It was 2002. I was going there to perform on a show on Broadway, but then I saw the signs and advertisements. It was for this show called Mindfreak. I thought of Criss. Back in the '90's, he had this show called Mindfreak, and I supported him all the way. Unfortunately, I had to go back to Texas because of some family issues that my parents had to deal with and apparently, I was dragged into it. They tried keeping me 안전한, 안전 from it, but in an odd way, I was dragged right in. I walked down to the theater where the show was at, and paid to be there tonight at '9. I was psyched! After all of these years, I finally get to see Criss again.I can almost see the look on his face when he sees me, because I will get back stage whether they like it 또는 not, I will be in the arms of my Crissy! Oh wow, he hated it whenever I called him that whenever we were out in public. 당신 see, Criss and I were always best of friends, but I always had a secret crush and admiration for him. I was afraid that he liked other girls 또는 only saw me as a friend. Also, he couldn't have a girlfriend. He was too focused on his family, magic, and schoolwork. He did have time for me, though. He was my only friend at school because I was such an outcast. But Criss and I would be out somewhere 또는 before he would perform for somebody, and if I was there, I would shout "Crissy, sweetheart! I need a word with you!" in like a singsonging voice. But he always got me back, and it was never ending picking at each other of this sweet boy-girl-friendship. I was so excited about seeing my friend again.
It was '8, so I had to get ready quickly. I dressed in my black Darth Vader t-shirt, black Tripp pants, and 무지개, 레인 보우 gloves. I wore a pair of my skull vans, and left my down and the only make-up I wore was eyeliner, and it was brown eyeliner. I grabbed my Nightmare Before 크리스마스 purse, with my tickets and cash and was on my way. Since this was New York, I wanted to walk to the show. I loved walking everywhere and anywhere in Times Square because 당신 could be looking for something and then ask for directions anywhere. I stood in line, and there were a lot of parents, kids, different kinds of people, and especially goth and punk people. That's when I guessed this is my type of show.
I sat down, psyched to see what was in store for me. When it started, I was completely mind blown! It was so crazy, fun, eerie, and cool. I loved every 초 of it. After it was over, I went back stage. Costa and J.D were back there, and I whispered to them to stay quiet because I was going to surprise Criss. I snuck up behind him, and covered his eyes. "Guess who?" He started laughing and said,"What?" "Guess who 또는 I'll pinch you!" He grabbed my hands away from his eyes, as I fought to stay behind him. He finally turned around and said,"Lilith?! I haven't seen 당신 in years! What are 당신 doing here?" "I got a job working on Broadway, well hopefully if I get a call back, and I kept seeing the signs and ads for your show everywhere, so I wanted to see you. I guess 당신 still haven't gotten your hair cut off, huh?" "No, I like it this way." "Me too. I like your long hair. Very sexy. So, do 당신 wanna just stand here and look pretty, 또는 do ya wanna hang out and catch up with each other?"
We both went out to eat, and started talking. I looked at him and said,"So, how have 당신 been? I know we fought after I left a little, but I had to go back. I couldn't help it. They were pulling me in and drowning me into the argument." " What was that about exactly?" "Jared was going back and forth from his parents' house to mine and he wanted to start acting. Some of our cousins and aunts who stuck their nose into everything said he should stay and not become a "big shot" and forget his roots, while his parents and my parents were supporting him. It was stupid and I had to leave because my parents tried keeping me out of it and happy, while they wanted to drag me in." "I'm sorry for arguing with you. I was younger and I wanted to tell 당신 something." "What was it?" "If I tell 당신 now, it's going to be odd, since I'm in a relationship now." "What?" "I'm in a relationship now, Lilith. I'm planning to get married and everything." "I thought 당신 said when I come back 당신 would wait for me." "I had to 옮기기 on Lilith. I thought it would be months. It was years." "I thought that when I came back 당신 would be my best friend. I loved you! I always have loved you. I wanted to tell 당신 that, but I was too scared. Whatever." I grabbed my purse, and walked out of the door angrily. Criss followed me out and said,"Wait, what about catching up and everything?" "It's too late. Bye Criss, enjoy your life. I wish 당신 the best." Those were the last words I said to him. It seems stupid now, but then I was heartbroken. I thought he would wait for me. Yeah right.
A few months later, I met a guy named Skylar. He was nice and sweet, but one night, the sweetness turned into hell. Skylar was drinking and I was drinking a little and then everything turned bad. "Lilith, I want 당신 to marry me and stuff." "You're drunk, 당신 don't mean that." "I do. I really do." "Yeah right. We've only known each other for a few months. Not now." "Look, if 당신 marry me, I'll stop cheating on you. Oh crap." "What?" "Nothing. Babe, I said nothing." "Skylar, have 당신 been cheating on me?" "What? No! You're nuts. It's drunk talk! Totally...it's...false!" "I'm leaving. Never call 또는 talk to me again. At least I know now, I've been dating a d***bag cheater who likes getting drunk all the time. I never touched alcohol, until I met you!" "Oh yeah? I went further with them than you, 당신 prudence!" "I wanted to take it slow. 당신 just wanted to hurry up and get rid of me." "Where are 당신 going? Don't leave me!" "I'm leaving 당신 here to pass out. I'm going to live my life." I walked away back to my apartment. Ever since then, Skylar's been stalking me.
In 2005, I've gotten much closer to my parents and still dealt with my drunken stalker. I quit 연기 and started getting into the 음악 business. My parents were taking me out to Vegas, so we can spend some time with each other. I was glad to get out of NYC and to get away from Skylar, to spend some time with good ole' Mom and Dad. We were walking around Freemont street, when we saw a crowd of people and a camera crew. We saw a guy with dark wavy black long shaggy hair wearing a baseball 캡, 모자 pulling thread from his bellybutton. My dad looked at me and said,"Hey, Lilith to get your mind off things, lets check out this guy over there." "Okay. He looks cool. Let's check him out." We were watching in amazement, as he did such an awesome trick with it. After every person, my parents and the camera crew walked away, the really cool guy stood there looking at me. I looked at him and said,"Hi. Um, I really like your trick that 당신 did. I've been really into stuff like that, since my childhood friend showed me some illusions. He was really good for a kid his age. In my opinion he was. I never tried. I was too busy 글쓰기 and doing artwork." He looked at me and said,"You still write and draw?" I was kinda shocked and replied,"Uh, yeah. But anyway, I met him again in 2002 and he completely changed on me." "Do 당신 still have that sunburn condition? Because that really freaked me out when we were younger. 당신 passed out if 당신 didn't wear sunblock and 당신 would get sick." "Um, how did 당신 know that?" "You haven't changed much in your clothes, haven't you? 당신 always mixed goth with color. 당신 never had a stereotype at all 또는 anything. 당신 were uniquely beautiful and great to be around with." "Stop it! This is scaring me! What are 당신 doing to me? Whatever it is, stop it!" "Lilith, it's me. Okay? Me. Criss. 당신 look as beautiful as ever, and your parents don't look like they've changed much either." "Oh my....Criss. I'm sorry. *starts crying* I'm sorry. I was horrible to you! 당신 deserved getting married and everything, and I had this awful relationship with this guy, who now stalks me. Then, I couldn't stop thinking of 당신 또는 anything. I'm sorry." He hugged me and held me close. He said,"It's okay. I'm single now, and I was in a bad relationship when it all ended. I couldn't stop thinking of you, either. I still 사랑 you. I've always loved you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." "Do 당신 wanna catch up now without fighting?" "Okay. I'm not doing anything right now. I would 사랑 spending the time with you." "You're still a charmer. You're still a sweet talker. I 사랑 that about you, among other things." Without my parents knowing 또는 anything, Criss and I walked away, talking to each other. I have found out so many great things about him. He has his own show, he's moved to Vegas, and he's famous now. I told him about my 음악 career, my art, my relationship with Skylar and him stalking me. I've also told him how Jared is famous now, and everything else. We were walking and he said he wanted to take me to his friend's house. His friend and one of his business partners since 2001. I was just excited about being with Criss again.
It was '8, so I had to get ready quickly. I dressed in my black Darth Vader t-shirt, black Tripp pants, and 무지개, 레인 보우 gloves. I wore a pair of my skull vans, and left my down and the only make-up I wore was eyeliner, and it was brown eyeliner. I grabbed my Nightmare Before 크리스마스 purse, with my tickets and cash and was on my way. Since this was New York, I wanted to walk to the show. I loved walking everywhere and anywhere in Times Square because 당신 could be looking for something and then ask for directions anywhere. I stood in line, and there were a lot of parents, kids, different kinds of people, and especially goth and punk people. That's when I guessed this is my type of show.
I sat down, psyched to see what was in store for me. When it started, I was completely mind blown! It was so crazy, fun, eerie, and cool. I loved every 초 of it. After it was over, I went back stage. Costa and J.D were back there, and I whispered to them to stay quiet because I was going to surprise Criss. I snuck up behind him, and covered his eyes. "Guess who?" He started laughing and said,"What?" "Guess who 또는 I'll pinch you!" He grabbed my hands away from his eyes, as I fought to stay behind him. He finally turned around and said,"Lilith?! I haven't seen 당신 in years! What are 당신 doing here?" "I got a job working on Broadway, well hopefully if I get a call back, and I kept seeing the signs and ads for your show everywhere, so I wanted to see you. I guess 당신 still haven't gotten your hair cut off, huh?" "No, I like it this way." "Me too. I like your long hair. Very sexy. So, do 당신 wanna just stand here and look pretty, 또는 do ya wanna hang out and catch up with each other?"
We both went out to eat, and started talking. I looked at him and said,"So, how have 당신 been? I know we fought after I left a little, but I had to go back. I couldn't help it. They were pulling me in and drowning me into the argument." " What was that about exactly?" "Jared was going back and forth from his parents' house to mine and he wanted to start acting. Some of our cousins and aunts who stuck their nose into everything said he should stay and not become a "big shot" and forget his roots, while his parents and my parents were supporting him. It was stupid and I had to leave because my parents tried keeping me out of it and happy, while they wanted to drag me in." "I'm sorry for arguing with you. I was younger and I wanted to tell 당신 something." "What was it?" "If I tell 당신 now, it's going to be odd, since I'm in a relationship now." "What?" "I'm in a relationship now, Lilith. I'm planning to get married and everything." "I thought 당신 said when I come back 당신 would wait for me." "I had to 옮기기 on Lilith. I thought it would be months. It was years." "I thought that when I came back 당신 would be my best friend. I loved you! I always have loved you. I wanted to tell 당신 that, but I was too scared. Whatever." I grabbed my purse, and walked out of the door angrily. Criss followed me out and said,"Wait, what about catching up and everything?" "It's too late. Bye Criss, enjoy your life. I wish 당신 the best." Those were the last words I said to him. It seems stupid now, but then I was heartbroken. I thought he would wait for me. Yeah right.
A few months later, I met a guy named Skylar. He was nice and sweet, but one night, the sweetness turned into hell. Skylar was drinking and I was drinking a little and then everything turned bad. "Lilith, I want 당신 to marry me and stuff." "You're drunk, 당신 don't mean that." "I do. I really do." "Yeah right. We've only known each other for a few months. Not now." "Look, if 당신 marry me, I'll stop cheating on you. Oh crap." "What?" "Nothing. Babe, I said nothing." "Skylar, have 당신 been cheating on me?" "What? No! You're nuts. It's drunk talk! Totally...it's...false!" "I'm leaving. Never call 또는 talk to me again. At least I know now, I've been dating a d***bag cheater who likes getting drunk all the time. I never touched alcohol, until I met you!" "Oh yeah? I went further with them than you, 당신 prudence!" "I wanted to take it slow. 당신 just wanted to hurry up and get rid of me." "Where are 당신 going? Don't leave me!" "I'm leaving 당신 here to pass out. I'm going to live my life." I walked away back to my apartment. Ever since then, Skylar's been stalking me.
In 2005, I've gotten much closer to my parents and still dealt with my drunken stalker. I quit 연기 and started getting into the 음악 business. My parents were taking me out to Vegas, so we can spend some time with each other. I was glad to get out of NYC and to get away from Skylar, to spend some time with good ole' Mom and Dad. We were walking around Freemont street, when we saw a crowd of people and a camera crew. We saw a guy with dark wavy black long shaggy hair wearing a baseball 캡, 모자 pulling thread from his bellybutton. My dad looked at me and said,"Hey, Lilith to get your mind off things, lets check out this guy over there." "Okay. He looks cool. Let's check him out." We were watching in amazement, as he did such an awesome trick with it. After every person, my parents and the camera crew walked away, the really cool guy stood there looking at me. I looked at him and said,"Hi. Um, I really like your trick that 당신 did. I've been really into stuff like that, since my childhood friend showed me some illusions. He was really good for a kid his age. In my opinion he was. I never tried. I was too busy 글쓰기 and doing artwork." He looked at me and said,"You still write and draw?" I was kinda shocked and replied,"Uh, yeah. But anyway, I met him again in 2002 and he completely changed on me." "Do 당신 still have that sunburn condition? Because that really freaked me out when we were younger. 당신 passed out if 당신 didn't wear sunblock and 당신 would get sick." "Um, how did 당신 know that?" "You haven't changed much in your clothes, haven't you? 당신 always mixed goth with color. 당신 never had a stereotype at all 또는 anything. 당신 were uniquely beautiful and great to be around with." "Stop it! This is scaring me! What are 당신 doing to me? Whatever it is, stop it!" "Lilith, it's me. Okay? Me. Criss. 당신 look as beautiful as ever, and your parents don't look like they've changed much either." "Oh my....Criss. I'm sorry. *starts crying* I'm sorry. I was horrible to you! 당신 deserved getting married and everything, and I had this awful relationship with this guy, who now stalks me. Then, I couldn't stop thinking of 당신 또는 anything. I'm sorry." He hugged me and held me close. He said,"It's okay. I'm single now, and I was in a bad relationship when it all ended. I couldn't stop thinking of you, either. I still 사랑 you. I've always loved you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." "Do 당신 wanna catch up now without fighting?" "Okay. I'm not doing anything right now. I would 사랑 spending the time with you." "You're still a charmer. You're still a sweet talker. I 사랑 that about you, among other things." Without my parents knowing 또는 anything, Criss and I walked away, talking to each other. I have found out so many great things about him. He has his own show, he's moved to Vegas, and he's famous now. I told him about my 음악 career, my art, my relationship with Skylar and him stalking me. I've also told him how Jared is famous now, and everything else. We were walking and he said he wanted to take me to his friend's house. His friend and one of his business partners since 2001. I was just excited about being with Criss again.
