Continued from chapter "one 더 많이 nail, one 더 많이 coffin"
“Nessie don’t. Don’t 당신 dare regret that kiss! I don’t. I never will.”
“But my dad took me away from you”
“I don’t care about that. Your 키스 was the best experience of my life! “
“Really?”
“Ness…I’m in 사랑 with 당신 too. I always have been since the 일 당신 were born. I been waiting for 당신 my whole life. “
“How?”
“How what? How could I be in 사랑 with 당신 from birth?”
“Yes.”
“Well that’s kind of a long story actually.”
“I want to know.”
This was the one thing I figured I would never need to explain to her, but here she was now. Asking me for the truth. I took a deep breath and sighed.
“Nessie…you know I’m a shape shifter. That I turn into a wolf. Well that’s not all the story. In my tribe there is sometimes a bond that happens between two people that runs so much deeper that just words. A bond that can’t ever be broken. It’s timeless, ageless, it’s called imprinting.”
“Imprinting?”
“Yes…on the 일 당신 were born. It happened to me. It happened the moment I looked at 당신 and even though 당신 were just a baby…I think it happened to 당신 too. Didn’t 당신 ever wonder why we have always been really close to each other? Why I have never spent 더 많이 than a few hours apart from 당신 on any given day? Why I have ALWAYS been right 의해 your side? It’s because my 사랑 for 당신 runs through ever part of me. We are two halves of the same person. I can’t live without you. And I need to know if 당신 really feel the same way that I do”
“You know I do…I already showed 당신 I did”
“Show me again Nessie, please!”
She gently placed her palm to my cheek as I closed my eyes in anticipation. The beautiful 이미지 began to wash over me. The warmth of her 심장 removed all the pain I had been feeling. I saw Edward’s final approval for our marriage, our wedding 일 down in La Push, my father’s 집 filled with things that belonged just to us, waking on the 바닷가, 비치 with her in my arms after our first intimate evening with each other, my hands caressing her belly with our first child safely in her womb. I didn’t want it to end. But she slowly let her hand drop from my cheek. I bent my head and placed it to hers as I hugged her tightly to me.
“See what I mean Nessie…we were always meant to be together. We don’t need to be ashamed of our love. I know that your dad wants 당신 to grow up first. I do too. I have waited this long and I will wait forever 더 많이 if I have to.”
“Jacob, my dad is sending me back to school tomorrow!”
“It’s okay. I can let 당신 go long enough for college. Anything we have to do right now is for the best. I know it’s hard for me. I’m sure it’s hard for 당신 too. But if we fight against your dad now…he may separate us forever and I can’t live without you. Don’t dwell on tomorrow just yet. Come on I’ll take 당신 for another driving lesson, although I have to admit 당신 impressed me last time” I laughed
She laughed in my arms as I kissed her on 상단, 맨 위로 of her head and we headed to the Mustang. I opened the driver’s door for her as she slid into the seat. I joined her in the passenger seat.
“Okay show me that 당신 can drive” I smiled at her as she turned the key, revved the engine and gave me a quick smirk.
We were heading to La Push. I navigated her in the direction of the beach. I felt so alive at this point. When we reached the edge of the 바닷가, 비치 she pulled over. I quickly started dismantling the monkey suit I was wearing leaving only the suit pants and t-shirt on. We walked along the 바닷가, 비치 laughing and holding hands. She told me all about college. Which classes she liked better than others, who her 가장 좋아하는 teacher was. She told me about the dorm rooms and about the girl who was her roommate. I teased her about boys and I was happy to hear that Edward had sent her to an all girl school. She was going to tell me what the name of the school was but I covered her mouth before she could tell me because I knew Edward wouldn’t approve of me knowing. I told her about my trip to South America. All the interesting things I had seen along the way. The weird 음식 that I ate that sometimes didn’t agree with me. I told her about my first trip on a plane and found out her first trip was when she was sent away. She sat between my legs leaning into my chest with my arms around her as we watched the sunset. The warmth of her body renewed my failing strength and spirit. I could feel the tension mounting between us as the last glimmer of light faded into darkness signaling the end of our 일 together. I knew it was time to take her home. We started the long walk back to the car. I could hear the uneasy feeling she was experiencing with each breath she took. I drove her 집 as slowly as I could and I held her hand tightly. When we arrived I slowly walked her to the door. I could see the tears in her eyes as it was now time for me to let her go again. I firmly picked her up to hug her tightly in my arms one last time.
“Nessie…be strong for me. Just study hard and be a good girl. Just do this…for us. Don’t give your dad any grief. Remember that I 사랑 you, honey and I will be right here waiting for you.”
“I 사랑 당신 too Jacob”
“I believe you” I whispered as I set her down and ran the doorbell.
Bella came to the door. As she opened it Nessie flew past her and ran to her room. Bella whipped a quick look of dissatisfaction at me.
“She’s alright Bella. I’m sure she will want to talk to you. I know 당신 can comfort her. Thank 당신 Bella for everything. And thank Edward too. I really needed to see her” I laughed and gave Bella a quick hug.
“No problem, Jake” she laughed with me. “It’s good to see 당신 smile again.”
Genetics
Nessie:
I finished out my first 년 of college at the school my father had chosen for me. When my parents came to visit me between semesters, I told my dad what I wanted to be when I grew up. He was a bit surprised but proud that I wanted to be a genetic engineer. I was fascinated 의해 my uniqueness. I wasn’t the only one of my kind. I did remember Nahuel. The boy who’s 메리다와 마법의 숲 story saved me from being killed 의해 the Volturi. But this was 더 많이 than just a mere interest, I was obsessed. So I was 더 많이 than satisfied when my father allowed me to transfer to Boston University. They have one of the largest facilities on campus to explore my obsession. After all, Jacob was a half breed and so was I. When I showed him our future I didn’t let him know that I was deeply concerned the way our children would be born. Would they be born 더 많이 like me, 또는 Jacob? 또는 would they be an eerie combination of the both of us. Some nights I woke up screaming at the possible terror of having a half vampire/shape shifter 늑대 as a child. What would that look like? Would it be human looking 또는 would it be a real animal? I had to find out as much as possible. I had to study all the angles at cellular level. If Jacob and I were meant to be together, I had to know it would be 안전한, 안전 to have a baby. I knew what I wanted my future to be, but could it be…was really the question. I got an internship at the lab. It allowed me better access to all the equipment I would need to discover the 답변 to all my questions. I spent long hours studying my blood at the most minuet level. I explored my chromosome makeup. I just wish I had some of Jacob’s hair 또는 better yet, his blood. I was desperately in need of the ability to 십자가, 크로스 analyze our genetics. I wanted to see if we really fit together. I was so deep it my thoughts that I hadn’t been paying attention to my professor until he said my name.
“Nessie Cullen…are 당신 paying any attention?”
“I’m sorry Dr. Lawson, I didn’t hear you. What was the question?” The entire lab of fellow students erupted in laughter at me. I then noticed the boy standing 다음 to him.
“I asked 당신 to raise your hand so that Mr. Grey here would know who his new lab partner would be, but I believe he already knows at this point. Mr. Grey please take your seat.”
“Thank 당신 Dr. Lawson”
As Noah walked across the room to sit 다음 to me I began to notice how unusual his appearance was. The boy looked like her could be taller than Jacob. His hair was platinum blond, almost white in appearance. He was very fair skinned like me almost and his eyes were ice blue ringed with long dark lashes. He wasn’t just tall, he was huge. His wide shoulders and narrow waist in combination seemed out of place. I could see the massive muscular build under his clothes. It looked like if he flexed his muscles his clothes would shred into tiny pieces on the floor. I wasn’t sure how he would be able to sit on the tiny metal 발판, 자 that was 다음 to me. As he sat 의해 my side I could almost hear the strain in the metal welds.
“Hey Nessie…I’m Noah Grey. Nice to meet you.” He said with a slight smile as he held his oversized hand out to me in greeting.
“Nice to meet 당신 too.” I timidly shook his hand to be polite.
The rest of the class finally turned around and Dr. Lawson continued on right where he had left off without any further interruptions. There was only about fifteen 분 left and I was going to be grateful to run away at this point. I could hear Noah breathing deeply 다음 to me as if he had never smelled air before. I tried not to look at Noah. I didn’t want to be rude 또는 anything. I just couldn’t believe how big the boy was. He eventually caught me looking out of the corner of my eye just as the 벨 rang to let class be dismissed. I didn’t waste a single 초 as I hurried out of the room.
The 다음 일 in class he was seated before I made it thru the door. He looked up at me and smiled widely as I shifting my weight around and I slowly walked to take my own seat.
“Hi again...” I whispered.
“Hey… are 당신 okay. 당신 look like you’ve seen a ghost 또는 something.” He chuckled.
“Yeah…I’m fine” I whispered. The class seemed to drag and drag as I uncomfortably sat 다음 to my giant lab partner trying not to look at him again. Our assignment was to identify different microorganisms which required me to interact with him. I sensed he was trying to figure me out. He kept glaring at me suspiciously as we both mulled our way through the specimens. When the 벨 rang, again just as before I darted out of the classroom.
Finally the weekend came and I was grateful to have the opportunity to spend the entire 일 at the lab working on my obsession. I was overly cheerful as I hurried into the lab, but then I stopped short in the doorway. No way…here he was again. Noah was standing at one of the lab stations wearing a lab coat. He was intensely looking through one of the microscopes and scratching notes feverishly like a mad scientist. I quickly grabbed my lab 코트 and headed for my station. As I began to take my notebook out of my backpack I heard his voice from behind and I jerked unexpectedly.
“Hey Nessie. How are 당신 today?” Noah smiled at me as I turned around slowly to look up at him.
“Good…good. I gasped as he towered over me.
“So what are 당신 doing here on a Saturday?” He said with a slight grin.
“Research.” I whispered
“Oh, me too. What’s your research about?”
“Err…I can’t say” I said being as vague as possible.”
“Oh! Is it a big secret” He asked with a questionable look.
“Yeah…I guess so”
“Hey I’m glad you’re here…I’ve been meaning to ask 당신 something.”
“Oh…really”
“This is gonna sound…weird. But I can’t help but notice that 당신 seem uncomfortable being around me. I was wondering why?” He was trying not to smile
“I’m not uncomfortable…I’m just shy I guess” I weakly answered
“Actually you’re not the first person who looked at me like I’m some sort of freak. It’s been a slight issue I’ve had to deal with. Not too many people can look me straight in the eyes. I guess it’s hard for people not to get the wrong idea about me. I’m probably the tallest person in the whole school. People just…always seem scared of me. Like I’m some monster that’s going to eat them. He laughed
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to…stare…at 당신 like that. I don’t think you’re a freak 또는 anything.”
“I hope not. It’s going to be a long 년 and all. It would be nice if we could be…friends.”
“Yeah…friends. Sure”
“Great! I don’t know about you…but it’s good to clear the air. I was beginning to think 당신 were frightened to be around me”
“No…but I have to admit. 당신 are a bit unusual looking” a slightly shy grin crossed my face
“I can deal with that…um…I’ll let 당신 get back to what 당신 were doing. It was good we talked. See 당신 later” He smirked
“Yeah…see ya” I watched him as he left the lab hanging his lab 코트 at the door. He glanced over his shoulder and winked at me as he was leaving.
Over the 다음 several weeks I took notice of what Noah had said to me earlier. The other student did treat him differently. When I watched him walk through the hallway I picked up on the glaring and whispers of other people. It seemed as though Noah couldn’t even enter a room without some girl gasping at him with fear. People were always clearing a path immediately before he even got close to them. It made me feel kind of sorry for him. But he never let anyone know it bother him. He just took it in stride. His confidence in himself was profound as he swaggered. When people whispered and pointed he just smiles at them and rolled his eyes. I began to see Noah in a different way as we sat 다음 to each other in class. The scary sensation I had been feeling was gone. He was actually very easy to talk to and was a great lab partner in class. When I was in the lab on weekends Noah and I would talk for hours about science and genetics. Philosophically bouncing ideas at each other as we toiled on our individual projects. It was becoming too easy for me to be his friend. We had so many of the same interests.
I was with him in the lab one 일 and suddenly he slammed him fists on the metal tabletop. The sound nearly made me jump out of my skin.
“Damn it! He shouted loudly. As I turned to see what was going on he stood over his station shaking his head.
“Are 당신 okay…you scared me to death. What’s wrong?”
“I can’t figure this out. I’m just going in circles. I just can’t make the connection. I need the proper samples. But there is no way I can get them. I’m completely stuck and it’s frustrating me to no end.”
I got up from my station and started walking to him. “Well…maybe I can help? Before I could 십자가, 크로스 the distance between us he came around the counter with a defensive stance to stop me.
“No! No my work is very private. No one can see it.”
“Oh…okay. I murmured
“I’m sorry…I didn’t mean to startle you. I should know better than that. After all…it took 당신 a while to warm up to me. I’m sorry for my…um…outburst.”
“It’s okay I know the feeling of being stuck. Actually I’m stuck too”
“Well since we’re both stuck how about we just get out of here and get something to eat”
“Uh…I don’t know about that I mean-“
“What. It’s just dinner”
“I’m sorry…I have a boyfriend, Noah.”
He rolled his eyes at me. “Okay, but I didn’t ask 당신 to go on a 날짜 with me, I’m just asking my friend to hang out with me and grab some food. That’s all.”
“That’s all?”
“Really, seriously, just two 프렌즈 having dinner. Scouts honor” he promised and raised two fingers. “Come on…don’t make me beg” he pouted at me and laughed.
“Okay” I sneered
He walked me to his car and opened the passenger door for me. “Ladies first” he laughed. We drove to the local twenty four 시간 식당 which was the big hang out place for all the students. He held the car door open for me as I got out. When we came into the diner… I saw the usual gawking happened. Noah didn’t skip a beat as we sat at the first booth. We ordered our 음식 and just talked about nothing in particular at first. Then he started with the 더 많이 personal stuff.
“So 당신 have never said where you’re from. Where do 당신 call home?”
“I’m from Forks, Washington”
“I hail from Sydney.”
“Like Australia?”
“Yep, well that’s where I was born anyway. My family moved to the states when we were five”
“We?” I hadn’t missed the plural.
“I’m one of six kids actually. A multiple birth. But none of us are identical twins. I have five brothers”
“All boys huh?”
“Yep my dad is quiet proud” he laughed”
“So where does your family live now?”
“Portland, Oregon…my brothers all go to college locally. But when I decided to get into genetics, I had to go the best school. Boston U. was it. So here I am”
“Same reason I’m here”
“You have siblings?”
“No I’m an only child”
“Well that doesn’t sound fun, growing up alone and stuff.”
“Well, I can’t say I was ever alone. I’ve always had Jacob”
“And…is Jacob your boyfriend?”
“Well…”
“And you’ve know him how long?”
“Since I was born. He was like a big brother to me when I was little.”
“And now he’s your boyfriend…well that’s creepy”
“Why?”
“I don’t know, it’s just an opinion.” He smiled. “Hey did he ever tell 당신 that 당신 really smell nice?”
“What?” I questioned him. He didn’t have time to answer me. Suddenly a sharp pain stretched across my body. “OW! I gasped as Noah’s eyes went wide and he began to inhale wildly smelling the air around us and his eyed rolled back in his head. I excused myself to the bathroom quickly. Something was wrong. When I got to the bathroom I gasped out again as the pain stabbed into my stomach and back. I quickly sat on the toilet 좌석 and as I did I saw blood. I was bleeding! And the pain was increasing. I grabbed my cell phone and called my mom.
“Hey Nessie honey-“
“Mom! Mom help me I’m bleeding and the pain-“
“Honey hang up and dial 911! I’m coming!”
“Okay!” I huffed and gasped as the pain intensified. I dialed 911 and told the operator exact where I was. It seemed like forever went 의해 as I crumpled onto the floor in pain. Not to be embarrassed 의해 my half dressed body I managed to pull my pants back up but I couldn’t button them. It hurt too much. The 구급차 finally arrived. As they wheeled me out of the 식당 I saw that Noah was not around. I was brought to the hospital. The doctor asked me if I was pregnant, then asked me when I had my last period.
“My period?”
“Nessie, I know you’re in pain, but when was your last menstruation?”
“Menstruation?” I had no idea what she was talking about. The doctor and nurses just looked at me like I was nuts. A surge of adrenaline hit me as I cowered. When a nurse came towards me I jumped off the exam 표, 테이블 and flew out of the emergency room door. I raced down the hallway scared and confused. Everyone was following after me. When I found the nearest bathroom I ran in and locked the door. Fearful they would bust it down to get to me I grabbed the handicap bar and ripped it out of the 벽 to brace the door. I backed into the corner and slumped on the floor holding my stomach and began to cry as voices came through the door. But I wasn’t listening. The pain was too much as the small room began to spin and turn black.
When I started to hear my mother’s voice I began to come back from the blackness and felt something wide and unfamiliar between my legs sitting way too close to my body. I felt my eyes flutter open as my mom sat 다음 to me holding my hand. I realized I wasn’t in the hospital anymore; I was 집 in Forks at Carlisle’s house.
“Nessie, honey thank heavens.”
“Mom, what’s wrong with me?” I whispered
“Honey, you’re okay really, there is nothing wrong with you.” She was smiling widely at me. “Nessie, I should have talked with 당신 a long time ago”
“What do 당신 mean?” I said as she was heading to the door to close it. I caught a quick glimpse of Jacob pacing past the doorway before the door completely closed.
My mother came back to my side and with a cheerful voice began to tell me what had happened to me. She told me about girls, where 아기 come from, how they were made all the while she was gently stroking my hands. Detail after detail of my new bodily experience. When she was done she finished with, “Nessie, you’re became a woman tonight, 당신 should be happy okay. I 사랑 당신 and I’m sorry I didn’t say anything sooner. I guess I had forgotten how much 당신 have grown up.” And she smiled even though I was still in shock. “Listen honey, do 당신 feel okay enough to see someone? Jacob is here, he really wants to see you. Can he come in? I just gave her a nod with my head but didn’t say a word.
As she opened the door I saw Jacob again. His expression was half joyful and half worried sick. My mother let him in and closed the door behind him as she left. Jacob sat down on the edge of my bed. His trembling hand took mine as he kissed my forehead.
“Nessie, are 당신 okay, honey?” he asked
I nodded but couldn’t look at him as embarrassment washed over me.
“Listen, I know I’m not the one going thru this right now…but I’m so happy for you. I told your mom a while 이전 that 당신 were grown up. And here 당신 are now. The last threshold of childhood has passed.” He said with a slight laugh.
That got my attention as I raised my eyes now to look into his. His smile was ear to ear and I couldn’t help but smile back as we held each other now.
I recovered from my trauma overnight. 의해 morning the only thing I wasn’t happy about was the bulky cotton thing that my mom told me was a 맥시 pad and the fact that every pair of jeans I had didn’t fit me right. They were to constricting and out of frustration; I gave up and put on sweatpants. I heard the 반 야생마, 무스탕, 무스 탕 pull into the driveway as I went to the window. Jacob blew me a 키스 and waved for me to come to him. But I had one 더 많이 thing to do before I left the house today. I snuck into Carlisle’s lab and gathered a small vial, a syringe, and a small roll of medical tape. I was going to get the samples I needed for my research today. The missing pieces of the puzzle in my head.
I ran to Jacob as he picked me up in a 곰 hug. “You look a lot better today, honey.” He whispered in my ear. “Come on we are going for a ride” His voice was absolutely beaming. He drove down to La Push with lightening speed as if he was in a major hurry. When we arrived at the 바닷가, 비치 Jacob briskly walked me down to the spot where we had watched the sunset. He then stopped short and turned to me taking both of my hands. He was anxious about something.
“Nessie…you dad and I had a REALLY long talk last night…and I now have the ability to ask 당신 something very important.” He smiled nervously. He was rocking back and forth slightly on his feet. He tilted head side to side cracking his neck and shook himself out as he exhaled and looked deeply into my eyes. He then gently sank to one knee never dropping his eyes from mine. “Nessie…I have been waiting your whole life to ask 당신 this…Please make me the happiest guy in the whole world. Renesmee Cullen, will 당신 marry me?”
I couldn’t answer him. I just froze with my mouth hanging widely open. He saw the shock in my face as he waited for my answer impatiently with hope in his eyes. But I pulled my hands away from his as I gave him my answer.
“No Jacob.” I said flatly. I saw the pain in his face which quickly turned to anger. He snapped to his feet now and hovered over me.
“Why!” he demanded.
“I can’t tell you” I whispered
“Nessie, I want to know why. Is there someone else? Another guy at school you’ve be seeing?” he hissed
“No I-“
“There is another guy, right?” as he accused me and started to storm away leaving me to follow him.
“Jacob there isn’t anyone else!” I promised. “Please don’t go”
He stopped short and spun towards me wildly. A multitude of expression came across his face
“Then if isn’t another guy…then why?” he shouted
“I can’t tell 당신 Jacob!” I shouted back.
“Why not…you have to give me an answer I can understand, Nessie!” he begged
I bit my lip and struggle to come up with a solution to tell him. My head was racing with ideas. Thoughts about my research. This whole thing, his proposal to me, had completely thrown me off from my plan to ask him for his blood. The blood I needed to have in order to continue to find out whether our DNA was compatible. But how was I going to ask him now. I stood too long silently as his hand were shaking trying to wait for my explanation.
“Fine! 당신 won’t tell me. That’s fine! I’m outta here!” He hissed through his teeth. As Jacob wheeled around and began to run down the beach.
But I had to follow him. I couldn’t stand that I had hurt him so much. I called for him as I ran.
“Jacob! Wait! Please stop! Alright 당신 win!”
Finally he slowed down and waited for me. He wouldn’t turn around as I came to his side.
“Jake, I want to show 당신 something” I said as I waited for him to look at me. It took him a moment to turn his head. I could see the anger in his eyes still as he was about to say something. I knew I only had to show him one image, just one. The nightmare of our baby that had haunted me and I hoped he would understand. I quickly placed my palm to his cheek and focused on the image transfer for that brief 초 and the pulled back. Jacob’s eyes went wide and his shocking body movement sent him landing on his hands and knees in from of me. I waited as I began to step away from him. I had no idea what was going to happen next. Jacob was cringing. I could see that I scared him too. Then he slowly came to his feet and looked to me.
“So…that’s why huh? That’s why 당신 won’t marry me. 당신 think our baby is going to be some mutant freak of nature.” He said coldly
“Jacob…I-“
“Why didn’t 당신 just ask Carlisle about this, he’s a doctor?”
“Jacob, he’s a doctor but he’s not a geneticist.”
“And that’s why you’re going to school for genetic engineering?”
“Yes!”
“I don’t know if 당신 are aware of this, but Carlisle told me once I have twenty-four pairs of chromosomes. Not that I really know what that means exactly.”
“Jake…that doesn’t mean anything. Just because we both have twenty-four pairs of chromosomes. It doesn’t mean our baby will be normal.”
“And when 당신 say…normal? 당신 mean human, right?” he sighed.
“Right, exactly! I really need to complete my research. Don’t 당신 want to know-“
“Whether 또는 not it’s safe” he said as he finished my sentence
All I could do was nod. I know it was all starting to come together. Something clicked in his head. He 로스트 all his anger and stared at me.
“So what do 당신 need to complete your research, huh?”
“I need 당신 blood, Jacob”
“Done!” he huffed. I could still see it in his eyes. The disbelief that our child could be anything but perfect. “But let’s get one thing straight. Even if 당신 find out it isn’t possible, Nessie. I still 사랑 당신 and want to marry you. Just keep that in mind.”
“Nessie don’t. Don’t 당신 dare regret that kiss! I don’t. I never will.”
“But my dad took me away from you”
“I don’t care about that. Your 키스 was the best experience of my life! “
“Really?”
“Ness…I’m in 사랑 with 당신 too. I always have been since the 일 당신 were born. I been waiting for 당신 my whole life. “
“How?”
“How what? How could I be in 사랑 with 당신 from birth?”
“Yes.”
“Well that’s kind of a long story actually.”
“I want to know.”
This was the one thing I figured I would never need to explain to her, but here she was now. Asking me for the truth. I took a deep breath and sighed.
“Nessie…you know I’m a shape shifter. That I turn into a wolf. Well that’s not all the story. In my tribe there is sometimes a bond that happens between two people that runs so much deeper that just words. A bond that can’t ever be broken. It’s timeless, ageless, it’s called imprinting.”
“Imprinting?”
“Yes…on the 일 당신 were born. It happened to me. It happened the moment I looked at 당신 and even though 당신 were just a baby…I think it happened to 당신 too. Didn’t 당신 ever wonder why we have always been really close to each other? Why I have never spent 더 많이 than a few hours apart from 당신 on any given day? Why I have ALWAYS been right 의해 your side? It’s because my 사랑 for 당신 runs through ever part of me. We are two halves of the same person. I can’t live without you. And I need to know if 당신 really feel the same way that I do”
“You know I do…I already showed 당신 I did”
“Show me again Nessie, please!”
She gently placed her palm to my cheek as I closed my eyes in anticipation. The beautiful 이미지 began to wash over me. The warmth of her 심장 removed all the pain I had been feeling. I saw Edward’s final approval for our marriage, our wedding 일 down in La Push, my father’s 집 filled with things that belonged just to us, waking on the 바닷가, 비치 with her in my arms after our first intimate evening with each other, my hands caressing her belly with our first child safely in her womb. I didn’t want it to end. But she slowly let her hand drop from my cheek. I bent my head and placed it to hers as I hugged her tightly to me.
“See what I mean Nessie…we were always meant to be together. We don’t need to be ashamed of our love. I know that your dad wants 당신 to grow up first. I do too. I have waited this long and I will wait forever 더 많이 if I have to.”
“Jacob, my dad is sending me back to school tomorrow!”
“It’s okay. I can let 당신 go long enough for college. Anything we have to do right now is for the best. I know it’s hard for me. I’m sure it’s hard for 당신 too. But if we fight against your dad now…he may separate us forever and I can’t live without you. Don’t dwell on tomorrow just yet. Come on I’ll take 당신 for another driving lesson, although I have to admit 당신 impressed me last time” I laughed
She laughed in my arms as I kissed her on 상단, 맨 위로 of her head and we headed to the Mustang. I opened the driver’s door for her as she slid into the seat. I joined her in the passenger seat.
“Okay show me that 당신 can drive” I smiled at her as she turned the key, revved the engine and gave me a quick smirk.
We were heading to La Push. I navigated her in the direction of the beach. I felt so alive at this point. When we reached the edge of the 바닷가, 비치 she pulled over. I quickly started dismantling the monkey suit I was wearing leaving only the suit pants and t-shirt on. We walked along the 바닷가, 비치 laughing and holding hands. She told me all about college. Which classes she liked better than others, who her 가장 좋아하는 teacher was. She told me about the dorm rooms and about the girl who was her roommate. I teased her about boys and I was happy to hear that Edward had sent her to an all girl school. She was going to tell me what the name of the school was but I covered her mouth before she could tell me because I knew Edward wouldn’t approve of me knowing. I told her about my trip to South America. All the interesting things I had seen along the way. The weird 음식 that I ate that sometimes didn’t agree with me. I told her about my first trip on a plane and found out her first trip was when she was sent away. She sat between my legs leaning into my chest with my arms around her as we watched the sunset. The warmth of her body renewed my failing strength and spirit. I could feel the tension mounting between us as the last glimmer of light faded into darkness signaling the end of our 일 together. I knew it was time to take her home. We started the long walk back to the car. I could hear the uneasy feeling she was experiencing with each breath she took. I drove her 집 as slowly as I could and I held her hand tightly. When we arrived I slowly walked her to the door. I could see the tears in her eyes as it was now time for me to let her go again. I firmly picked her up to hug her tightly in my arms one last time.
“Nessie…be strong for me. Just study hard and be a good girl. Just do this…for us. Don’t give your dad any grief. Remember that I 사랑 you, honey and I will be right here waiting for you.”
“I 사랑 당신 too Jacob”
“I believe you” I whispered as I set her down and ran the doorbell.
Bella came to the door. As she opened it Nessie flew past her and ran to her room. Bella whipped a quick look of dissatisfaction at me.
“She’s alright Bella. I’m sure she will want to talk to you. I know 당신 can comfort her. Thank 당신 Bella for everything. And thank Edward too. I really needed to see her” I laughed and gave Bella a quick hug.
“No problem, Jake” she laughed with me. “It’s good to see 당신 smile again.”
Genetics
Nessie:
I finished out my first 년 of college at the school my father had chosen for me. When my parents came to visit me between semesters, I told my dad what I wanted to be when I grew up. He was a bit surprised but proud that I wanted to be a genetic engineer. I was fascinated 의해 my uniqueness. I wasn’t the only one of my kind. I did remember Nahuel. The boy who’s 메리다와 마법의 숲 story saved me from being killed 의해 the Volturi. But this was 더 많이 than just a mere interest, I was obsessed. So I was 더 많이 than satisfied when my father allowed me to transfer to Boston University. They have one of the largest facilities on campus to explore my obsession. After all, Jacob was a half breed and so was I. When I showed him our future I didn’t let him know that I was deeply concerned the way our children would be born. Would they be born 더 많이 like me, 또는 Jacob? 또는 would they be an eerie combination of the both of us. Some nights I woke up screaming at the possible terror of having a half vampire/shape shifter 늑대 as a child. What would that look like? Would it be human looking 또는 would it be a real animal? I had to find out as much as possible. I had to study all the angles at cellular level. If Jacob and I were meant to be together, I had to know it would be 안전한, 안전 to have a baby. I knew what I wanted my future to be, but could it be…was really the question. I got an internship at the lab. It allowed me better access to all the equipment I would need to discover the 답변 to all my questions. I spent long hours studying my blood at the most minuet level. I explored my chromosome makeup. I just wish I had some of Jacob’s hair 또는 better yet, his blood. I was desperately in need of the ability to 십자가, 크로스 analyze our genetics. I wanted to see if we really fit together. I was so deep it my thoughts that I hadn’t been paying attention to my professor until he said my name.
“Nessie Cullen…are 당신 paying any attention?”
“I’m sorry Dr. Lawson, I didn’t hear you. What was the question?” The entire lab of fellow students erupted in laughter at me. I then noticed the boy standing 다음 to him.
“I asked 당신 to raise your hand so that Mr. Grey here would know who his new lab partner would be, but I believe he already knows at this point. Mr. Grey please take your seat.”
“Thank 당신 Dr. Lawson”
As Noah walked across the room to sit 다음 to me I began to notice how unusual his appearance was. The boy looked like her could be taller than Jacob. His hair was platinum blond, almost white in appearance. He was very fair skinned like me almost and his eyes were ice blue ringed with long dark lashes. He wasn’t just tall, he was huge. His wide shoulders and narrow waist in combination seemed out of place. I could see the massive muscular build under his clothes. It looked like if he flexed his muscles his clothes would shred into tiny pieces on the floor. I wasn’t sure how he would be able to sit on the tiny metal 발판, 자 that was 다음 to me. As he sat 의해 my side I could almost hear the strain in the metal welds.
“Hey Nessie…I’m Noah Grey. Nice to meet you.” He said with a slight smile as he held his oversized hand out to me in greeting.
“Nice to meet 당신 too.” I timidly shook his hand to be polite.
The rest of the class finally turned around and Dr. Lawson continued on right where he had left off without any further interruptions. There was only about fifteen 분 left and I was going to be grateful to run away at this point. I could hear Noah breathing deeply 다음 to me as if he had never smelled air before. I tried not to look at Noah. I didn’t want to be rude 또는 anything. I just couldn’t believe how big the boy was. He eventually caught me looking out of the corner of my eye just as the 벨 rang to let class be dismissed. I didn’t waste a single 초 as I hurried out of the room.
The 다음 일 in class he was seated before I made it thru the door. He looked up at me and smiled widely as I shifting my weight around and I slowly walked to take my own seat.
“Hi again...” I whispered.
“Hey… are 당신 okay. 당신 look like you’ve seen a ghost 또는 something.” He chuckled.
“Yeah…I’m fine” I whispered. The class seemed to drag and drag as I uncomfortably sat 다음 to my giant lab partner trying not to look at him again. Our assignment was to identify different microorganisms which required me to interact with him. I sensed he was trying to figure me out. He kept glaring at me suspiciously as we both mulled our way through the specimens. When the 벨 rang, again just as before I darted out of the classroom.
Finally the weekend came and I was grateful to have the opportunity to spend the entire 일 at the lab working on my obsession. I was overly cheerful as I hurried into the lab, but then I stopped short in the doorway. No way…here he was again. Noah was standing at one of the lab stations wearing a lab coat. He was intensely looking through one of the microscopes and scratching notes feverishly like a mad scientist. I quickly grabbed my lab 코트 and headed for my station. As I began to take my notebook out of my backpack I heard his voice from behind and I jerked unexpectedly.
“Hey Nessie. How are 당신 today?” Noah smiled at me as I turned around slowly to look up at him.
“Good…good. I gasped as he towered over me.
“So what are 당신 doing here on a Saturday?” He said with a slight grin.
“Research.” I whispered
“Oh, me too. What’s your research about?”
“Err…I can’t say” I said being as vague as possible.”
“Oh! Is it a big secret” He asked with a questionable look.
“Yeah…I guess so”
“Hey I’m glad you’re here…I’ve been meaning to ask 당신 something.”
“Oh…really”
“This is gonna sound…weird. But I can’t help but notice that 당신 seem uncomfortable being around me. I was wondering why?” He was trying not to smile
“I’m not uncomfortable…I’m just shy I guess” I weakly answered
“Actually you’re not the first person who looked at me like I’m some sort of freak. It’s been a slight issue I’ve had to deal with. Not too many people can look me straight in the eyes. I guess it’s hard for people not to get the wrong idea about me. I’m probably the tallest person in the whole school. People just…always seem scared of me. Like I’m some monster that’s going to eat them. He laughed
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to…stare…at 당신 like that. I don’t think you’re a freak 또는 anything.”
“I hope not. It’s going to be a long 년 and all. It would be nice if we could be…friends.”
“Yeah…friends. Sure”
“Great! I don’t know about you…but it’s good to clear the air. I was beginning to think 당신 were frightened to be around me”
“No…but I have to admit. 당신 are a bit unusual looking” a slightly shy grin crossed my face
“I can deal with that…um…I’ll let 당신 get back to what 당신 were doing. It was good we talked. See 당신 later” He smirked
“Yeah…see ya” I watched him as he left the lab hanging his lab 코트 at the door. He glanced over his shoulder and winked at me as he was leaving.
Over the 다음 several weeks I took notice of what Noah had said to me earlier. The other student did treat him differently. When I watched him walk through the hallway I picked up on the glaring and whispers of other people. It seemed as though Noah couldn’t even enter a room without some girl gasping at him with fear. People were always clearing a path immediately before he even got close to them. It made me feel kind of sorry for him. But he never let anyone know it bother him. He just took it in stride. His confidence in himself was profound as he swaggered. When people whispered and pointed he just smiles at them and rolled his eyes. I began to see Noah in a different way as we sat 다음 to each other in class. The scary sensation I had been feeling was gone. He was actually very easy to talk to and was a great lab partner in class. When I was in the lab on weekends Noah and I would talk for hours about science and genetics. Philosophically bouncing ideas at each other as we toiled on our individual projects. It was becoming too easy for me to be his friend. We had so many of the same interests.
I was with him in the lab one 일 and suddenly he slammed him fists on the metal tabletop. The sound nearly made me jump out of my skin.
“Damn it! He shouted loudly. As I turned to see what was going on he stood over his station shaking his head.
“Are 당신 okay…you scared me to death. What’s wrong?”
“I can’t figure this out. I’m just going in circles. I just can’t make the connection. I need the proper samples. But there is no way I can get them. I’m completely stuck and it’s frustrating me to no end.”
I got up from my station and started walking to him. “Well…maybe I can help? Before I could 십자가, 크로스 the distance between us he came around the counter with a defensive stance to stop me.
“No! No my work is very private. No one can see it.”
“Oh…okay. I murmured
“I’m sorry…I didn’t mean to startle you. I should know better than that. After all…it took 당신 a while to warm up to me. I’m sorry for my…um…outburst.”
“It’s okay I know the feeling of being stuck. Actually I’m stuck too”
“Well since we’re both stuck how about we just get out of here and get something to eat”
“Uh…I don’t know about that I mean-“
“What. It’s just dinner”
“I’m sorry…I have a boyfriend, Noah.”
He rolled his eyes at me. “Okay, but I didn’t ask 당신 to go on a 날짜 with me, I’m just asking my friend to hang out with me and grab some food. That’s all.”
“That’s all?”
“Really, seriously, just two 프렌즈 having dinner. Scouts honor” he promised and raised two fingers. “Come on…don’t make me beg” he pouted at me and laughed.
“Okay” I sneered
He walked me to his car and opened the passenger door for me. “Ladies first” he laughed. We drove to the local twenty four 시간 식당 which was the big hang out place for all the students. He held the car door open for me as I got out. When we came into the diner… I saw the usual gawking happened. Noah didn’t skip a beat as we sat at the first booth. We ordered our 음식 and just talked about nothing in particular at first. Then he started with the 더 많이 personal stuff.
“So 당신 have never said where you’re from. Where do 당신 call home?”
“I’m from Forks, Washington”
“I hail from Sydney.”
“Like Australia?”
“Yep, well that’s where I was born anyway. My family moved to the states when we were five”
“We?” I hadn’t missed the plural.
“I’m one of six kids actually. A multiple birth. But none of us are identical twins. I have five brothers”
“All boys huh?”
“Yep my dad is quiet proud” he laughed”
“So where does your family live now?”
“Portland, Oregon…my brothers all go to college locally. But when I decided to get into genetics, I had to go the best school. Boston U. was it. So here I am”
“Same reason I’m here”
“You have siblings?”
“No I’m an only child”
“Well that doesn’t sound fun, growing up alone and stuff.”
“Well, I can’t say I was ever alone. I’ve always had Jacob”
“And…is Jacob your boyfriend?”
“Well…”
“And you’ve know him how long?”
“Since I was born. He was like a big brother to me when I was little.”
“And now he’s your boyfriend…well that’s creepy”
“Why?”
“I don’t know, it’s just an opinion.” He smiled. “Hey did he ever tell 당신 that 당신 really smell nice?”
“What?” I questioned him. He didn’t have time to answer me. Suddenly a sharp pain stretched across my body. “OW! I gasped as Noah’s eyes went wide and he began to inhale wildly smelling the air around us and his eyed rolled back in his head. I excused myself to the bathroom quickly. Something was wrong. When I got to the bathroom I gasped out again as the pain stabbed into my stomach and back. I quickly sat on the toilet 좌석 and as I did I saw blood. I was bleeding! And the pain was increasing. I grabbed my cell phone and called my mom.
“Hey Nessie honey-“
“Mom! Mom help me I’m bleeding and the pain-“
“Honey hang up and dial 911! I’m coming!”
“Okay!” I huffed and gasped as the pain intensified. I dialed 911 and told the operator exact where I was. It seemed like forever went 의해 as I crumpled onto the floor in pain. Not to be embarrassed 의해 my half dressed body I managed to pull my pants back up but I couldn’t button them. It hurt too much. The 구급차 finally arrived. As they wheeled me out of the 식당 I saw that Noah was not around. I was brought to the hospital. The doctor asked me if I was pregnant, then asked me when I had my last period.
“My period?”
“Nessie, I know you’re in pain, but when was your last menstruation?”
“Menstruation?” I had no idea what she was talking about. The doctor and nurses just looked at me like I was nuts. A surge of adrenaline hit me as I cowered. When a nurse came towards me I jumped off the exam 표, 테이블 and flew out of the emergency room door. I raced down the hallway scared and confused. Everyone was following after me. When I found the nearest bathroom I ran in and locked the door. Fearful they would bust it down to get to me I grabbed the handicap bar and ripped it out of the 벽 to brace the door. I backed into the corner and slumped on the floor holding my stomach and began to cry as voices came through the door. But I wasn’t listening. The pain was too much as the small room began to spin and turn black.
When I started to hear my mother’s voice I began to come back from the blackness and felt something wide and unfamiliar between my legs sitting way too close to my body. I felt my eyes flutter open as my mom sat 다음 to me holding my hand. I realized I wasn’t in the hospital anymore; I was 집 in Forks at Carlisle’s house.
“Nessie, honey thank heavens.”
“Mom, what’s wrong with me?” I whispered
“Honey, you’re okay really, there is nothing wrong with you.” She was smiling widely at me. “Nessie, I should have talked with 당신 a long time ago”
“What do 당신 mean?” I said as she was heading to the door to close it. I caught a quick glimpse of Jacob pacing past the doorway before the door completely closed.
My mother came back to my side and with a cheerful voice began to tell me what had happened to me. She told me about girls, where 아기 come from, how they were made all the while she was gently stroking my hands. Detail after detail of my new bodily experience. When she was done she finished with, “Nessie, you’re became a woman tonight, 당신 should be happy okay. I 사랑 당신 and I’m sorry I didn’t say anything sooner. I guess I had forgotten how much 당신 have grown up.” And she smiled even though I was still in shock. “Listen honey, do 당신 feel okay enough to see someone? Jacob is here, he really wants to see you. Can he come in? I just gave her a nod with my head but didn’t say a word.
As she opened the door I saw Jacob again. His expression was half joyful and half worried sick. My mother let him in and closed the door behind him as she left. Jacob sat down on the edge of my bed. His trembling hand took mine as he kissed my forehead.
“Nessie, are 당신 okay, honey?” he asked
I nodded but couldn’t look at him as embarrassment washed over me.
“Listen, I know I’m not the one going thru this right now…but I’m so happy for you. I told your mom a while 이전 that 당신 were grown up. And here 당신 are now. The last threshold of childhood has passed.” He said with a slight laugh.
That got my attention as I raised my eyes now to look into his. His smile was ear to ear and I couldn’t help but smile back as we held each other now.
I recovered from my trauma overnight. 의해 morning the only thing I wasn’t happy about was the bulky cotton thing that my mom told me was a 맥시 pad and the fact that every pair of jeans I had didn’t fit me right. They were to constricting and out of frustration; I gave up and put on sweatpants. I heard the 반 야생마, 무스탕, 무스 탕 pull into the driveway as I went to the window. Jacob blew me a 키스 and waved for me to come to him. But I had one 더 많이 thing to do before I left the house today. I snuck into Carlisle’s lab and gathered a small vial, a syringe, and a small roll of medical tape. I was going to get the samples I needed for my research today. The missing pieces of the puzzle in my head.
I ran to Jacob as he picked me up in a 곰 hug. “You look a lot better today, honey.” He whispered in my ear. “Come on we are going for a ride” His voice was absolutely beaming. He drove down to La Push with lightening speed as if he was in a major hurry. When we arrived at the 바닷가, 비치 Jacob briskly walked me down to the spot where we had watched the sunset. He then stopped short and turned to me taking both of my hands. He was anxious about something.
“Nessie…you dad and I had a REALLY long talk last night…and I now have the ability to ask 당신 something very important.” He smiled nervously. He was rocking back and forth slightly on his feet. He tilted head side to side cracking his neck and shook himself out as he exhaled and looked deeply into my eyes. He then gently sank to one knee never dropping his eyes from mine. “Nessie…I have been waiting your whole life to ask 당신 this…Please make me the happiest guy in the whole world. Renesmee Cullen, will 당신 marry me?”
I couldn’t answer him. I just froze with my mouth hanging widely open. He saw the shock in my face as he waited for my answer impatiently with hope in his eyes. But I pulled my hands away from his as I gave him my answer.
“No Jacob.” I said flatly. I saw the pain in his face which quickly turned to anger. He snapped to his feet now and hovered over me.
“Why!” he demanded.
“I can’t tell you” I whispered
“Nessie, I want to know why. Is there someone else? Another guy at school you’ve be seeing?” he hissed
“No I-“
“There is another guy, right?” as he accused me and started to storm away leaving me to follow him.
“Jacob there isn’t anyone else!” I promised. “Please don’t go”
He stopped short and spun towards me wildly. A multitude of expression came across his face
“Then if isn’t another guy…then why?” he shouted
“I can’t tell 당신 Jacob!” I shouted back.
“Why not…you have to give me an answer I can understand, Nessie!” he begged
I bit my lip and struggle to come up with a solution to tell him. My head was racing with ideas. Thoughts about my research. This whole thing, his proposal to me, had completely thrown me off from my plan to ask him for his blood. The blood I needed to have in order to continue to find out whether our DNA was compatible. But how was I going to ask him now. I stood too long silently as his hand were shaking trying to wait for my explanation.
“Fine! 당신 won’t tell me. That’s fine! I’m outta here!” He hissed through his teeth. As Jacob wheeled around and began to run down the beach.
But I had to follow him. I couldn’t stand that I had hurt him so much. I called for him as I ran.
“Jacob! Wait! Please stop! Alright 당신 win!”
Finally he slowed down and waited for me. He wouldn’t turn around as I came to his side.
“Jake, I want to show 당신 something” I said as I waited for him to look at me. It took him a moment to turn his head. I could see the anger in his eyes still as he was about to say something. I knew I only had to show him one image, just one. The nightmare of our baby that had haunted me and I hoped he would understand. I quickly placed my palm to his cheek and focused on the image transfer for that brief 초 and the pulled back. Jacob’s eyes went wide and his shocking body movement sent him landing on his hands and knees in from of me. I waited as I began to step away from him. I had no idea what was going to happen next. Jacob was cringing. I could see that I scared him too. Then he slowly came to his feet and looked to me.
“So…that’s why huh? That’s why 당신 won’t marry me. 당신 think our baby is going to be some mutant freak of nature.” He said coldly
“Jacob…I-“
“Why didn’t 당신 just ask Carlisle about this, he’s a doctor?”
“Jacob, he’s a doctor but he’s not a geneticist.”
“And that’s why you’re going to school for genetic engineering?”
“Yes!”
“I don’t know if 당신 are aware of this, but Carlisle told me once I have twenty-four pairs of chromosomes. Not that I really know what that means exactly.”
“Jake…that doesn’t mean anything. Just because we both have twenty-four pairs of chromosomes. It doesn’t mean our baby will be normal.”
“And when 당신 say…normal? 당신 mean human, right?” he sighed.
“Right, exactly! I really need to complete my research. Don’t 당신 want to know-“
“Whether 또는 not it’s safe” he said as he finished my sentence
All I could do was nod. I know it was all starting to come together. Something clicked in his head. He 로스트 all his anger and stared at me.
“So what do 당신 need to complete your research, huh?”
“I need 당신 blood, Jacob”
“Done!” he huffed. I could still see it in his eyes. The disbelief that our child could be anything but perfect. “But let’s get one thing straight. Even if 당신 find out it isn’t possible, Nessie. I still 사랑 당신 and want to marry you. Just keep that in mind.”
