This is the sequal to Sink 또는 Swim, Which is 게시됨 here, This is written in Edward's Point of view, written a few years of the events occured in the first chapter. I hope 당신 enjoy.

Title: Sink 또는 Swim Sequal
Author: KatiiCullen94
Rating: PG-15
Themes: themes of depression, themes of suicide, dark themes, love
Coupling: Edward/Bella/Jacob



Time passes slowly when 당신 live forever, forever with no horizen approaching.
And forever is a awfully long time when your life is a cloudless night fulfilled with nothing fun, exciting nor good.
I had that once, and she was pure. Pure as the sun and as river flows down valleys.
She was my universe and my life and made up every atom amidst it.
I miss her so greatly, almost so I some times even feel my 심장 beat, weeping in rythem with my tears.
The sunlight bouncing from her wavy hair and her hazel eyes that caress my face, seeing into the window and watching my soul. Because of Bella, I now believe that us vampire do possess a souls.

I loved once,I loved her. Isabella Swan, and she loved too.
She loved so much, that her body hurt, and that eventaully took her own life. She loved another.
This was 54 years ago.
But I remember it like it was only a 분 ago, and the grieving is still only the same of the time she died till now, maybe even worse.

The greatest heartache is the fact that I am now living in a world where she does not exist. And that kills me.

Today marks the anniversary of our wedding ceremony, which she did not show. Instead it was also the 일 that she ended, and the only sounds of that 일 I recall of the slowing her 심장 in my head, shouting at me, warning me.

But yet till now, I have till not asked myself this 질문 since that day, "Why am I still living"

I feel so much everyday, for every 초 of each day, I have showered with this continous regret of missing her and ache in the pit of my stomach.

I have noone around me anymore. My family has migranted from town to town ever since, they couldn't bare remaining in the house after that day, and well I couldn't bare talking to anybody about my thoughts.

So I left. I'm not quite sure why I made that decision, I don't even know if it was the right one, but all I know now, is that I am ultimately alone, forever.
Not even the blood soothes me, nor even distracts me. I remember even at times where the prey were stronger than I, the most dangerous monster that walks the earth. I am weaken 의해 her guilt.

I stationed myself in a small cottage west of Port Angeles, free of all trouble and whatever the world is tuning into.
I feel compelled to never leave the state of Washington. I have convinced myself over the years that my reasoning behind that is to insure myself that Bella was indeed real.
That the night in which I courted her to a restuarant, where upon I told her about my abilties, did in fact happen. I diddn't imagine her.

Abilties that I no longer posses. I have over time turned off the switch in my brain to hear the monologues streaming inside others.
For I care not for them. I wish to console in silence and darkness.
I want nothing to do with anything outside my door, nothing lies for me.

Flashback


"Edward are 당신 ready?" Alice solemy said, her voice has been lower since we 로스트 her, as if the bubbly Alice died with her.

This was really happening? This was really happening wasn't it?
I diddn't quite expect this to happen so soon. I wanted nothing 더 많이 than to run away with my hands covering my ears and hind in a hidden dark corner and never return.
As if it were all lies. But the wieght pressing down on my chess told me otherwise.
It took all my strenght to compose myself, thats not to say to even stand.

Oh Bella, do 당신 know how much I still 사랑 you?
Why were taken from me, why did 당신 leave me like this?

For fucks sake Im dressed for your funeral, can this get any harder, its difficult enough knowing I will never see her again, hold her tightly in my arms, sense the shampoo in her silky locks and feel her shiver under touch.
I would give everything under the sun to just even hear her voice again.
For her to tell me that everything was going to be ok.

But now I wasn't.
"Come on Edward, Charlie is already there, I don't want him to be there alone for even 분 longer" Esme said with the softest voice.

My entire family was in tradegy, Bella was one of them. And now is gone, forever.
* * *

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars, points of light and reason¦ And then 당신 shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. And now that 당신 are gone, when the meteor has fallen over the horizon, everything is black again. Nothing had changed, but my eyes are blinded 의해 the light of you. I can't see the stars anymore. And there is no 더 많이 reason for anything."


End of flashback



I suddenly now felt a small tingling in the palms of my hands , traveling up to the peaks of my fingers.
The muscles in my brain constricted until I cringed, and I clamped my head to ease the pain.
Ahh! This instant and unexplainable pain is unbearable.
In the midst of my muscles constricting tighter, a whistle of wind echoed in my ears, but not excactly, almost as if my mind was transformed into a dark stage and my eyes were watching it.

"Edward, be happy, everything will be okay"

Then the voice went as soon as it came.
Bella