So far away are the stars
Like dreams that are abiding
Filled with light and hope they guide us
Through our troubles, wonders of the unknown
Are what scare me away into hiding
I try my hardest to put myself out there
To challenge my will and face the dawn
I want to prove I can be a shooting star
In your eternal night sky, I'm different
Unlike the girls who wear colored masks
And 담홍색, 핑크 skirts constricting them, preventing them
Of who they can be, instead a hollow shell filled
With shadows of regret and remorse.
The risks we take are of a leap of faith
저기요 it's better than wondering what could've been
I'm willing to take a chance and show my colors
I wanna be loved for me not someone who pretends

I see you.
I feel you.
I reach to touch you.
Your not there.
my hand goes right threw you.
I'm just a ghost.
I whatch you.
I need you.
당신 are a life time way.
I'm just a ghost
I call out to you.
당신 turn.
당신 look right at me.
God do 당신 see me?
No 당신 dont.
당신 look right threw me.
당신 turn and walk away.
I am left agine.
In darkness.
I'm just a ghost
I've 로스트 you.
I whatch 당신 walk away.
I feel the pain.
Wait,
I cant feel.
I must be alive somehow.
For dead the cant feel pain like this.
I run to you.
I'm here I say.
당신 look right pass me.
I'm not dead, not like death.
The death I am is much 더 많이 painful.
I'm dieng from a broken heart.
A pain I can not controll.
A 사랑 lose that I can never get back.
Now I know.
I'm just a ghost.
Waiting to expire.

~Month~

March

~Day~

Eighth

~Simble~

불, 화재
Feeling

South

~About The Red BlooD Moon~
Nuber Is 9 and the color is Red Blood,
its the beginning of a lunar eclpise.Lunar ecplise come every few years.



If born on a Lunar moon 또는 A red Blood Moon Aires,Engery,ideas,beginnings.leadership,willpower and spiriitual conversion.


It is said this if born on a Red Blood Moon that 당신 will have the ability to 사랑 and understand,very open mindness the abitity to survive threw the most difficult part of life.


~♥~Blesses Be~♥~

I had a dream last night
In it people were smiling, helping one another
Caring and sharing like it was 크리스마스 every day
The air was pure the sky clear of smog and filth
Hand in hand the people rejoyced
노래 aloud and counting their blessings.
But then I woke up to a nightmare to cursing
And violence the air thick with black death
Where no one lifted a finger to help one another.
It's all about me! What about me they would scream
Scheming, stealing and lying just to get by
When can I wake up once again to retreat
Into my santuary that was a golden world
To escape this reality that is my nightmare?

~Month~

March

~Day~

Tenth

~Simble~

불, 화재
Feeling

South

~About The Red BlooD Moon~
Nuber Is 9 and the color is Red Blood,
its the beginning of a lunar eclpise.Lunar ecplise come every few years.



If born on a Lunar moon 또는 A red Blood Moon Aires,Engery,ideas,beginnings.leadership,willpower and spiriitual conversion.


It is said this if born on a Red Blood Moon that 당신 will have the ability to 사랑 and understand,very open mindness the abitity to survive threw the most difficult part of life.


~♥~Blesses Be~♥~

I killed my mom!
My fault!
I made my dad hate me!
My fault!
I made my brother rezent me!
My fault!
I made my dad hit me!
My fault!
I made my brother burn me!
My fault!
I sit im a dark corner crying!
My fault!
I think of my life!
My fault!
A 사랑 lost!
A family lost!
A life lost!
My fault!
I take my razor!
My fault!
I look at my wrist!
Already covered with scars!
I'll one last one!
My fault!
I run the razor across my wrist!
My fault!
I whatch the blood drip to the floor!
My fault!
I lean aginst the 벽 and close my eyes!
My fault!
I feel nothing anymore!
My soul is dead!
Along with my heart!
The is still running!
A very heavey flow!
I do not care to get help!
My fault!
I'm sorry mom!
My fault!
I forgive 당신 dad!
My fault!
I 사랑 당신 brother!
my fault!
Head swims and I feel cold!
My fault!
I sit in a dark corner!
And bleed!
My life is over!
My fault!

She wakes with pain.
Server pain.
She can barely move.
The water running down her legs.
She's scared.
She turns to her husband.
To her son.
She's scared.
But she's smiling.
A baby girl is coming.
The pain is not like before.
She knows somethings wrong.
But she says nothing.
At the hospital.
They prep her.
They help her.
They show her what to do.
This is not the first time for her.
She lays there in pain.
Refussing to take anything.
Afraid to hurt the child.
It's almost time.
the pain grows.
She knows that this will be her last.
Through the pain,sweat,and blood.
She strains,breath,and prays.
Relife.
She hears her baby girl crys.
As her life slips.
A life was born.
While a life dies.
A tragic lose.

I crave a family.
I'm not worth it.
I crave love.
I'm not worth it.
I crave freinds.
I'm not worth it.
I crave freedom.
I'm not worth it.
I crave to be desired.
I'm not worth it.
I crave a loving touch.
I'm not worth it.
I wont my mom.
I'm not worth it.
I wont to live.
I'm not worth it.
I wont to be saved.
I'm not worth it.
SUDDENLY!
A warm smile.
I'm still not woth it.
A loving word.
I'm still not worth it.
A warm feeling.
I'm still not worth it.
A gental love.
I'm still worth it.
I hang my head and walk away.
Cuz I know I'm not worth it

I'm crying.
I'm scared.
Why do I have to go through this?
The pain.
The hate.
I know why I have to go through this.
A pure sould died with my life.
Dieing.
Screaming.
Yearning.
I can not take this any longer.
In the bathroom.
Lights are out.
The tub is full of hot water.
I look at myself in the mirrow.
Ugly.
Stupid.
Horrable.
All I see is a ugly red head with clear eyes.
Someone who should have never been born.
I play it over and over in my head.
*You killed your mother*
It never stops.
It never will.
I hold the razor in my hand.
I hear the voises.
I cut.
The cool razor slices into my skin.
The heat for the blood.
I lay down in the tub.
The water is hot.
but I am cold.
I close my eyes and call for my mom.
no answer.
I sink lower.
The red water covers my face.
A life for a life.
I killed my mom.
So I must suffer and die.
Laying in blood like she was.
I do not care anymore.
I welcome death.
Mom I am coming home.