The darkness of the night falls.
I feel myself give in to the temptation of sleep.
I lay down and I fall into a deep sleep.
I dream of a wonder place.
Peacful peoeple.
Loving family.
A loveing world.
I look to the side.
I see a beatiful red head looking back at me.
I walk to her.
She hugs me.
She tells me she is fine.
She is safe.
I cry.
I begg.
I plead.
For her not to leave me.
I tell her I am sorry for what I did.
That I want to be with her.
She holds me close.
She tells me not to worry.
She says I forgive 당신 baby.
She says I 사랑 당신 baby.
I do not believe her.
I hold on tight.
Not wanting to let go.
She tells me to let go.
I refuss.
She tells me if I do not I will drown in my own sorrow.
I do not care she is all I want.
Then everything starts to fade.
The sounds.
The people.
The person holding me is gone.
I scream and cry.
*MOM PLEASE COME BACK I'M SO SORRY!!*
I slowly wake up.
I am in the bathroom.
Looking at myself in the mirrow.
I look down.
In one hand I hold a razor.
In the other my wrist is cut.
I stare at the person in the mirrow.
Dear god look at what I have become.
I feel myself give in to the temptation of sleep.
I lay down and I fall into a deep sleep.
I dream of a wonder place.
Peacful peoeple.
Loving family.
A loveing world.
I look to the side.
I see a beatiful red head looking back at me.
I walk to her.
She hugs me.
She tells me she is fine.
She is safe.
I cry.
I begg.
I plead.
For her not to leave me.
I tell her I am sorry for what I did.
That I want to be with her.
She holds me close.
She tells me not to worry.
She says I forgive 당신 baby.
She says I 사랑 당신 baby.
I do not believe her.
I hold on tight.
Not wanting to let go.
She tells me to let go.
I refuss.
She tells me if I do not I will drown in my own sorrow.
I do not care she is all I want.
Then everything starts to fade.
The sounds.
The people.
The person holding me is gone.
I scream and cry.
*MOM PLEASE COME BACK I'M SO SORRY!!*
I slowly wake up.
I am in the bathroom.
Looking at myself in the mirrow.
I look down.
In one hand I hold a razor.
In the other my wrist is cut.
I stare at the person in the mirrow.
Dear god look at what I have become.
I had a dream last night
In it people were smiling, helping one another
Caring and sharing like it was 크리스마스 every day
The air was pure the sky clear of smog and filth
Hand in hand the people rejoyced
노래 aloud and counting their blessings.
But then I woke up to a nightmare to cursing
And violence the air thick with black death
Where no one lifted a finger to help one another.
It's all about me! What about me they would scream
Scheming, stealing and lying just to get by
When can I wake up once again to retreat
Into my santuary that was a golden world
To escape this reality that is my nightmare?
In it people were smiling, helping one another
Caring and sharing like it was 크리스마스 every day
The air was pure the sky clear of smog and filth
Hand in hand the people rejoyced
노래 aloud and counting their blessings.
But then I woke up to a nightmare to cursing
And violence the air thick with black death
Where no one lifted a finger to help one another.
It's all about me! What about me they would scream
Scheming, stealing and lying just to get by
When can I wake up once again to retreat
Into my santuary that was a golden world
To escape this reality that is my nightmare?