Sorry for the delay I couldn't put it up because my iPad has a glitch and is being sent to 사과, 애플 for repair I had to rewrite the whole thing from my head again on my iPhone and have to type it from here sorry about last Fridays post it was terrible I rewrote it and added a lot of 더 많이 글쓰기 please forgive my terrible draft I was half asleep with overdose on sleeping medication anyways it won't happen again
       I frowned as I stopped in the front door of our house. I heard Carlisle, mental anguish in his head. Rosalie told him. I heard her louder thoughts that swirled around Rosalies anger. I wanted to growl, I was planning on telling Carlisle tonight. I had put it off, i'll admit, I didn't want this discussion to be thape way it sure would be know. Might as well get it over with. Carlisle's face was composed when I opened the door 'sorry Edward, I tried to talk her out of it but once I saw her decision it was too late and nothing could shake her' Alice thought guiltily. I nodded "Edward what have 당신 done?" he asked me, he wasn't angry, he was curious and worried altogether. I looked at him carefully "it's not what 당신 would think" I said "not what 당신 think?! Is that it then, so what happened then, besides 당신 not telling Bella, because she knows about us now! She knows what we are, knows are secret, Edward!" Rosalie shouted "Rose" Emmett said, his voice trying to be soothing. He put his hand on her shoulder, but Rosalie just shook it off "no, I have every right to be mad. She can't know what we are. It's not safe" she said there was a long silence
          Carlisle broke the silence first "how did she find out" he asked, his voice curious "the Quileutes, one of Ephraim blacks descendants to." I said Carlisle nodded but he couldn't believe it "the boy was young, I passed them on the way back here ." I finished. Rosalie growled, she was contemplating violence. Her hands balled into fists "it's still not 안전한, 안전 Edward, the volturi have rules, she is a liability" Carlisle said "she wouldn't tell" I promised. Rosalie made a noise in disgust "of course, defend the girl! 당신 don't know her, 당신 don't know what she thinks, she could have been thinking about it all today and 당신 wouldn't know any 더 많이 than the rest of us!" she growled I pointed my eyes at Alice "she would know, and I know that would never happen anyways" I said. Carlisle cleared his throat "but not only that but if the volturi do find out, 당신 aren't planning on changing her, and 당신 don't plan on leaving" he pointed out "yes, but who would inform them? We are The only 뱀파이어 around here-" I said but before I could finish I saw a coven of 뱀파이어 in slices head "actually-" "no" I growled,cutting her off, nomads were coming. They had heard about us and how we stay in one area and they want to meet us "I see nomads coming" Alice said aloud Esme gasped, Jasper tensed up "I have been seeing flickers on and off. They keep changing their minds. They are intimidated 의해 us since we have such a large coven. They still aren't sure" Alice said "they should be scared" I hissed
       I didn't want to be here anymore, I got up. Carlisle stopped me before I had walked to the door "Edward, what does this leave us at?" he asked "I am not going to leave and I will not change her. She will not tell anyone I am sure of that. So I believe it's  what we call, an impasse" I said then left the house
      Bella was already asleep when I got to her house she mumbled my name when I climbed in her window. She mumbled a lot tonight, mostly about her mom and things we talked about "it's too green" she mumbled at two fifteen at night, I chuckled softly. She was restless, rolling around and she missed her mom, she mumbled about her 더 많이 than me tonight. I felt bad, I wish she could stay with her mom so she could not be upset. But then I  would be upset. I sighed, life wasn't fair. I slowly crawled out of the window when the sun came up. She was still tossing and turning when I left. I smiled, I was thinking while she was asleep, that I should know 더 많이 about her mom, and of course if it hurt to talk about her I wouldnt press on, I knew she was miserable here. I shouldn't be another reason toward her hatred towards forks. Then I ran off to get my car...
        Today I wanted to know 더 많이 about her mom she missed so much. I wanted to know about what her family was like. So once I pulled in her drive way I waited patiently for her to come out. I smiled as Bella got inside the car, she slept last night without waking up but she was still restless. So I had to ask "how did 당신 sleep?" I kept my voice soft and gentle "Fine. How was your night?" I tried to think about a word that could describe how it was watching her roll all over the 침대 remembering her mumble that it was to green "pleasant" I said trying to conceal my laughter but I couldn't stop the smile that spread across my face. I saw Bellas eyebrows wrinkle in confusion "can I ask what 당신 did 당신 did?" she asked her voice a little frustrated but she was trying to hide that I grinned, not a chance "No. Today is still mine" I said she sighed. That's when I started asking my questions.
        I asked all through the 일 and dreaded the lunch hour. The last 시간 I could ask 질문 today. I didn't want to leave her I was about to talk myself out of it when I saw Alice look at me 'you ready?' she asked in her head. I nodded and sighed "I should have let 당신 drive your car today" I said which I should have I just didn't want to. Once again wrong and want were over right "why?" she said her voice frantic "I'm leaving with Alice after lunch today" I said "oh" was all she said but  that one little word had a great amount of dissapointment, but then she said the most absurd words possible came out of her mouth "that's okay, its not that far of a walk" I frowned at all the possible things that could happen to her. Hit 의해 a car, tripping over her own feet and ending up in the ER, running into wild animals, the 뱀파이어 Alice has seen, getting 로스트 only god knows how..."I am not going to make 당신 walk home. We'll go get your truck and leave it here for you" I said impatient, did she really believe I would make her walk "I don't have my key with me. I really don't mind walking" she sighed if I didn't know how to find her key-which was really impossible- if it came down to her walking because I couldn't find her keys I would give her my vanquish. I thought of all the possibilities of what would happen to Bella again and was sure of giving her my vanquish if it came down to that I shook my head at the thought of Bella walking 집 "your truck will be here, and the key will be in the ignition-unless your afraid of it getting stolen" I laughed "all right" she pursed her lips still unsure I smirked, did she really think I couldn't find her keys.
       Then Bellas voice turned glum but she was trying to make the conversation casual "hunting" I said grimly, I really didn't want to leave "if I am going to be alone with 당신 tomorrow I am going to take all the pre-cautions I can" I said and that is why I wouldn't try to talk myself out of hunting and leaving her "you could always cancel" I said so she knew the danger she looked down "No, I can't" she whispered looking back at me. I couldn't let her 취소하기 either, it would hurt to much "I perhaps your right" I probably wouldn't let her 취소하기 "what time will I see 당신 tomorrow?she asked, her voice sounded like she already missed me and shreds of hope filed through me I thought about her question, usually people her age liked to sleep in, and it was Saturday "that depends...it's a Saturday, don't 당신 want to sleep in?" I asked "no" she blurted I held my smile but then got irritated Alice was irritated and impatient ' come on Edward 당신 have plenty of time to talk to her tomorrow, do 당신 want to get 집 in time to watch her sleep? And 당신 better introduce me to, if 당신 don't I will introduce myself to her, I don't care if 당신 get angry' she said her voice irritating I ignored her "the same time as usual then" I said that was good "will Charlie be there?" I asked I wonder what she told him, what he thought of me did he even know where she was going tomorrow "no, he's fishing tomorrow" she answered.
            I thought of all of tomorrow's risks about hurting her "And if 당신 don't come home, what will he think?" I asked sharply, surly if I killed her it would kill him. I thought remembering his mental anguish that icy day, and Alices words "I have no idea. He knows i've been meaning to do laundry, maybe he will think I fell in the washer" she said. I scowled at how coolly she discussed what would happen if I killed her, she even joked. Bella scowled back, but then she asked "what are 당신 hunting tonight?" "whatever we find in the park. We aren't going far" it wasn't that far but it still seemed like I was on the other side of the world "why are 당신 going with Alice?" she was curious, I should have said that today was still mine but I got enough 답변 for the 일 "Alice is the most...supportive" that was the best word I could find. She did care if Bella got killed, unlike the others "and the others?" Bella asked timidly worried they would hear "incredulous, for the most part" I said Rosalie was the worse.
         Bella looked over my shoulder "they don't like me" she frowned I disagreed "that's not it" I reasssured her and continued "they don't understand why why I can't leave 당신 alone" Bella's frown deepend "neither do I for that matter" she said, her voice a product of low self-esteem. That was frustrating that she thought of herself as normal, I shook my head "I told you-you don't see yourself clearly at all. You're not like anyone I've ever known. 당신 fascinate me" I said. Bella glared at me so I continued to show her how I felt. I smiled and continued "having the advantages I do. I have a better than average grasp of human nature. People are so predictable. But you...you never do what I expect. 당신 always take me 의해 surprise" I said, Bella looked away "that part is easy enough to explain, but theres more...and its not so easy to put into words" I finished, the way to explain how I felt about her, made me speechless, no words could explain it. She still didn't look at me, but I looked at her and I saw she wasn't paying attention I was about to get upset but I saw in her glassy eyes fear, I saw that they reflected Rosalies cold glare 'no they may not understand why, but I do and Bella is right I don't like her. She is nothing to me' she thought, her words sharp as ice. I growled trying to resist the urge to go over there and rip her head off, 또는 scream at her, only Bella held me in place. Emmett patted Rosalie's shoulder "easy" he murmured, soothing
     I had to apologize I would probably take care of her later "I'm sorry, she's just worried" I lied I didn't want her know that Rosalie hated her that way, and I wasn't completely lying "you see...it's dangerous for 더 많이 than just me,if spending so much time with 당신 publicly..." I couldn't finish "if?" Bella asked "if this ends badly" I said and dropped my head in my hands all the people. Once again the weight of the world was on my shoulders, fate was pulling it's odds against me, all the people I would hurt, the great deal of pain that would put me through, I would hurt her dad probably the most, her friends, and all her family she has told me about today, we would have to 옮기기 and start over again, but I probably wouldn't live with them, let alone myself. I would be miserable, in pain, then once I left my adopted family they would miss me. I sighed, and the worst part is I would hurt Bella the most. Kill her the pain of the thought was not the kind of pain that could make me cry,if that was even possible,but the pain that would overwhelm my entire body leaving my 심장 aching and make my entire body feel empty making me feel weak and helpless. A pain I couldn't escape from "and 당신 have to leave now?" Bella asked her voice sad  "yes" I said then smiled "it's probably for the best. We still have fifteen 분 of that wretched movie to endure-I don't think I could take anymore" I said I was tired of the curiousity that saturated me when I saw her that long 시간 those two days, I was probably about to snap, that was probably the only the good pat that came to leaving, that and responsibility. 'can I come over now, I don't care how long it takes I am going to talk to Bella before we leave one way 또는 another so introducing me would probably be the smartest thing to do' Alice thoughts were sharp and serious.
         I secretly nodded and saw Alice smile in Jaspers thoughts she was over here in an instant "Alice" I said without looking away from Bella "Edward" she said 'I'm waiting' she thought impatiently "Alice, Bella- Bella, Alice" I said 'finally! Now was that so hard' she asked in her head "hello Bella, it's nice to finally meet you" Alice said, over emphasizing the word 'finally' I shot her a dark look 'well do 당신 know how impatient I have been, it feels like forever' she defended herself "hi Alice" Bella said shyly "are 당신 ready?" Alice asked me "Nearly. I will meet 당신 at the car" I said. I was nowhere near ready to go. Probably cause I didn't want to go. Alice left 'hurry up' was all she thought "should I say have fun 또는 is that the wrong sentiment" Bella said "no 'have fun' works as well as anything" I smiled
          She smiled "have fun then" she said "I'll try" I said grinning wider. I knew I wasn't going to have any fun but I had to smile "and 당신 try to be 안전한, 안전 please" I said not making my voice sound desperate "safe in Forks-what a challenge" she said her voice mocking I thought about her latest near death experience "for 당신 it is. Promise" I said my jaw hardening it would be just like Bella to have a trip to the emergency room tonight because of something she did "I promise to try to be safe. I'll do laundry tonight-that ought to be fraught with peril" she teased "don't fall in" I mocked her earlier words  and chuckled "I'll do my best" she said. I looked around then noticed the room was empty even my siblings left. I didn't want her to be late so I stood up "I'll see 당신 tomorrow" Bella sighed "that seems to be a long time for you" I asked I should befor her,tomorrow felt like forever from now  to me. She nodded frowning "I'll be there in the morning" I promised smiling to reassure her the stroked her cheek and with all my strength turned around and walked away. Frowning .
         As I walked to my car I tried to think of a better reason to leave. I didn't want to. As I got to the car I focused on Alices thoughts she was exuberant, of course. She was so happy she got to say oh but five words to the girl. I thought sarcastically. We drove back to her house and climbed through her window 'nice place' Alice thought 'I can see why 당신 come here every night, it's warm, and cozy...gives 당신 that 집 sweet 집 feeling' she thought as she took in Bellas room. I sighed rolloing my eyes how little Alice knew that the house wasn't what had drawn me here. It was the beautiful sleeping girl, the way she said my name in a soft sweet voice, so beautiful her voice was like a hum-  my reverie stopped short when Alice noticed the smell of her room 'oh I never noticed, she does smell lovely doesn't she?' Alice asked, I would have growled but I knew Alice didn't mean it as attraction for thirst she just liked the smell, so I naturally just rolled my eyes "shall we? We don't have all day. 또는 did 당신 want Bella to walk home?" Alice asked out loud. I remembered what could happen again and nodded.
          I knew the scent of Bella's key so it wasn't hard to find. It was in her laundry room in a pair of pants she wore last week. As we dug through the pile I noticed her pants had no designer label, which surprised me. Most teenagers would like to wear designer jeans, but when was Bella the normal teenager Alice seemed to notice they weren't designer either 'I can't wait until she is part of out family 또는 even knows me enough to be great 프렌즈 with me. Then I can give her 조언 on style. If she has any. She is so dull. Honestly Edward, I don't see the attraction when she has a fashion sense as plain as these pants' she thought. I sighed it seemed like Alice was going have a good time treating Bella like a doll once they knew each other. Well if that's not what Bella wanted then I would already have to start planning ways to stop Alice from being a bother. Then Alice remembered one of her visions of me planning on stopping her from doing Bellas hair and shot me a dark look "we don't have all 일 remember?" I asked her my voice mocking her earlier words. She scowled but we quickly got out of her house and in her car. On they way out I grabbed a pen and paper from her desk. I'm sure she wouldn't have noticed and scribbled the words 'be safe' on it then put it in my pocket climbing out the window.
       Alice had the keys and was already waiting outside for me. Her face was frozen, I scanned her thoughts and went 겨울왕국 stiff outside. I saw the no mads again standing in front of the Forks town welcoming sign just standing there "there not sure yet Edward, they are still debating whether 또는 not to come visit our coven" Alice said looking at Bellas window but not seeing it she was comparing it to her other visions "I think they are going to come, the redhead and the blonde want to the only thing stopping them is there third member" Alice said "it's not going to happen" I growled "take the volvo 집 I will take Bella her truck and meet me in the park" I said tossing Alice the keys to the volvo then got in Bellas truck and drove to drop it off at the high school

As always (well hopefully!) 다음 part Friday I will do my best I have been very busy (another poor excuse I know) anyways ciao for now