I'm so tired f being depressed. I didn't know why it started at first. In Ninth grade I started having this constant feeling inside and I didn't know what it was but, now I do. I have since 10th grade started. Life is so hard when you've been diagnosed with seve deepression and 당신 already knew 당신 have it. It's hard when people accuse 당신 of doing 또는 being something your not. It's hard when people judge 당신 silently from afar 또는 straight to your face. I don't cut bullshit like this though. When petty jerks give yoou ahard time just ignore them, I've learned that. I was bullied for 7 and a half years straight and it was BAD. And, now I'm insecure and give myself a hard time. I'm constantly beating myself up about my art, my body, my face, my hair, my grades, my idiocy, and just everything. I'm trying to get better I really am and if anything 음악 helps me escape from reality. That's why I constantly have earbuds in my ears 또는 wearing headphones. I can connect to the 음악 that I lisen to like 'When she cries' 또는 'Welcome to my life'. The list is endless but, the thing is that so is my pain. No matter how hard I try it always come back. I can go a week and a half without being depressed and then it comes crashing back in like an unwanted guest. Forgive me for ranting but, I need to get this off my ches. I'm so glad that I can finally cry and release all the pain. I've been bottling it up for too long. The 프렌즈 surrounding me either do 또는 don't know about this. Some know I'm depressed some don't. But, either way only one comforts me and I don't see her often. My great-grandmother thinks I do it for attention and my mom has too many problems of her own so, I don't bother her about it.The thing is, is that I just need to get this out. My chest can't take it anymore and neither can I myself in whole. It feels nice to get it all out. Like, the fact that i used to be anorexic as well... twice that is I was in 7th grade for a short while and then I also was in 초 semester of 10th grade. My best friend tried to make me at and my other 프렌즈 were concerned as well. At least the ones that knew. My other best friend still doesn't know I was. Anyways, there are somethings that I am ashamed of. I'm just so gld to get this off my chest and for anyone else suffering with depression 또는 any other disorders 또는 problems, stay strong. 당신 ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE. Don't let anyone get to 당신 including yourself. Be brave. Be strong. And remember to keep on living. 당신 are woth it and NOBODY deserves to go through the shit I have. Bullying, abuse, threats, none of that. Also, if 당신 have severe anxiety disorder like me 또는 are just stressed in general. Keep staying strong and don't give into the stress. If your insecure like me look in the mirror and look at yourself flaws and all and say "This is me and I 사랑 myself." even if 당신 don't think so because, trust me when I say "You are perfect just the way 당신 are." If 당신 are gay, bi, trans 또는 anything else like that and 당신 still haven't come out. Stay strong and know 당신 are PERFECT just the way 당신 are. 당신 are a human being just like everyone else and, no matter how much hate people give 당신 embrace yourself and be proud of who 당신 are. I am bi and I am proud. Also, for the bi people who are being told "Your either gay 또는 straight. 당신 can't like both." Don't listen to that bullshit. They don't know how 당신 feel. Don't let them get to you. To the gay people who are being told,"You chose this and your going to burn in hell." Don't listen to them. For ANYONE going through this 또는 any other bullshit. Remember 당신 are better than the ones judging 당신 and that 당신 are BEAUTIFUL and PERFECT just the way 당신 are. I hope that I helped someone 의해 saying that and I've realized that I WILL BE OKAY after this dark tunnel in life that I'm going through. I just want it to all be over soon. The pain that is. I'm tired of hating myself and feeling so alone. But, I'll make it and so will you.

Stay true to who 당신 are. Peace out <3<3<3