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SeaOfMoonlight said:
Well, I don't. I was just bored and coming 의해 this page to see how it was. I started believing when I was depressed, alone, desperate for a friend, and in the process of loosing my belief in Christianity. I started believing because I needed something. I needed to feel like I had something, he was kind of like an imaginary friend when I was alone and upset. One night I broke down at my window, sobbing. I begged him to come, 또는 give me some sign I could know wasn't just a coincidence. I told him even if he just flew 의해 my window 또는 talked for a couple 분 it would make me feel so much better. He didn't come. I was just left there sobbing. I decided that if he could leave someone like that, so hopeless and desperate, in 검색 of anything to hold onto, he either wasn't real 또는 was a horrible person. So I stopped believing.
The only thing that ever made me 질문 it at all was that a few months 이전 I was upset and listening to Peter Pan related songs, so I whispered into the darkness, saying that if he was real to please give me some sign 또는 maybe even help me escape this dump. A couple 분 later I heard a loud thump on the roof, like someone had jumped on it followed 의해 three slow, distinct footsteps. I ran to my porch and searched, I stayed out for a while talking and 노래 like I used to, but there was nothing there.
I still don't know what happened that night, but I do know that there are only three possibilities. He doesn't exist, he is an apathetic jerk, 또는 I somehow don't have enough ability to belief 또는 connection to magic to reach him. I tried my best for a while and never got anything solid telling me he was real. All of the signs could have been coincidences 또는 totally normal things that I just interperted as a sign.
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