learing to let go is like jumping out of an airplan with no para shoot
Alec pulled up at his house, we didn't talk the whole way there. I knew I should give him time to cool off, he opened my door for me and I got out of the car. When we got inside we went straight to the Coach, he went to the 부엌, 주방 and poured us some drinks. For a while we sat there not saying anything, Then he stood up and offered me his hand.
Sill not saying anything we walked out the door hand and hand, I didn't know where we were going but I trusted him. I smiled to my self I never trusted anyone before not even when my family was still alive. Alec drove us to Rose hill, we hiked up to the 상단, 맨 위로 and sat down. He stared talking first. "I'm sorry about what happened, it just that-" I shook my head "Thank you, I mean I don't even know why I gave that dumb 나귀, 엉덩이 the time of day.
Alec laughed, "why did you?" he said all of a sudden, I thought for a moment and then shrugged my shoulders. "I don't really know, I guess it's because he made me fill like I was wanted." Alec looked at me not quite understanding I sighed. "It's complicated I guess I stared to let my guard down, ever since..." I drifted off the only people who knew about my family was Manny, Jane, Aunt Maggie and me. I did a pretty good job of keeping it out of the paper.
Alec looked at me, I made sure to avoid his eyes, "ever since your family died." He finished for me, I nodded not quite caring how he knew about it. We were quite for a few minutes, "I know how it fills" I looked at him "excuse me?" He rolled his eyes, "I know how it fills to lose some one 당신 Love, some one 당신 hold dear to your heart."
I played with the 잔디 looking ever where but his eyes. "Alec?" I said, he took my hand. "what is it Naomi?"
I shook my head "never mind." Alec gave my hand a squeeze, "you want to know who I lost." I nodded filling like we did this before, "I 로스트 my Parents." I could almost here the pain in his voice, but I could also tell that he was smiling. "How'd 당신 get threw the pain?" I said not wanting to cry, Alec scooted closer to me. "By holding on to the good times." He pushed my chin up so I would be looking up at him.
"You know" I said falling victim to his gaze "Your not as scary as everyone says 당신 are." Alec laughed and I laughed with him, and we both laughed at each other. The sun was about to set, it was getting late. I started to get up, but Alec stopped me. He took my hand his eyes seemed to change color with the sun set, it was a deeper blue.
We sat there looking in to each others eyes, He leaned in. He was going to 키스 me, but did I want to 키스 him back? I liked Alec I really did, but I didn't want to go threw the pain. I was sick of The whole 'love game' and how it only brought pain. I didn't pull away though I couldn't even if I wanted to. I closed my eyes and when I opened the Alec was on the ground. Manny standing in front of him. I was both relived and mad.
"What the Fuck" Manny said walking towards me. I backed up he looked mad. Manny smiled glad that I was afraid of him. "Hola Chica" I backed away from him, "W-What do 당신 want." Manny smiled "I want 당신 Chica" I shook my head, "go away." Manny didn't like that, He came towards me, and grabbed hold of my risk. He forced me to stand up, Alec jumped on his back. "Back the Fuck off." Alec punched him in the noise And Manny stared poring out blood "Son of a *****" Manny said he made a movie towards me and Alec Pushed him back hard. Manny got up and looked at the two of us, He point to me. "This isn't over" he looked at Alec, "That goes for 당신 to."
Alec looked at me, "Are 당신 okay?" I nodded, I wanted to know how Manny found me. Then I remembered This is Manny's Territory, him and his rich foot ball 프렌즈 hang out here, being pigs. Alec came over to me, "You want to go home." It wasn't a 질문 but I still answered it. "Yes" Alec nodded, seeming a little disappointed. He opened the door for me, and I got in. We arrived at my house, Alec hadn't said a word.
7:00 Pm Tuesday 2010
Alec grabbed my hand be for I got out of the car, he pressed it to his chess, "be safe" he whispered. He tried to 키스 me, but I pulled away. He smiled, Knowing why I did it. I smiled back thanking him. I opened my door got out and walked in side the house, My aunt wasn't home. I turned around an waved Alec off, he waved back and drove off.
9:00 pm Tuesday 2010
The dream stared off the same, but this time, before the house caught on fire. I ended up at Alec's house. I walked in to the living room but he wasn't their. I found him in his room, it was cool nothing i excepted it to be. He invited me to sit down on the 침대 다음 to him. I did that, I started to get sleepy. I laid down, and Alec laid 다음 to me. I fell asleep in his arms.
Hope this wasn't long, I just get 로스트 in the story, Plz rate and comment.
For the first couple months, that's what it really feels like; darkness, always there like the puppy you always wished for to follow you around.
"You know... I'm not...the one you love...so...that's why...it's time for me... to leave......" -Zelos
from:sponge bob
wirtten by:sponge bob
기타 by:spongeb
preformed by:sponge bob&patrick& squidward
featuring:Patrick
also featuring :squidward *sorta*
drums:patrick
singer:spongebob
lets gather around the campfire and sing the campfire song our c-a-mp-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song. and if 당신 think that we cant sing it faster then your wrong but itll help if 당신 just sing along
Bom Bom Bom
*sing it fast!*
C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song,C-am-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song and if 당신 think that we cant sing it faster then 당신 wrong but itll help if 당신 just sing along.
*even faster*C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song,C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song Patrick!
"SoNG!C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E..
"squdiward1good!"
Itll help!itll help!if 당신 just sing along!OH YEAH!
THE END
wirtten by:sponge bob
기타 by:spongeb
preformed by:sponge bob&patrick& squidward
featuring:Patrick
also featuring :squidward *sorta*
drums:patrick
singer:spongebob
lets gather around the campfire and sing the campfire song our c-a-mp-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song. and if 당신 think that we cant sing it faster then your wrong but itll help if 당신 just sing along
Bom Bom Bom
*sing it fast!*
C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song,C-am-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song and if 당신 think that we cant sing it faster then 당신 wrong but itll help if 당신 just sing along.
*even faster*C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song,C-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g song Patrick!
"SoNG!C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E..
"squdiward1good!"
Itll help!itll help!if 당신 just sing along!OH YEAH!
THE END
She crawls into a memory.
She sits, she cries, knees folded up to her chest.
Life is not like it used to be.
Why can't she enjoy life like she did before?
Because she had no life then, no identity.
She was what others told her to be.
She has learned.
She is gaining an identity.
She doesn't know who she is.
She only recently discovered that she didn't know,
That she had no life, no identity.
It's looking for her,
Coming slowly, across the sea.
She fears it will not find her.
It will wander in the darkness,
Searching, but never finding,
Never knowing how close it has come.
And she will never know it, even though she sees it, touches it, tastes it,
She will never be able to embrace it.
She keeps searching for she,
For her place to be,
To belong in this world, and to stand out.
I keep searching for me,
For my destiny,
For my identity.
She sits, she cries, knees folded up to her chest.
Life is not like it used to be.
Why can't she enjoy life like she did before?
Because she had no life then, no identity.
She was what others told her to be.
She has learned.
She is gaining an identity.
She doesn't know who she is.
She only recently discovered that she didn't know,
That she had no life, no identity.
It's looking for her,
Coming slowly, across the sea.
She fears it will not find her.
It will wander in the darkness,
Searching, but never finding,
Never knowing how close it has come.
And she will never know it, even though she sees it, touches it, tastes it,
She will never be able to embrace it.
She keeps searching for she,
For her place to be,
To belong in this world, and to stand out.
I keep searching for me,
For my destiny,
For my identity.
