Chapter Two: Stay. Never Let Me Go
Mishaps are like knives, that either serve us 또는 cut us, as we grasp them 의해 the blade 또는 the handle.
-- James Russell Lowell
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It's been five days since my last meeting with Courtney which was the same 일 she told me that she was marrying the guy her dad wanted her to and she was going to today. I haven't talked to her since then. I was depressed because I 사랑 her and I can't bare myself to see her be wedded off to another guy that isn't me. When she told me the only thing I could do was tell her that everything will be okay and that when she gets older that she'll find someone that she loves and they'll get a divorce. Then she told me that she already found someone that she loves and that sent a stab to my heart. I was hoping that she would say me, but those words never escaped her lips. Honestly, I was begging for the 답변 that she and only she could give me.
Which makes me think, why was she crying? Was she crying because she was marrying someone she doesn't love? 또는 somewhere deep inside her 심장 she feels the same way about me? Does she really want to be with me the way I really want to be with her? Is it possible that what I'm feeling is just a myth?
So many 질문 run through my mind every single time I think of her and that Unholy day. I still hold onto the letter she gave me before she ran 집 to prepare herself. I'm assuming that 사랑 makes 당신 a different person. But, I don't want to accept that she's gone and probably never coming back.
I held the letter tighter in my hands never wanting to let go of the only piece of her I have left. My fingertips still tingle from when my fingers grazed through her maine. The words of her letter still replays in my mind. I was nearly scared to death of what she left in paragraphs. Of thousands of words that were nearly over us. And, I still can't forget when she turned around and grabbed her bags.
I forced myself to stop thinking about her and to go on about my walk. I walked to the 바닷가, 비치 and sat down in the sand my arms folded around my knees and up to my chest. So, I'll be here 의해 the ocean just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams. Just waiting for someone to tell me that all of this isn't happening. Like all my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every waves drag me to sea.
I could stand here for hours to ask the God the question: Is everyone here make-believe? Then with a tear in his voice He said "Son, that's the question.". Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?
The lack of her voice is killing me deeply and does that mean anything to anyone? But now, I'm starting to wonder was it something that I did wrong for her to not even call me anymore 또는 even talk to me at school?
For now it seems as if hours 옮기기 to 분 and the 분 take longer to break. I will be desperately waiting just for her to come back. I hope that where ever she will go that she will wait for me. But, for it seems that this current is moving too slow for me. This much 당신 must know, we'll meet again. Oh, and El, I'll have 당신 know I'm scared to death.
I looked up to the sky and sucked in a lung full of breath and continued to stare at the emptiness. Although there may be nothing to see, I hope he will let her know to never forget me...then again, she's leaving everything behind especially Our spot.
No longer was I feeling gloomy and in my Fuck My Life state, I felt the malice grow in my veins and how my 심장 was swelling with hatred in her name. She's leaving everything like nothing ever mattered! I clenched my fists and stood up and ran home. Not only was she leaving me but Bridgette, Gwen, Trent, and Geoff. Oh God Geoff, that was like his little sister. Who could do such a thing? To their friends, just ditch them and leave like none of the shit that they've been doing for the whole fucking school 년 never even crossed their mind that leaving would have such an impact on those around?
***
I reached my house 5 분 later, I was in such a rush that I didn't even feel the yell of my lungs searching for air. I ran to my room and gathered all the pictures that we took together when we were on good terms. I grabbed a nearby trash can that I never used until now and I started throwing away pictures that I never should have taken in the first place. It's cold in my apartment as I'm changing all the brightest reds to greys. I growled low from all the pictures that we took when we became 프렌즈 but I must say that we were never 프렌즈 until junior year. Freshman 년 I hated her and she hated me, but that hate grew into a 사랑 hate situation and one that only we knew understood and never questioned. I looked at the clock that was sitting on my nightstand and it's 3 o'clock Monday morning and I'm just hoping and praying that she's not seeing his face, cause I have known long enough that it was him that took my place.
I hope this makes her fucking happy, happy that she left me when I 사랑 her. So, I hope she's happy that the flame we had is burning out and I hope she loves her pictures facing down. But, even broken hearts may have their doubts. I brushed that thought away and grabbed my lighter and set a little 불, 화재 in the trash can and I'm burning the letter wishing that I might forget her. A bad taste that she left when she was leaving me; alive but barely breathing as she walked out of Our spot.
Does it seem like all this is like a song? She dropped the note and we changed key. She changed herself and I changed me. Though, I really didn't see us 노래 through this. Then she screamed the bridge and I cried the verse. And, our chorus came out unrehearsed then she smiled the whole way through it, I guess maybe that's what's worse. Worse because this isn't at all how I wanted things to happen. I walked to my shelf and took away all our memories. I don't need her 또는 anybody else. I'd rather die than be with her!
I clutched my hair and sat down on my 침대 and pulled my hair, not enough to make me bald but enough for me to feel pain. Sometimes feeling pain is better than feeling sorrow. Even broken hearts has their doubts came back into my mind.
She makes breaking hearts look so easy.
Mishaps are like knives, that either serve us 또는 cut us, as we grasp them 의해 the blade 또는 the handle.
-- James Russell Lowell
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It's been five days since my last meeting with Courtney which was the same 일 she told me that she was marrying the guy her dad wanted her to and she was going to today. I haven't talked to her since then. I was depressed because I 사랑 her and I can't bare myself to see her be wedded off to another guy that isn't me. When she told me the only thing I could do was tell her that everything will be okay and that when she gets older that she'll find someone that she loves and they'll get a divorce. Then she told me that she already found someone that she loves and that sent a stab to my heart. I was hoping that she would say me, but those words never escaped her lips. Honestly, I was begging for the 답변 that she and only she could give me.
Which makes me think, why was she crying? Was she crying because she was marrying someone she doesn't love? 또는 somewhere deep inside her 심장 she feels the same way about me? Does she really want to be with me the way I really want to be with her? Is it possible that what I'm feeling is just a myth?
So many 질문 run through my mind every single time I think of her and that Unholy day. I still hold onto the letter she gave me before she ran 집 to prepare herself. I'm assuming that 사랑 makes 당신 a different person. But, I don't want to accept that she's gone and probably never coming back.
I held the letter tighter in my hands never wanting to let go of the only piece of her I have left. My fingertips still tingle from when my fingers grazed through her maine. The words of her letter still replays in my mind. I was nearly scared to death of what she left in paragraphs. Of thousands of words that were nearly over us. And, I still can't forget when she turned around and grabbed her bags.
I forced myself to stop thinking about her and to go on about my walk. I walked to the 바닷가, 비치 and sat down in the sand my arms folded around my knees and up to my chest. So, I'll be here 의해 the ocean just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams. Just waiting for someone to tell me that all of this isn't happening. Like all my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every waves drag me to sea.
I could stand here for hours to ask the God the question: Is everyone here make-believe? Then with a tear in his voice He said "Son, that's the question.". Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?
The lack of her voice is killing me deeply and does that mean anything to anyone? But now, I'm starting to wonder was it something that I did wrong for her to not even call me anymore 또는 even talk to me at school?
For now it seems as if hours 옮기기 to 분 and the 분 take longer to break. I will be desperately waiting just for her to come back. I hope that where ever she will go that she will wait for me. But, for it seems that this current is moving too slow for me. This much 당신 must know, we'll meet again. Oh, and El, I'll have 당신 know I'm scared to death.
I looked up to the sky and sucked in a lung full of breath and continued to stare at the emptiness. Although there may be nothing to see, I hope he will let her know to never forget me...then again, she's leaving everything behind especially Our spot.
No longer was I feeling gloomy and in my Fuck My Life state, I felt the malice grow in my veins and how my 심장 was swelling with hatred in her name. She's leaving everything like nothing ever mattered! I clenched my fists and stood up and ran home. Not only was she leaving me but Bridgette, Gwen, Trent, and Geoff. Oh God Geoff, that was like his little sister. Who could do such a thing? To their friends, just ditch them and leave like none of the shit that they've been doing for the whole fucking school 년 never even crossed their mind that leaving would have such an impact on those around?
***
I reached my house 5 분 later, I was in such a rush that I didn't even feel the yell of my lungs searching for air. I ran to my room and gathered all the pictures that we took together when we were on good terms. I grabbed a nearby trash can that I never used until now and I started throwing away pictures that I never should have taken in the first place. It's cold in my apartment as I'm changing all the brightest reds to greys. I growled low from all the pictures that we took when we became 프렌즈 but I must say that we were never 프렌즈 until junior year. Freshman 년 I hated her and she hated me, but that hate grew into a 사랑 hate situation and one that only we knew understood and never questioned. I looked at the clock that was sitting on my nightstand and it's 3 o'clock Monday morning and I'm just hoping and praying that she's not seeing his face, cause I have known long enough that it was him that took my place.
I hope this makes her fucking happy, happy that she left me when I 사랑 her. So, I hope she's happy that the flame we had is burning out and I hope she loves her pictures facing down. But, even broken hearts may have their doubts. I brushed that thought away and grabbed my lighter and set a little 불, 화재 in the trash can and I'm burning the letter wishing that I might forget her. A bad taste that she left when she was leaving me; alive but barely breathing as she walked out of Our spot.
Does it seem like all this is like a song? She dropped the note and we changed key. She changed herself and I changed me. Though, I really didn't see us 노래 through this. Then she screamed the bridge and I cried the verse. And, our chorus came out unrehearsed then she smiled the whole way through it, I guess maybe that's what's worse. Worse because this isn't at all how I wanted things to happen. I walked to my shelf and took away all our memories. I don't need her 또는 anybody else. I'd rather die than be with her!
I clutched my hair and sat down on my 침대 and pulled my hair, not enough to make me bald but enough for me to feel pain. Sometimes feeling pain is better than feeling sorrow. Even broken hearts has their doubts came back into my mind.
She makes breaking hearts look so easy.
good mornin princess-duncan
mornin-courtney
(they go to kiss)
*crying*-lauren
ugh why now-duncan
haha-courtney
why r u laughing-duncan
its funny-courtney
당신 know 당신 want me-duncan
not at the moment-courtney
yes 당신 do admit it-duncan
*crying*-lauren
daddy its for you-courtney
fine-duncan
OMG DUNCAN!!!!!-courtney
WHAT-duncan
be careful 당신 almost dropped her-courtney
can it princess-duncan
SHUT UP!!!!-courtney
yeah yeah yeah-duncan
당신 WANNA COME OVER HERE AND SAY THAT TO MY FACE!!!-courtney
uummm coming lauren-duncan
your already holding her-courtney
uummm uh-duncan
admit it your scared of me-courtney
no im not-duncan
then come here-courtney
gladly-duncan
grrrrrrrr-courtney
*runs away*-duncan
i knew it-courtney
TO BE CONTINUDE
ok well i picked out the dress-courtney
when do 당신 wanna watch this movie-duncan
how about now-courtney
ok-duncan
THE END
sorry there wasnt much but tune in 다음 time 4 TDI HIGH
당신 will 사랑 the knew episode heres a preview,
did you-bridgete
yes-courtney
when ya know-bridgete
soon-courtney
THERE IT IS
BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!
!!!!
!!!
!!
!
when do 당신 wanna watch this movie-duncan
how about now-courtney
ok-duncan
THE END
sorry there wasnt much but tune in 다음 time 4 TDI HIGH
당신 will 사랑 the knew episode heres a preview,
did you-bridgete
yes-courtney
when ya know-bridgete
soon-courtney
THERE IT IS
BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!
!!!!
!!!
!!
!
The Gaffers are in the trailor also thinking of what they should do...
Duncan: Ok so we have all the decorations done now what?
LaShawna: Now we have to decide whos gonna be the bride and the groom we know it cant be Harold over here so Duncan?
Duncan: Fine... but only because i know Dorkahauntis cant be it..
Confession Cam:
LeShawna: I only did that because i over-heard the gripps saying that Courtney is gonna be the bride and when Duncan And Courtney see each other they're gonna be gettin back together in a snap
Duncan: So I guess that leaves...
Chris: Okay times up! wait the gaffers dont have a bride yet...
Duncan: we were gonna choose...
Chris: Well i guess your gonna hav to use Gwen as a bride!
Duncan: WHAT!!! THAT CANT HAPPEN SHE GOT ELIMINATED!!!!!!!!!
Gwen whalks out the bathroom with a smile on her face
Gwen: What was that Duncan?
All: 0_0
Duncan: Ok so we have all the decorations done now what?
LaShawna: Now we have to decide whos gonna be the bride and the groom we know it cant be Harold over here so Duncan?
Duncan: Fine... but only because i know Dorkahauntis cant be it..
Confession Cam:
LeShawna: I only did that because i over-heard the gripps saying that Courtney is gonna be the bride and when Duncan And Courtney see each other they're gonna be gettin back together in a snap
Duncan: So I guess that leaves...
Chris: Okay times up! wait the gaffers dont have a bride yet...
Duncan: we were gonna choose...
Chris: Well i guess your gonna hav to use Gwen as a bride!
Duncan: WHAT!!! THAT CANT HAPPEN SHE GOT ELIMINATED!!!!!!!!!
Gwen whalks out the bathroom with a smile on her face
Gwen: What was that Duncan?
All: 0_0
건초 hot stuff-duncan
supp badboy-courtney
nm hows my baby-duncan
its fine-courtney
i was talking about you-duncan
oh im good now that your here-courtney
*they kiss*
wanna go out to night-duncan
i seriously wish i could but i have my class president campian today-courtney
oh that thing-duncan
yeah, 당신 wanna come-courtney
sure as long as its not boring-duncan
it wont be-courtney
(At the campain)
so i promise to conduct myself with integrady,honer,and i'll get 2 new pop machines for the cafatiria-courtney
*duncan runs up on the stage*
*whispers* what the hell are 당신 doing-courtney
PICK COURTNEY AND I WONT KILL YOU-duncan
DUNCAN!!!!-courtney
what, its true-duncan
(everyone raises there hands)
I'LL VOTE FOR COURTNEY!!!-everyone
see i knew what i was doing-duncan
awwwwwwww thank you-courtney
*they kiss*
TO BE CONTINUDE
(at the hospital)
i cant beleive that i had a baby-gwen
oh im so happy i 사랑 당신 gwen-trent
i 사랑 당신 too trent-gwen
*everyone comes in the hospital room*
whats his name-courtney
his name is nathan-gwen
thats great-bridgete
look at my hand-trent
omg 당신 really messed trent up gwen-courtney
im sorry trent-gwen
its okay as long as i have a baby-trent
awwwwww-*everyone*
so how does it feel to have a kid-courtney
its great and i know im gonna 사랑 it-trent
ok but we gotta go bye-duncan
(outside the hospital)
*duncan starts making out with courtney*
(20 분 later)
ok i gotta get 집 now bye
THE END
TUNE IN 다음 TIME 4 ANOTHER EPISODE OF TDI HIGH
sorry 4 not having much for this episode
i cant beleive that i had a baby-gwen
oh im so happy i 사랑 당신 gwen-trent
i 사랑 당신 too trent-gwen
*everyone comes in the hospital room*
whats his name-courtney
his name is nathan-gwen
thats great-bridgete
look at my hand-trent
omg 당신 really messed trent up gwen-courtney
im sorry trent-gwen
its okay as long as i have a baby-trent
awwwwww-*everyone*
so how does it feel to have a kid-courtney
its great and i know im gonna 사랑 it-trent
ok but we gotta go bye-duncan
(outside the hospital)
*duncan starts making out with courtney*
(20 분 later)
ok i gotta get 집 now bye
THE END
TUNE IN 다음 TIME 4 ANOTHER EPISODE OF TDI HIGH
sorry 4 not having much for this episode
*duncan and courtney 신고 to the office plz*-intercome
oh sh**-duncan
i bet were in trouble-courteny
one of your 프렌즈 is in the principals room she wants to talk to you-office lady
(*gwen,geoff,and bridgete r sitting in chares in principals room*)
*whispers to duncan* good were not in trouble-courtney
건초 guys-duncan
*crying*-gwen
omg gwen whats wronge-courtney
im im im-gwen
your wat-courtney
im pregnant-gwen
omg r u sure-courtney
yes *pulls up her 셔츠 a little*-gwen
and i took a preggo test-gwen
whos is it-duncan
trents-gwen
well dah duncan your somtimes so stupid-courtney
저기요 im still your delinquent-duncan
ofcourse-courtney
i just dont know how to tell trent-gwen
당신 just have to let him know he'l understand-bridgete
yeah-geoff
ok i'll try *cry's on courtney's sholder*-gwen
its ok *pats gwens back*-courtney
TO BE CONTINUDE
oh sh**-duncan
i bet were in trouble-courteny
one of your 프렌즈 is in the principals room she wants to talk to you-office lady
(*gwen,geoff,and bridgete r sitting in chares in principals room*)
*whispers to duncan* good were not in trouble-courtney
건초 guys-duncan
*crying*-gwen
omg gwen whats wronge-courtney
im im im-gwen
your wat-courtney
im pregnant-gwen
omg r u sure-courtney
yes *pulls up her 셔츠 a little*-gwen
and i took a preggo test-gwen
whos is it-duncan
trents-gwen
well dah duncan your somtimes so stupid-courtney
저기요 im still your delinquent-duncan
ofcourse-courtney
i just dont know how to tell trent-gwen
당신 just have to let him know he'l understand-bridgete
yeah-geoff
ok i'll try *cry's on courtney's sholder*-gwen
its ok *pats gwens back*-courtney
TO BE CONTINUDE