Sorry I haven't written one of these in a while. Forgive me. Just to be clear, Rose is the one that last talked about "the other one", meaning another baby. Neither Bella nor Alice are prego. :) Thanks for waiting!!
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"Hello?" Rose waved her hand infront of our face. "Guys?"

"ANOTHER ONE?" Alice yelled making everyone within a ten mile radius jump.

Rose smiled. "Yeah. I haven't even told Emmett yet."

"Rose. That's awesome!" I leaned across the counter to hug her.

"I think so to." She smiled. "I really hope this one is a girl. Maybe she won't be as much of a handful as Jackson." She laughed.

"If Emmett's blood is in that child," Alice pointed to Rose's stomach "they will be a little bit of a handful."

"Don't worry." I told her. "You can handle it."

"Yeah." She huffed. "If Jackson doesn't kill me first."

"Momma." Emma tugged on my shirt.

"What is it, Baby?" I bent down to her eye level.

"I hungry. I un dat." She pointed to the 상단, 맨 위로 of the fridge.

"You want what?" I asked picking her up with me.

"I un dat." She pointed to the bread.

"Okay. Grilled cheese 또는 turkey 또는 bologna?" I set her on the counter and pulled the 빵 off the top.

"Tukey."

"Okay. Go see what bubbie wants." I put her back down on the floor.

I turned around to see Alice and Rose staring at me with a goofy grin on each of their faces. "What?"

"You." Alice giggled. "You're like, the best mother ever."

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah. Such a good mother. A good mother wouldn't have let their 5 년 old out of their sight, 또는 wouldn't have gave up looking for her."

"Oh, Bella." Rose put Jackson down on the floor and walked over to envelope me in a hug. "Are 당신 having nightmares again?"

I nodded. "Her birthday is 다음 week. She would be seven. It's still hard to think about, 당신 know."

"Of course Bella. We understand. I would die if I 로스트 Alaigha." Alice came up behind me and joined in the hug.

"I know, that 당신 know, that Ever is looking down at 당신 right now, wondering why the hell 당신 are crying when she is completely happy. She loves 당신 Bells and doesn't want 당신 to be sad....ever. No pun intended." Rose whispered in my ear.

I nodded and wiped the few tears that had fallen onto my cheeks. "You guys will be here for her memorial 다음 week right?"

"We never miss her birthday Bells." Alice told me.

"Okay." I sucked in a breath and smiled. "I'm better."

"Good." Rose smiled. "Let's make those sandwhichs. We're starving."

~*~*~Later that afternoon~*~*~

I was sitting on the 침상, 소파 with Ella on my right and Evan on my left, both drinking 초콜릿 우유 out of ther sippy cups, watching Finding Nemo....after skipping the first scene.

Dory was demonstrating her 고래 talk and I felt his lips on my neck. "I'm home." His warm breath blew across my ear and neck.

"Hi." I smiled.

The kids were laughing belly laughs at Dory and didn't even notice Edward had walked in. He went to stand infront of the t.v.

"Moob Daddy!" Emma yelled at him.

"Daddy's home!" Evan jumped off the 침상, 소파 only for Emma to follow and hugged Edward.

"Hi! Guys!" Edward laughed.

"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice came ober." Emma smiled at him.

"Yeah." Evan agreed. "And 어치, 제이 swobbered on da floowa. Ewww."

"Yeah." Edward laughed. "That is ew."

"Mommy cwide today." Emma looked down and my eyes widened. Edward's head shot up to me.

"Why did Mommy cry?" He asked.

"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice hugged her caus' Mommy stawted taukin bout sissy Eber." Evan looked down too.

I looked down at my hands. He set them down on the floor and sat beside me on the 침상, 소파 and pulled me into a hug.

"Why don't 당신 two go play upstairs for a minute."

I didn't hear a reply just their footsteps run up the stairs and into their rooms.

"I miss her too." He told me. "I know it's hard for 당신 right now."

"I'm so tired of hurting Edward." I cried into his shoulder. "We promised eachother we would stop crying over her because she would want us to be happy if she was but it hurts so bad."

I gripped his shirt.

"I know." He rubbed my back. "I hurt too."

"It's all my fault. If I hadn't had let her out of my sight she would still be here, in our arms, playing with Emma and Evan and smiling a toothless smile, 읽기 to them and loving them and we would still be looking into her sparkling eyes everyday and it's my fault! I should have told her to stay with us! I should have my baby in my arms and in her room where she is supposed to be! Not in a box, rotting under a pile a dirt with only memories and a peice of stone reminding us that she was real and she was here and she was beautiful and she was our first baby. I hate myself for it!"

I could feel his tears run together with mine.

"I was supposed to die before she did. She was five years old damnit!" I pulled back and looked at his red rimmed eyes. "I'm the mother, it's my responceabilitly to keep her safe, and loved, and keep bandaids on her cuts. And look where I got her. Just walk down the road at look."

I stood up and walked to the door.

"Where are 당신 going?" He asked.

"To see my baby." I grapped my 재킷, 자 켓 and pulled on my trainers. "Stay here with them. I wan't to go alone."

I pulled the door open and stepped out into the cool Autum air.

I walked down the block and rounded the corner, following the rod iron fence to the cemetary's entrence.

I walked and weaved through headstones and new 꽃 relpaced 의해 old ones. My eyes were blury, unable to make out any of the names as I passed them. I didn't really care, I just needed to talk to my baby.

I slowed as I approced her stone. Her white marble stone with a picture of her, Edward and I printed on the front and her saying underneath it.

Don't let anyone see 당신 cry
don't let anyone see 당신 hurt.
We are Cullen's and we are strong.

I smiled through my pouring tears as I pictured her standing with her fists on her hips like she would do saying this.

Then I remembered just how much I missed her voice and I sobbed and fell to my knees.

"Ever. It's Mommy, Baby. I'm so sorry I let this happen. I 사랑 you, Baby, and I wish I could fell 당신 and touch 당신 and hear 당신 again. Daddy misses 당신 too. Everyone misses you. Your crazy uncle misses his Baby Bear. Nana Esme misses her little princess. Daddy and I miss our little girl. Our roudy, loving, clumsy, baby girl."

I shuddered a breath.

"I still remember when we brought 당신 home. 당신 were so quiet. So soft wrapped in your little 담홍색, 핑크 fuzzy blanket. 당신 loved your Daddy so much. 당신 would cry untill he gave up and held you. Then 당신 were a Mommy's girl when 당신 got a little older. 당신 loved having your curly hair brushed and your nails painted."

I shuttered a laughed and relized I was talking to a stone. A stone were the body of my Ever laid.

"Baby, I'm so sorry." I sobbed. "I miss 당신 so much. I wish 당신 could hear me, baby." I sobbed again.

The wind picked up and I wrapped myself with my jacket. Oh, how I wished I could hear her little voice one 더 많이 time. I put my head in my hands to controll my breathing.

"I 사랑 you." Was whispered in my ear. I looked up and looked around only to find no one around.

I felt something on my cheek, something I haven't felt in two years. I felt Ever's little hand on my cheek. "Don't cry Mommy." Echoed through my head. "I miss 당신 too Mommy. I miss Daddy and Uncle Emmett and everybody. But I 사랑 당신 Mommy and I don't want 당신 to cry anymore."

Her little voice was stern, but sure. She was here, and she was talking to me. "I 사랑 당신 too, Baby."

"Don't cry Mommy. I'm very happy here. I still see 당신 all and I see 당신 cry. It makes me sad when 당신 cry Mommy."

"I won't cry anymore Baby. Only happy crying now. I promise."

I felt her smile and 키스 my cheek. I wish I could see her. Just see her! "Go 집 Mommy. Daddy misses you."

I stood up and sucked in a long breath. "I will be back on your birthday Baby. With new flowers. 담홍색, 핑크 ones. Bye, Baby. I 사랑 you."
I couldn't tell her enough.

"Bye, Mommy." It was just a whisper, but it was there.

I smiled and closed my eyes as the wind blew around me. I would no longer cry for her. She said she was happy and she wanted me to be happy. I would do that for her.

But right now, I needed to get back to my husband and beautiful daughter and son who 사랑 me just as much as I loved them. I turned on my heel and walked back the way I came, but with a new feeling. I felt....whole.
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Okay, I cried 글쓰기 this...who else cried???