My fingers trembled as I picked up the note. It was a wrinkled, folded up piece of binder paper, sealed with 담홍색, 핑크 scotch tape. I knew exactly who had given this to me. She always kept 담홍색, 핑크 scotch tape in her bag. When I held the paper, I could practically feel her presence... As if she was there with me, urging me to open it. But, I couldn't I was dying to open it, but I was scared, wait, scratch that, TERRIFIED, of what it would 또는 would not say. I closed my eyes, and said to myself "It's better to open it up, and see how she responded, than to throw it away, and spend the rest of my life wondering what she could have 또는 could not have said." So, I grabbed all my courage, and opened the note. As I opened it, I smelled her scent on the paper.....Vanilla and Honey. I also remembered why I had this note in the first place..And I wish that reason had never been made....
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It started in late December, the air was cold, it was snowing everywhere. I was walking down a cold, rough, cement sidewalk. Dead leaves were crushing beneath my feet. Winter wasn't really my 가장 좋아하는 season, it was so cold, and it was so eery. It just gave me the creeps. And today, there would be another big reason why I hated winter, it was the season when it happened.
I walked up to her, "Hey, Ashlyn. I got your text, is anything wrong, babe?" I said to her, taking out my I-phone and pointing to it. I walked closer to Ashlyn who was standing under a tree, the 나무, 트리 outside of her house where we had our first kiss. I remembered that summers 일 as if it were only yesterday. I remembered that 나무, 트리 was in bloom with beautiful 담홍색, 핑크 flowers. I put a 꽃 in her hair, and she looked into my eyes, and leaned in, getting closer, and closer, until her pink, glossy lips were just centimeters from mine, millimeters..so close..and then.. she kissed me. It was the best 일 of my life.
But now, it was different, the green 잔디 was covered in snow, so it was not seen. Then 나무, 트리 was dead, all of its leaves and beautiful 담홍색, 핑크 꽃 gone. And Ashlyn, her beautiful red hair looked dim in the depressing setting, her shiny skin was pale and dull, and her glowing brown eyes, they had a look in them, a sad look, as if they had been shedding tears all night. "What's wrong?" I repeated, now sounding 더 많이 serious. She still refused to answer my question, but she pulled her hands out of her pocket, and brushed some hair out of her face that had been blown there 의해 a chilly breeze. "I've been thinking, Josh..And, I think we have to break up.." She said quietly, not much louder than a whisper. Yet, I heard every word clearly, as if she had screamed it out. "Why?" I asked, I meant for my voice to sound calm and normal, but that wasn't how I felt. My tone sounded like a plea, a sound like I was on the verge of tears. Ashlyn noticed my tone, and her eyes started to water a little bit. "Josh, we have nothing in common. I'm sorry, but, with my parents' divorce, it made me realize that most of the time, people who are opposites don't work out. And I just can't continue to go out with you, and having to worry that we're going to be over because of our differences, and that the pain would be worse because we didn't end it sooner." Her voice cracked with every word, and she started to sob.
Normally, I would run up to her and comfort her, but now, I couldn't, I felt frozen, like I was paralyzed. I couldn't move, so, without saying anything, I let her run away, not into her house, but somewhere, and I knew that she was going to go there to cry, but I didn't go after her..I was too shocked, too sad, and so after a period of time that felt like hours, I walked home.
I spent my 크리스마스 vacation isolated from everyone else, I never replied to me texts 또는 calls, 또는 answered any emails 또는 IM's, I only checked these things to see if Ashlyn had tried to contact me. But she didn't, which caused me to wonder where she was, what she was doing, and who she was with. And, after 2 weeks of depression and moping, I decided to slip a note into her locker on the first 일 of coming back to school, and it read:
'I'm still in 사랑 with you, are 당신 still in 사랑 with me?'
I decided not to put my name, in case someone else saw it, and only she could tell it was me, she knew my writing, and since then I was waiting for her reply. And, a few days after, I opened my locker to find the note, I grabbed it, and as the 벨 for the end of school rang, I dashed out of school, and onto the bus.
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And now, here I was, opening the note, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and read what it said:
'Yes.'
I re-read the one word written in 담홍색, 핑크 pen over and over again, and each time I read it, it made up for every time I got 더 많이 and 더 많이 sad thinking about losing her. I threw it on my bed, pulled on my jacket, my shoes, and ran downstairs and out the front door.
My side hurt, the cold air was suffocating me a little, but I didn't care, Ashlyn still loved me. I kept running until I stopped at her house. I ran up the driveway, and onto her blue porch, and knocked on the door, no answer. I sighed, 'I guess I'll just call her.' I thought to myself, as I turned around and walked down the 3 wooden steps of her porch. And, as I lifted my head, I saw Ashlyn, standing near the tree, in almost the same spot she was standing the last time I spoke to her. She was smiling at me, and as she slowly walked up to me she said, "I'm never going to break up with 당신 again." And as she brushed my bangs out of my eyes, she whispered, "I missed those blue eyes, I missed looking into them..." Suddenly, her lips started getting closer to mine, centimeters..millimeters...closer and closer...and they met. I didn't know how long the 키스 last, all I knew was that she was 키싱 me, I was holding her, and that winter had never looked 더 많이 beautiful...
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It started in late December, the air was cold, it was snowing everywhere. I was walking down a cold, rough, cement sidewalk. Dead leaves were crushing beneath my feet. Winter wasn't really my 가장 좋아하는 season, it was so cold, and it was so eery. It just gave me the creeps. And today, there would be another big reason why I hated winter, it was the season when it happened.
I walked up to her, "Hey, Ashlyn. I got your text, is anything wrong, babe?" I said to her, taking out my I-phone and pointing to it. I walked closer to Ashlyn who was standing under a tree, the 나무, 트리 outside of her house where we had our first kiss. I remembered that summers 일 as if it were only yesterday. I remembered that 나무, 트리 was in bloom with beautiful 담홍색, 핑크 flowers. I put a 꽃 in her hair, and she looked into my eyes, and leaned in, getting closer, and closer, until her pink, glossy lips were just centimeters from mine, millimeters..so close..and then.. she kissed me. It was the best 일 of my life.
But now, it was different, the green 잔디 was covered in snow, so it was not seen. Then 나무, 트리 was dead, all of its leaves and beautiful 담홍색, 핑크 꽃 gone. And Ashlyn, her beautiful red hair looked dim in the depressing setting, her shiny skin was pale and dull, and her glowing brown eyes, they had a look in them, a sad look, as if they had been shedding tears all night. "What's wrong?" I repeated, now sounding 더 많이 serious. She still refused to answer my question, but she pulled her hands out of her pocket, and brushed some hair out of her face that had been blown there 의해 a chilly breeze. "I've been thinking, Josh..And, I think we have to break up.." She said quietly, not much louder than a whisper. Yet, I heard every word clearly, as if she had screamed it out. "Why?" I asked, I meant for my voice to sound calm and normal, but that wasn't how I felt. My tone sounded like a plea, a sound like I was on the verge of tears. Ashlyn noticed my tone, and her eyes started to water a little bit. "Josh, we have nothing in common. I'm sorry, but, with my parents' divorce, it made me realize that most of the time, people who are opposites don't work out. And I just can't continue to go out with you, and having to worry that we're going to be over because of our differences, and that the pain would be worse because we didn't end it sooner." Her voice cracked with every word, and she started to sob.
Normally, I would run up to her and comfort her, but now, I couldn't, I felt frozen, like I was paralyzed. I couldn't move, so, without saying anything, I let her run away, not into her house, but somewhere, and I knew that she was going to go there to cry, but I didn't go after her..I was too shocked, too sad, and so after a period of time that felt like hours, I walked home.
I spent my 크리스마스 vacation isolated from everyone else, I never replied to me texts 또는 calls, 또는 answered any emails 또는 IM's, I only checked these things to see if Ashlyn had tried to contact me. But she didn't, which caused me to wonder where she was, what she was doing, and who she was with. And, after 2 weeks of depression and moping, I decided to slip a note into her locker on the first 일 of coming back to school, and it read:
'I'm still in 사랑 with you, are 당신 still in 사랑 with me?'
I decided not to put my name, in case someone else saw it, and only she could tell it was me, she knew my writing, and since then I was waiting for her reply. And, a few days after, I opened my locker to find the note, I grabbed it, and as the 벨 for the end of school rang, I dashed out of school, and onto the bus.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
And now, here I was, opening the note, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and read what it said:
'Yes.'
I re-read the one word written in 담홍색, 핑크 pen over and over again, and each time I read it, it made up for every time I got 더 많이 and 더 많이 sad thinking about losing her. I threw it on my bed, pulled on my jacket, my shoes, and ran downstairs and out the front door.
My side hurt, the cold air was suffocating me a little, but I didn't care, Ashlyn still loved me. I kept running until I stopped at her house. I ran up the driveway, and onto her blue porch, and knocked on the door, no answer. I sighed, 'I guess I'll just call her.' I thought to myself, as I turned around and walked down the 3 wooden steps of her porch. And, as I lifted my head, I saw Ashlyn, standing near the tree, in almost the same spot she was standing the last time I spoke to her. She was smiling at me, and as she slowly walked up to me she said, "I'm never going to break up with 당신 again." And as she brushed my bangs out of my eyes, she whispered, "I missed those blue eyes, I missed looking into them..." Suddenly, her lips started getting closer to mine, centimeters..millimeters...closer and closer...and they met. I didn't know how long the 키스 last, all I knew was that she was 키싱 me, I was holding her, and that winter had never looked 더 많이 beautiful...
Normally, this style just isn't me, but I feel like I needed to release all of my wrath, turning it into sadness, eventually.
So, I'm not an 이모 poem writer, but I just wanted to 게시하기 this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
So, I'm not an 이모 poem writer, but I just wanted to 게시하기 this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what 당신 say,
what 당신 do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how 당신 talk to me,
how 당신 treat me,
what 당신 think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what 당신 say,
what 당신 do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how 당신 talk to me,
how 당신 treat me,
what 당신 think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.