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** just wanted 당신 to know how much i 사랑 당신 JT and i never meant to hurt 당신 의해 fighting with 당신 and i just want 당신 to know that every word 당신 read is true as hell -Bee **

Ok, 당신 know how i used to tell 당신 that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the 일 i found out 당신 went to the hospital....i kept going to your 프로필 and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) 게시됨 the bad news on your 벽 and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with 당신 Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment 당신 told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the 다음 day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with 체리 and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI 더 많이 LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and 체리 and 어치, 제이 reached your room Chris was already in there with 당신 but 당신 were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like 당신 knew we were there and 당신 woke up and me and 체리 and 어치, 제이 just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about 당신 또는 체리 또는 Spunky 어치, 제이 and i know for sure Chris...


but i wanted to tell 당신 this cause i just want 당신 to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about 당신 and i just want 당신 to know that i dont hate 당신 and that i have ALWAYS LOVED 당신 JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I 사랑 체리 AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope 당신 know that and i never wanna hurt 당신 again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like 당신 were ....i hope 당신 get better and i am praying for you




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