I miss you, I miss you. I miss 당신 so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in 사랑 with you. My memories keep looking for 당신 but find that you're not here with me anymore.

[i]I miss you, I miss you. I miss 당신 so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in 사랑 with you. My memories keep looking for 당신 but find that you're not here with me anymore.[/i[

The 다음 day, after eating breakfast, 당신 and Randy go to the 바닷가, 비치 together. It's kinda empty cuz it's early in the morning. 당신 and Randy just wore regular clothes to the beach...

Chapter 12: Take My Breath Away

Landon walked around the park and he remembered times that his mom and him walked around here.

Landon knew one 일 he'll walk around the park with Britney.

Landon walked back to the hospital.

Jamie was holding Britney.

Cynthia was in the room too with a cup of coffee.

Landon kissed his mom's cheek and then he kissed Jamie.

"Where did 당신 go?" asked Jamie

"I took a walk," said Landon

"So did 당신 call your boss?" asked Cynthia

"Three days off" said Landon

"Good" said Jamie

"I can't wait to spend time with my little girl" said Landon

Landon was holding Britney.

At 3:54...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," said Jamie

"I know he is," said Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes 당신 talk to him kay" said Jamie

"Kay" said Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair 다음 to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let 당신 go. I drive myself crazy, wanting 당신 the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him 더 많이 as days pass by. It's been a 월 since 당신 and Randy haven't said a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. 당신 can feel it and 당신 can see it. Whenever 당신 look in the mirror, 당신 see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at 농구 lately. Your coach notices and he talks with 당신 about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can 당신 do Jamie? 당신 need to rest. 당신 can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I 사랑 playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One 일 Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" said Camilla

"Hello Camilla 당신 look nice today" said Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," said Camilla

"Thank you" said Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the 부엌, 주방 there was Hegbert making 수프 for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a 조랑말 tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the 다음 with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a 암캐, 암 캐 today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: 사랑 and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" said Hegbert

"Hey dad" said Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a 프렌즈 house," said Jamie

"Can't wait to see 당신 guys there," said Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," said Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" said Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees 당신 go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The 이미지 of 당신 crying your 심장 out, shouting that 당신 wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce 당신 husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's 프렌즈 were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor said it was ok. He sees 당신 sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits 다음 to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for 당신 의해 breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair 다음 to your bed. 당신 look around and 당신 realize your in a hospital. 당신 can't remember anything that happened to 당신 before except the dizziness 당신 felt back at Randy's house. 당신 smile...

I 사랑 you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that 당신 are my one and only last love.

The whole day, 당신 and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. 당신 guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and 당신 hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's 당신 again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your 침대 and gets under your covers. 당신 follow right after and 당신 키스 him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and 당신 guys all go back to school...

Shawn: 저기요 Taylor. 당신 think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. 당신 should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: 당신 should let go of Jamie. I mean 당신 haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know 당신 like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my 사랑 really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this 사랑 to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives 당신 a dirty look. 당신 get a bad feeling and she pushes 당신 and says:

Lauren: Are 당신 a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First 당신 like him, then 당신 break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are 당신 trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. 당신 said 당신 were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, 당신 wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. 당신 twitch and 당신 quickly yet gently 옮기기 Randy's hands off your waist. 당신 leave the 침상, 소파 and 당신 run to the bathroom and 당신 head to the toilet. 당신 just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, 당신 look and 당신 see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your 침대 and 당신 plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. 당신 look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give 당신 what 당신 deserve.

Brad is about to 펀치 Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: 저기요 저기요 hey!! What the hell is wrong with 당신 Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE 당신 try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though 당신 might never be 의해 my side again, I will never forget you. 당신 won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come 의해 me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt 의해 당신 again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? 당신 always cared for them 더 많이 than 당신 did for me 또는 for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least 당신 could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and 당신 sit in the back 좌석 of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like 당신 Jamie. Not just as a friend but 더 많이 than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, 당신 just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want 당신 to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want 당신 to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want 당신 to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. 당신 hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't 당신 understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, 또는 can it be me in the 다음 life time? Even if 당신 promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway 다음 to Shawn's car and 당신 see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees 당신 and Randy and 당신 get out of the car with Randy. 당신 quickly get Angie and 당신 walk 다음 to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to 당신 and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole 월 passed 의해 and 당신 and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. 당신 and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and 당신 spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, 또는 hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do 당신 wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days 당신 going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so 당신 won't be bored....