been a most familiar bird
Taught me my alphabet to say
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child- with a most knowing eye.
Of late, eternal 콘도르, 콘도 르 years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky.
And when an 시간 with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away- forbidden things !
My 심장 would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings.