Oh crap! If I didn’t come barging like that 당신 would have asked her to marry 당신 that night.
She paused and stared thoughtfully at me.
What made 당신 change your mind? If 당신 wanted to marry her, why did 당신 break up with her?
Can’t 당신 see, Leah? She would say yes in an instant.
So? Shouldn’t 당신 be jumping in happiness?
I sighed.
I felt like I never gave her a choice like I forced myself on her. If everything was normal between us, if we were both just plain simple humans, could she have noticed me? Would she 사랑 me back?
Leah didn’t answer.
I just wanted her to be sure. I wanted her to know there’s so much 더 많이 she could have than the simple life I could offer her. I wanted her to enjoy life, see the world. If she has seen and experienced everything and still decides she wants to be with me then I would truly know.
Don’t 당신 think there’s a possibility that she would choose to live without you? How would 당신 deal with it? What if she found some weird vampiric way out of this imprinting stuff? Can 당신 live with that?
I didn’t have an answer to the very worst fears that bugged me these past few months.
You hoped that she would come back to 당신 in the end, don't you?
There was never a night that I didn’t get down on my knees and prayed that she will.
* * *
Seth barged into my room, panting.
“What is it with you, Clearwaters? Can’t 당신 leave me alone?” I groaned.
“She’s back, Jake! Nessie’s back!”
I bolted upright from my bed.
“What are 당신 talking about?”
“I saw her over at Charlie’s. It’s her sem-break.” He looked like he would explode with happiness any 분 now.
My own 심장 pulsated with joy. I couldn’t help the huge grin from spreading on my face.
“Did he tell 당신 the whole news?” Leah drawled from the doorway. “Guess what? My little brother imprinted on Nessie’s college friend.” She made an annoyed face.
“That left 당신 and Embry….”
Leah smacked the back of his brother’s head before he could continue.
“Aw Leah. Can’t 당신 just be happy for me?” Seth complained as he rubbed the back of his head.
“I only pity the girl. 당신 almost licked her entire face.”
Seth rolled his eyes and turned to me. “You should meet her, Jake. She’s absolutely amazing. Nessie’s happy her secrets are all out the window. Jenny became really close to her in Dartmouth.”
“How long has Nessie been back?” I frowned it seemed I have missed on a lot of things.
“Just a 일 또는 two but 당신 couldn’t stop this blabbermouth from spilling all the juicy details.” Lead said.
Nessie’s here for a 일 또는 two and they only tell me now? What’s wrong with these people?!
“We don’t have to keep secrets from one other. We 사랑 each other.” Seth said, all gooey-eyed.
“Get out.” Leah and I growled at the same time.
“Okay, okay. Geez! People could be so envious sometimes.” He ducked his head as Leah was about to 헤로인 it, this time with my night lamp.
He was out the door in a flash. “I’ll be over at the Cullens. Nessie said it’s alright for me to visit.” He called out from outside the house.
Lucky him.
Leah shook his head. Then she grinned hugely.
“Jennifer Rivers is a piece of work.” She laughed. “She would drive my brother crazy sooner 또는 later.
Then her expression became serious. “So, when are 당신 going to see her?”
I knew who she was referring to so I shook my head.
“What?! Do 당신 need my assistance? Do 당신 need me to drag 당신 over there?”
“Nope, Leah.”
She rolled her eyes in exasperation.
“She asked Seth about you.”
I leaned towards her.
“I think she missed 당신 a lot.”
I leaned closer, holding my breath.
“Interested, aren't we? Well, that’s all I’m telling.” With that she sauntered out of the room.
I collapsed on the 침대 and groaned.
She paused and stared thoughtfully at me.
What made 당신 change your mind? If 당신 wanted to marry her, why did 당신 break up with her?
Can’t 당신 see, Leah? She would say yes in an instant.
So? Shouldn’t 당신 be jumping in happiness?
I sighed.
I felt like I never gave her a choice like I forced myself on her. If everything was normal between us, if we were both just plain simple humans, could she have noticed me? Would she 사랑 me back?
Leah didn’t answer.
I just wanted her to be sure. I wanted her to know there’s so much 더 많이 she could have than the simple life I could offer her. I wanted her to enjoy life, see the world. If she has seen and experienced everything and still decides she wants to be with me then I would truly know.
Don’t 당신 think there’s a possibility that she would choose to live without you? How would 당신 deal with it? What if she found some weird vampiric way out of this imprinting stuff? Can 당신 live with that?
I didn’t have an answer to the very worst fears that bugged me these past few months.
You hoped that she would come back to 당신 in the end, don't you?
There was never a night that I didn’t get down on my knees and prayed that she will.
* * *
Seth barged into my room, panting.
“What is it with you, Clearwaters? Can’t 당신 leave me alone?” I groaned.
“She’s back, Jake! Nessie’s back!”
I bolted upright from my bed.
“What are 당신 talking about?”
“I saw her over at Charlie’s. It’s her sem-break.” He looked like he would explode with happiness any 분 now.
My own 심장 pulsated with joy. I couldn’t help the huge grin from spreading on my face.
“Did he tell 당신 the whole news?” Leah drawled from the doorway. “Guess what? My little brother imprinted on Nessie’s college friend.” She made an annoyed face.
“That left 당신 and Embry….”
Leah smacked the back of his brother’s head before he could continue.
“Aw Leah. Can’t 당신 just be happy for me?” Seth complained as he rubbed the back of his head.
“I only pity the girl. 당신 almost licked her entire face.”
Seth rolled his eyes and turned to me. “You should meet her, Jake. She’s absolutely amazing. Nessie’s happy her secrets are all out the window. Jenny became really close to her in Dartmouth.”
“How long has Nessie been back?” I frowned it seemed I have missed on a lot of things.
“Just a 일 또는 two but 당신 couldn’t stop this blabbermouth from spilling all the juicy details.” Lead said.
Nessie’s here for a 일 또는 two and they only tell me now? What’s wrong with these people?!
“We don’t have to keep secrets from one other. We 사랑 each other.” Seth said, all gooey-eyed.
“Get out.” Leah and I growled at the same time.
“Okay, okay. Geez! People could be so envious sometimes.” He ducked his head as Leah was about to 헤로인 it, this time with my night lamp.
He was out the door in a flash. “I’ll be over at the Cullens. Nessie said it’s alright for me to visit.” He called out from outside the house.
Lucky him.
Leah shook his head. Then she grinned hugely.
“Jennifer Rivers is a piece of work.” She laughed. “She would drive my brother crazy sooner 또는 later.
Then her expression became serious. “So, when are 당신 going to see her?”
I knew who she was referring to so I shook my head.
“What?! Do 당신 need my assistance? Do 당신 need me to drag 당신 over there?”
“Nope, Leah.”
She rolled her eyes in exasperation.
“She asked Seth about you.”
I leaned towards her.
“I think she missed 당신 a lot.”
I leaned closer, holding my breath.
“Interested, aren't we? Well, that’s all I’m telling.” With that she sauntered out of the room.
I collapsed on the 침대 and groaned.
