>”Meredith , I think we need to talk.” was all he said, his voice cold and resentful, the look on his eyes indicated a mix of confusion, pain and anger.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could 당신 hide from me the fact that 당신 were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, 당신 never were so 당신 have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do 당신 think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If 당신 came here to fight, 당신 might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of 당신 and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know 당신 are a neurosurgeon and that 당신 fix peoples’ brains, in fact 어치, 제이 wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know 당신 leave here in Seattle and that 당신 사랑 fishing, another thing 당신 have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found 당신 in the nurses’ station showing the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching 당신 with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching 당신 revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. 당신 seemed happy, happier than 당신 were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he said the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she said with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told 당신 was real, I 사랑 당신 Meredith, I do, but 당신 won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt 당신 but all I am asking is a chance to show 당신 how much I 사랑 you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where 당신 had been, no one would tell how 당신 were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without 당신 다음 to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but 당신 could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s 침대 was a bit messy, with lots of 인형 and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s 침대 was 더 많이 neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His 심장 was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after 키싱 both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he said calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank 당신 for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He said hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if 당신 would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one 더 많이 week, maybe 당신 could spend the 일 with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d 사랑 that !” he said with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just given a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would 당신 like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until 당신 reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are 당신 ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” 당신 can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… 당신 could, I mean we could…how can I say it… 당신 could sleep here on the 침대 with me. Jut sleep, on the 침대 I mean. It’s big and the 침상, 소파 is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if 당신 want 당신 can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed 당신 and I still 사랑 당신 and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give 당신 the key to my 심장 again only to have it broken for once 더 많이 because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith said with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their 키스 which she deepened.
>”I 사랑 you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I 사랑 당신 too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of showing it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the 사랑 of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his 이전 ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far 더 많이 mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No 더 많이 back and forth … they only 옮기기 앞으로 from now on.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could 당신 hide from me the fact that 당신 were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, 당신 never were so 당신 have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do 당신 think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If 당신 came here to fight, 당신 might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of 당신 and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know 당신 are a neurosurgeon and that 당신 fix peoples’ brains, in fact 어치, 제이 wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know 당신 leave here in Seattle and that 당신 사랑 fishing, another thing 당신 have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found 당신 in the nurses’ station showing the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching 당신 with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching 당신 revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. 당신 seemed happy, happier than 당신 were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he said the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she said with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told 당신 was real, I 사랑 당신 Meredith, I do, but 당신 won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt 당신 but all I am asking is a chance to show 당신 how much I 사랑 you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where 당신 had been, no one would tell how 당신 were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without 당신 다음 to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but 당신 could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s 침대 was a bit messy, with lots of 인형 and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s 침대 was 더 많이 neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His 심장 was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after 키싱 both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he said calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank 당신 for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He said hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if 당신 would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one 더 많이 week, maybe 당신 could spend the 일 with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d 사랑 that !” he said with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just given a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would 당신 like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until 당신 reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are 당신 ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” 당신 can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… 당신 could, I mean we could…how can I say it… 당신 could sleep here on the 침대 with me. Jut sleep, on the 침대 I mean. It’s big and the 침상, 소파 is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if 당신 want 당신 can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed 당신 and I still 사랑 당신 and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give 당신 the key to my 심장 again only to have it broken for once 더 많이 because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith said with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their 키스 which she deepened.
>”I 사랑 you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I 사랑 당신 too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of showing it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the 사랑 of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his 이전 ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far 더 많이 mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No 더 많이 back and forth … they only 옮기기 앞으로 from now on.
