How To Save a Life (story inspired 의해 song 의해 The Fray)
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--------step one 당신 say we need to talk, he walks.
당신 say sit down it's just talk.
he smiles politely back at you,
당신 stare politely right on thru.-----------
''scott we need to talk'' artemis said. scott stood up. ''i need to do something first'' he muttured. the lie felt wrong on his lips but he didnt want to talk. he knew what artemis would say and he didnt feel like arguing right now. ''sit down it's just a talk'' she muttured. scott looked at her weighing his options. talk to artemis 또는 leave. he preffered the latter but he decided to get it over with. he smiled at her trying to ease the tension between them. ''i know that 당신 think of suicide'' artemis said. scott flinched as if she had hit him. he didnt want to talk about that subject.
--------some sort of window to your right,
he goes left but 당신 stay right.---------
artemis and scott walked around the park in the cold October air. ''let's just calm down and talk about this'' artemis said. scott shook his head and turned left walking in a brisk pace. artemis sighed watching him disappear from view.
------somewhere along the lines of fear and blame,
당신 begin to wonder why 당신 came.---------
artemis let herself fall back on scott's couch. why did she even bother? he'd just shut down and stop talking about it. artemis knew he was a cutter and she knew he thought of suicide. he cut himself every day, not deep enough to kill himself but deep enough to leave a mark. what would happen when he finally cut himself deep enough? a shudder rang thru her body. she didnt even want to think about that. she blamed herself. if she could just ease him out slowly...
-------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night,
had i known how to save a life.---------
the phone rang waking artemis up. she rubbed her eyes and reached out toward her night stand. picking up the phone she answered. ''what?'' she asked. ''i need to talk to you'' scott said. artemis glanced at the clock. 2 am? ''no way scott, wait untill morning'' she hung up.
--------let him know that 당신 know best
'cause after all 당신 do know best.--------
''just see a psychologist'' artemis begged. scott rolled his eyes and turned to face her. his expression suddenly angry. ''why? 당신 always act like 당신 know everything! i dont need some dang person poking inside my head telling me things i know about myself!'' he yelled. artemis wavered but didnt give up. ''i do know best. you're too deep in your own pain. see a shrink 또는 someone who can stop these thoughts from over running your head!'' she said. scott threw his hands up in the air in frustration. ''forgett you!'' he yelled stalking off. artemis sighed.
---------try to slip past his deffence
without granting innocence.----------
artemis rubbed his shoulders as he stared angrily at the computer screen doing research for a project. ''come on scott talk to me'' she begged. he squared his jaw and stared defiantly at the screen. artemis knew she would have to slip past his deffence if she wanted to figure out what was wrong with him.
---------lay down a list of what is wrong
things you've told him all along.
pray to god he hears you
and i pray to god he hears you.------------
artemis placed her hand calmly on the 표, 테이블 infront of him. ''look scott suicide is a bad thing, it destroys the soul'' artemis said bitting her lower lip. praying he hears her. scott rolled his eyes not saying anything. he placed his headphones in his ears. moments later his head bobbed back and forth to music. artemis attempted to pull one out but he moved away. she tried to talk over the 음악 but he purposely turned it up all the way to the point where 당신 could hear it blarring across the room. scott winced everytime they hit a parcticularily loud instrument but kept the volume up untill artemis left.
--------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.--------
scott slid down the tiled bathroom 벽 shaking. with clumsy fingers he dialed the number he knew all too well. ''artemis i need 당신 to come over. i think i'm about to do something stupid'' he said. he could hear glass being shattered in the living room. above all the voices of his parents shouting at eachother. ''it's midnight scott please try to get some sleep'' artemis murmured sleepily. scott gave out a small cry as his dad banged on the door. he hung up. a sob caught in his throat. the pounding was joined 의해 cussing. scott leaped up and tore open a cabinet. he removed a razor. not the best but effective either way. he said a silent prayer and dragged the blade across his wrist. blood pouring out he fell, his head thunking on the floor. before he 로스트 conciousness he saw the door being busted open. his father ready to take the anger out on him.
---------as he begins to raise his voice
당신 grant him one last choice.--------
''i called 당신 and 당신 ignored me!'' scott shouted. artemis shook her head. they were in the hospital. some neighbor had called the paramedics after they had heard his mom's yelling. both parents were fine but scott was under care for the 다음 few days untill his wrists healed up. ''scott this is your last chance. 당신 have to make a decission...take your life and take the easy way out 또는 fight this bravely.'' artemis said before slamming the door behind her.
-------drive untill he loses the road.
또는 break the ones he's followed.
he will do one of two things.
he will admitt to everything-----------
''take my life and end it 또는 fight this'' scott murmured. he closed his eyes thinking. he had to make a choice now. what was there to live for anyway? why should he fight? granted he didnt want to die but...he didnt want to live either. he wished he could just disappear.
---------or he will admitt he's not the same.
당신 begin to wonder why 당신 came.----------
''what happened to my friend?'' artemis asked in a feeble voice over the phone. ''he's not here anymore.'' scott answered in a flat voice. he was locked in his bathroom again with a bottle of sleeping pills infront of him. ''im going over there. maybe i can find him'' she hung up. ''good luck with that'' scott muttured as he opened the bottle.
---------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.---------
staggering with his vission blurring scott reached his room. he ripped a paper from his notebook and scribbled things down then set a 사진 of himself and artemis on 상단, 맨 위로 of it and fell. he blinked and let out a feeble breath. vile clogging up his throat. he forced it down. he want to die today. his hand shook as he crossed himself. his breaths and 심장 slowed down then his 심장 gave way. he closed his eyes for a final time.
---------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.---------
tears streamed down artemis' cheeks. she stared at the letter as everyone gave a solem glance at the coffin. some cried, some just stared. scott's mother and father just stood near the door. they didnt care their son died at 16. after the funeral they'd probably just laugh it off and go celebrate. they never even wanted a son. scott's family didnt really like the boy either. just his luck to end up with a family that couldnt care less. every tear shed from them was artificial. artemis was the only one mourning.
---------how to save a life.
how to save a life.-----------
she hadnt read the letter yet. hadnt even glanced at it. she had tried but seeing his scrawls her vission blurred making it impossible to read it. maybe it was best that way. she didnt know. there was a part of her mind that wanted to read it but the other part of her wanted to block it out. she didnt want to feel anymore pain.
----------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a frined somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.-----------
the cemetary was chilly. she zipped her 재킷, 자 켓 up all the way up to ber throat. the gravestone was clean thanks to her. she got down on her knees unable to stop the waterfall of tears. ''if i had known...how to save a life'' she whispered. she pressed her palm to the gravestone, gravel digging in to her knees thru her jeans. ''i would have stayed up with 당신 all night. 당신 called me so many times ...trying to get me to listen.'' artemis hung her head down in anger. angry at herself. scott tried to reach out to her but she blocked him out. the whole time he wanted help but she blocked him out. she had been a hypocrite.
----------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.-------------
artemis sat down on her desk. the note still shoved under her journal. she still hadnt read it. couldnt bring herself to do so. in the end she forced herself to. if scott had used his last energy and life 출처 to writte it for her...she needed to read it.
--------how to save a life.
how to save a life.------------
artemis opened it. her breath caught in her throat seeing his hand writting again. for a moment she stared. her vission blurring. then she took a shaky breath and found the courage to read it.
당신 tried to help...i was too far gone. i'm sorry i was stupid. suicide was the easy way out. i'm not a fighter artemis. i never was. this was my way. 당신 would have fought. 당신 are a fighter. dont be angry at me for this. dont be sad. i'm better now. pain doesnt reach me where i am now. 옮기기 on with your life. i'm better. my pain is gone, i no longer hurt.
scott
artemis closed her eyes. ''when 당신 committ suicide your pain goes away...but 당신 leave others hurting.'' she whispered. she burried the note under her journals once 더 많이 and cried.
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--------step one 당신 say we need to talk, he walks.
당신 say sit down it's just talk.
he smiles politely back at you,
당신 stare politely right on thru.-----------
''scott we need to talk'' artemis said. scott stood up. ''i need to do something first'' he muttured. the lie felt wrong on his lips but he didnt want to talk. he knew what artemis would say and he didnt feel like arguing right now. ''sit down it's just a talk'' she muttured. scott looked at her weighing his options. talk to artemis 또는 leave. he preffered the latter but he decided to get it over with. he smiled at her trying to ease the tension between them. ''i know that 당신 think of suicide'' artemis said. scott flinched as if she had hit him. he didnt want to talk about that subject.
--------some sort of window to your right,
he goes left but 당신 stay right.---------
artemis and scott walked around the park in the cold October air. ''let's just calm down and talk about this'' artemis said. scott shook his head and turned left walking in a brisk pace. artemis sighed watching him disappear from view.
------somewhere along the lines of fear and blame,
당신 begin to wonder why 당신 came.---------
artemis let herself fall back on scott's couch. why did she even bother? he'd just shut down and stop talking about it. artemis knew he was a cutter and she knew he thought of suicide. he cut himself every day, not deep enough to kill himself but deep enough to leave a mark. what would happen when he finally cut himself deep enough? a shudder rang thru her body. she didnt even want to think about that. she blamed herself. if she could just ease him out slowly...
-------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night,
had i known how to save a life.---------
the phone rang waking artemis up. she rubbed her eyes and reached out toward her night stand. picking up the phone she answered. ''what?'' she asked. ''i need to talk to you'' scott said. artemis glanced at the clock. 2 am? ''no way scott, wait untill morning'' she hung up.
--------let him know that 당신 know best
'cause after all 당신 do know best.--------
''just see a psychologist'' artemis begged. scott rolled his eyes and turned to face her. his expression suddenly angry. ''why? 당신 always act like 당신 know everything! i dont need some dang person poking inside my head telling me things i know about myself!'' he yelled. artemis wavered but didnt give up. ''i do know best. you're too deep in your own pain. see a shrink 또는 someone who can stop these thoughts from over running your head!'' she said. scott threw his hands up in the air in frustration. ''forgett you!'' he yelled stalking off. artemis sighed.
---------try to slip past his deffence
without granting innocence.----------
artemis rubbed his shoulders as he stared angrily at the computer screen doing research for a project. ''come on scott talk to me'' she begged. he squared his jaw and stared defiantly at the screen. artemis knew she would have to slip past his deffence if she wanted to figure out what was wrong with him.
---------lay down a list of what is wrong
things you've told him all along.
pray to god he hears you
and i pray to god he hears you.------------
artemis placed her hand calmly on the 표, 테이블 infront of him. ''look scott suicide is a bad thing, it destroys the soul'' artemis said bitting her lower lip. praying he hears her. scott rolled his eyes not saying anything. he placed his headphones in his ears. moments later his head bobbed back and forth to music. artemis attempted to pull one out but he moved away. she tried to talk over the 음악 but he purposely turned it up all the way to the point where 당신 could hear it blarring across the room. scott winced everytime they hit a parcticularily loud instrument but kept the volume up untill artemis left.
--------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.--------
scott slid down the tiled bathroom 벽 shaking. with clumsy fingers he dialed the number he knew all too well. ''artemis i need 당신 to come over. i think i'm about to do something stupid'' he said. he could hear glass being shattered in the living room. above all the voices of his parents shouting at eachother. ''it's midnight scott please try to get some sleep'' artemis murmured sleepily. scott gave out a small cry as his dad banged on the door. he hung up. a sob caught in his throat. the pounding was joined 의해 cussing. scott leaped up and tore open a cabinet. he removed a razor. not the best but effective either way. he said a silent prayer and dragged the blade across his wrist. blood pouring out he fell, his head thunking on the floor. before he 로스트 conciousness he saw the door being busted open. his father ready to take the anger out on him.
---------as he begins to raise his voice
당신 grant him one last choice.--------
''i called 당신 and 당신 ignored me!'' scott shouted. artemis shook her head. they were in the hospital. some neighbor had called the paramedics after they had heard his mom's yelling. both parents were fine but scott was under care for the 다음 few days untill his wrists healed up. ''scott this is your last chance. 당신 have to make a decission...take your life and take the easy way out 또는 fight this bravely.'' artemis said before slamming the door behind her.
-------drive untill he loses the road.
또는 break the ones he's followed.
he will do one of two things.
he will admitt to everything-----------
''take my life and end it 또는 fight this'' scott murmured. he closed his eyes thinking. he had to make a choice now. what was there to live for anyway? why should he fight? granted he didnt want to die but...he didnt want to live either. he wished he could just disappear.
---------or he will admitt he's not the same.
당신 begin to wonder why 당신 came.----------
''what happened to my friend?'' artemis asked in a feeble voice over the phone. ''he's not here anymore.'' scott answered in a flat voice. he was locked in his bathroom again with a bottle of sleeping pills infront of him. ''im going over there. maybe i can find him'' she hung up. ''good luck with that'' scott muttured as he opened the bottle.
---------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.---------
staggering with his vission blurring scott reached his room. he ripped a paper from his notebook and scribbled things down then set a 사진 of himself and artemis on 상단, 맨 위로 of it and fell. he blinked and let out a feeble breath. vile clogging up his throat. he forced it down. he want to die today. his hand shook as he crossed himself. his breaths and 심장 slowed down then his 심장 gave way. he closed his eyes for a final time.
---------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along the bitterness.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.---------
tears streamed down artemis' cheeks. she stared at the letter as everyone gave a solem glance at the coffin. some cried, some just stared. scott's mother and father just stood near the door. they didnt care their son died at 16. after the funeral they'd probably just laugh it off and go celebrate. they never even wanted a son. scott's family didnt really like the boy either. just his luck to end up with a family that couldnt care less. every tear shed from them was artificial. artemis was the only one mourning.
---------how to save a life.
how to save a life.-----------
she hadnt read the letter yet. hadnt even glanced at it. she had tried but seeing his scrawls her vission blurred making it impossible to read it. maybe it was best that way. she didnt know. there was a part of her mind that wanted to read it but the other part of her wanted to block it out. she didnt want to feel anymore pain.
----------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a frined somewhere along the bitterness.
and i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.-----------
the cemetary was chilly. she zipped her 재킷, 자 켓 up all the way up to ber throat. the gravestone was clean thanks to her. she got down on her knees unable to stop the waterfall of tears. ''if i had known...how to save a life'' she whispered. she pressed her palm to the gravestone, gravel digging in to her knees thru her jeans. ''i would have stayed up with 당신 all night. 당신 called me so many times ...trying to get me to listen.'' artemis hung her head down in anger. angry at herself. scott tried to reach out to her but she blocked him out. the whole time he wanted help but she blocked him out. she had been a hypocrite.
----------where did i go wrong?
i 로스트 a friend somewhere along.
i would have stayed up with 당신 all night.
had i known how to save a life.-------------
artemis sat down on her desk. the note still shoved under her journal. she still hadnt read it. couldnt bring herself to do so. in the end she forced herself to. if scott had used his last energy and life 출처 to writte it for her...she needed to read it.
--------how to save a life.
how to save a life.------------
artemis opened it. her breath caught in her throat seeing his hand writting again. for a moment she stared. her vission blurring. then she took a shaky breath and found the courage to read it.
당신 tried to help...i was too far gone. i'm sorry i was stupid. suicide was the easy way out. i'm not a fighter artemis. i never was. this was my way. 당신 would have fought. 당신 are a fighter. dont be angry at me for this. dont be sad. i'm better now. pain doesnt reach me where i am now. 옮기기 on with your life. i'm better. my pain is gone, i no longer hurt.
scott
artemis closed her eyes. ''when 당신 committ suicide your pain goes away...but 당신 leave others hurting.'' she whispered. she burried the note under her journals once 더 많이 and cried.
jamie is a beautiful girl. she has long ,blond hair,she has a 담홍색, 핑크 셔츠 and dark blue jeans. she was the cousin of lindsey.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do 당신 have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do 당신 wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do 당신 have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do 당신 wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.
i dindnt say anything for a minute,then i spoke.
'do 당신 know why?"
'well,she said something about an old friend in texas." izzy told me.
"you dont think.."
"maybe.where else could she have gone?"
"come 의해 my house after school,i have plan."
After school,izzy came over.We went to my room.
"what are we gonna do?"izzy asked,as soon as she walked in the room.
"wee gonig to find aslee" i siad,trying to sound as serious as possible.
"youre kidding,right? i mean,where are we gonna go?"izzy said.
"texas"
she stared at me.Blankly.Not saying a thing.As if she was gonna drop dead.
"izzy?"i asked,trying to get her back to reality.
"you must be on drugs," she said
"what?"
"youve got to be joking me.i mean,your mom is not gonig to take us,my mom is dead,and theres no way ere gonna..wait...your not saying?
"yep,wee going to texas"
'do 당신 know why?"
'well,she said something about an old friend in texas." izzy told me.
"you dont think.."
"maybe.where else could she have gone?"
"come 의해 my house after school,i have plan."
After school,izzy came over.We went to my room.
"what are we gonna do?"izzy asked,as soon as she walked in the room.
"wee gonig to find aslee" i siad,trying to sound as serious as possible.
"youre kidding,right? i mean,where are we gonna go?"izzy said.
"texas"
she stared at me.Blankly.Not saying a thing.As if she was gonna drop dead.
"izzy?"i asked,trying to get her back to reality.
"you must be on drugs," she said
"what?"
"youve got to be joking me.i mean,your mom is not gonig to take us,my mom is dead,and theres no way ere gonna..wait...your not saying?
"yep,wee going to texas"
poem 1:the world
the sun shines bright
there's day,and there's night
both are beautiful sights
this is the world
Winter,spring,summer,and fall
is a magical season
so there is no reason
for 당신 to hate
seasons so great
we are all one
we need the sun
we need the air
we all care
about the world
poem 2:love
there is something above
we cant see it
we cant bee it
but we all know what it is
it is love
사랑 is what we need
to live,to breath
to be what we can be
we all need love
사랑 is power
사랑 is strong.
thats why 사랑 songs
are so very strong
Poem 3:run (this one isnt all that good)
in the sun
is where i run
away from here
ill not be near
Something that will kill me
something that can be
so deadly and strong
and can kill me with a song
thats why i run
in the sun
i still remember 당신 hum.
im sorry i must run.
the sun shines bright
there's day,and there's night
both are beautiful sights
this is the world
Winter,spring,summer,and fall
is a magical season
so there is no reason
for 당신 to hate
seasons so great
we are all one
we need the sun
we need the air
we all care
about the world
poem 2:love
there is something above
we cant see it
we cant bee it
but we all know what it is
it is love
사랑 is what we need
to live,to breath
to be what we can be
we all need love
사랑 is power
사랑 is strong.
thats why 사랑 songs
are so very strong
Poem 3:run (this one isnt all that good)
in the sun
is where i run
away from here
ill not be near
Something that will kill me
something that can be
so deadly and strong
and can kill me with a song
thats why i run
in the sun
i still remember 당신 hum.
im sorry i must run.
I remember the times of the i 사랑 you's
and times when it was i hate you.
But 당신 come back begging at me feet.
And when my pity defeated me.
and the sweet seranades, in our matching shades.
My rose collection, evidence of your effection.
The sheets unmade, from the nights 당신 stayed.
The child in me, from the times 당신 loved me.
The debt 당신 owe, from using the word borrow.
The times i was scared, was the time 당신 spared.
And this dress i wear, in which are people become aware, that 당신 are gone, and withdrawn.
The memories i hold, they are written in bold.
my broken heart, from when 당신 apart.
so rest now my love, up now from above.
and times when it was i hate you.
But 당신 come back begging at me feet.
And when my pity defeated me.
and the sweet seranades, in our matching shades.
My rose collection, evidence of your effection.
The sheets unmade, from the nights 당신 stayed.
The child in me, from the times 당신 loved me.
The debt 당신 owe, from using the word borrow.
The times i was scared, was the time 당신 spared.
And this dress i wear, in which are people become aware, that 당신 are gone, and withdrawn.
The memories i hold, they are written in bold.
my broken heart, from when 당신 apart.
so rest now my love, up now from above.
I'm sat at home
In my cardboard box
I'm scared to death
So I cuddle my socks
I hear the key turn in the door
Fear swells inside of me
My hope plummets through the floor
I peep outside my little box
In time to see my daddy roar
I'm worried now, I realise
Because he's angry I notice now
That what I'm seeing with swollen eyes
I don't know when I don't know how
It may be the last thing I ever see
This may be the last of me
I see his boots come closer, so I shriek
My bruises hurt 더 많이 than ever
He picks me up, I feel so weak
He shakes me now and calls me worthless
I just want him to 사랑 me
I just want him to know me
But the broken bottle is against my chest
And is thrust through my cotton vest
Into my heart, the pain is fire
I see myself as I float higher
Now my vision is rimmed with darkness
The end is near, I feel its presence
I just wish that I could tell him
I 사랑 him, but his 사랑 is dim
In my cardboard box
I'm scared to death
So I cuddle my socks
I hear the key turn in the door
Fear swells inside of me
My hope plummets through the floor
I peep outside my little box
In time to see my daddy roar
I'm worried now, I realise
Because he's angry I notice now
That what I'm seeing with swollen eyes
I don't know when I don't know how
It may be the last thing I ever see
This may be the last of me
I see his boots come closer, so I shriek
My bruises hurt 더 많이 than ever
He picks me up, I feel so weak
He shakes me now and calls me worthless
I just want him to 사랑 me
I just want him to know me
But the broken bottle is against my chest
And is thrust through my cotton vest
Into my heart, the pain is fire
I see myself as I float higher
Now my vision is rimmed with darkness
The end is near, I feel its presence
I just wish that I could tell him
I 사랑 him, but his 사랑 is dim
Feyriem Faeor Burian...Feyries Of Winter
He gives me sight,
Saves me from evil's bite,
Holds me when I cry,
Always 의해 my side.
My last breath is taken and given to him,
He saves me from the storm I'm in,
He saves me and calls me his,
Have him when I'm in a crisis.
예수님 is everything.
Everything to me,
Helping me see,
Stealing my heart,
Oh how I hate being apart.
Stand here and be moved 의해 him,
To feel him in my veins,
To feel him inside of me.
My friend,
My helper,
The great shrink,
I am proud to be part of his link.
Blown away 의해 his grace,
Blessed 의해 his mercy,
Oh how he carries.
Holds every tear in his hand,
Wipes away our sorrows,
For a better tomorrow.
