"dear Alice.
i don't know why i say alice anymore, i think now i write these emails to myself, to secure me that 당신 were real, that 당신 all were , that he was.
There is evidence that 당신 were here. and was my best friend. But sometimes i dont know wheither i was dreaming 또는 not, But i stop that thought to think again, if it was a dream and 당신 diddnt exist,then how did i know your name, 또는 did i make 당신 up, along with every one else. Maybe i'm going crazy, from without 당신 i dont know. But i want to find out. Do 당신 think a crazy person can be the one to digiosed themselves?? Lets hope for my sake that they can.
I know 당신 wont read this, 또는 that fact that 당신 havent even read one. they jsut get sent back to me, unread, failed, jsut like i know this one will to.
But i think this is the only thing that stops me from doing what i shouldn't do. what ever that is.
Charlie would say hi, if he knew anything. I've been so quite that me andcharlie no longer talk.
And jake. Well, he reminds me of you. Your friendship, your beauty, your loveliness. And the easiness to be normal around, someone i diddnt have to try,that i will never experience again.
But jake could never replace you.
school sucks, i think only 당신 and him was my only exucuse to get up and out of 침대 for school.
i havent spoken to my mum in ages. she calls and calls and abuses dad. but i just cant. she will be too concerned and ask 질문 that i dont want to answer 또는 just hear.
Well i 사랑 당신 alice. i have to make 공식 만찬, 저녁 식사 for charlie, in silence again..
talk to 당신 in the 다음 few days. funny how i say that, when i wont."

사랑 bella