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5 time zones
5 hours
2 hemispheres
Reversed seasons
2 continents
Hundreds of miles
The up all night's
But I don't care
About the time;
How could I possibly
Pay any mind?
I could stay up later:
But then
I have college
We talk
And laugh
And smile
And hug
And giggle (me at least)
And blush (me at least)
All the conversations
All the secrets that we keep
The 사랑 that we share
No one on Earth--
EXCEPT US
Understands our love
It's complicated:
In a good way
In a cute way
In a fun way
All the hours I've waited
"Just to fall in 사랑
It feels this right"
Funny, because I'm taller
And stronger
And older
But he protects me
Far better
Than I can protect myself
He loves me
Far more
Than I 사랑 myself
And he cares about me
더 많이 than anyone else I know
me- Wait.
him- yes?
me- If I killed myself, would 당신 miss me?
him- no.
me- Oh.
him- i would die.
me- O-ok-kay... :'(
him- 당신 hear me?
him- i. would. fucking. die.
him- don't even think about it.

And to be honest,
It would be the same
If it was the other way
Around
I nothing without him
He's nothing without me
No one understands that
We're so meant to be
All the situations
The connections
The screenshots I HAVE to take
Because it's all so
Perfect
According to him
I'm perfect
Even though
According to me
I'm the opposite
In my world
It's not "Him and Me"
It's ❤Us❤
My 심장 sings out
For his 사랑 and his care
Even now
As my tears fall
Like, actually
My 심장 yearns for him
Every 초 of every minute
Of every 시간 of every day
I 사랑 him--unconditionally
Because I belong to him
And he belongs to me.
And we are one
Now is the time
Now is the hour
He has my heart
And this 사랑 is ours
All I need is
One 별, 스타 in the sky
Wish for him
Every night
In the past 16 days
I haven't gone to 침대
Before 02h19
Thinking about him
And how much I miss him
And how much I want him
Because he's like no other
Actually the best thing
That's ever been mine
It's like our heartstrings
Connect from him to me
And are keeping us together
And it's like an
Unbreakable bond
Ever strong
Never weakened
It's all too much
Sometimes I wonder
"Is this what I want?"
Then
After 10 초 of contemplation
I draw the following conclusion:
YES.
IT IS.
I have a right to be
Happy and loved
And he has a right to be
Loved and happy
When 사랑 is this strong,
당신 want to spend
Every waking moment
With your angel
Which is how I feel
I'm surprised that I'm
Not a 년 older
Every time I get out of class
And go home
Because college feels
So fucking long
Like, 당신 wouldn't believe it
But at the end of the day
It pays off
BIG TIME
Even if it's just a few hours
또는 even a few minutes
Ever 초 counts
Because it's my love
My breath
My soldier
My angel
My baby
My other half
My other three-quarters
My partner
My lover
My best friend
My boyfriend.❤

[30.5.13]
--X.E.D.S.S.R.

*~[Dantona}~* Est. -5.14.13.-
"Pfft," scoffed Matt, "Who goes to stores?"
"Um...I do. I also do other things." I winked seductively at him. He instinctively sat on 상단, 맨 위로 of me and chuckled. "Oh, I see how it is, muthadude."
"What's that babe? I'm so wrapped up in 당신 that I don't have time to listen to your voice."
"Oh shut your face."
He kissed my neck and whispered, "I can't heeeaaar youuu..." I couldn't helped but giggle. Again. Like I always do. "OMG BABE 당신 GIGGLED AGAIN! Why are 당신 so cute?" He looked at me with his big, blue, 강아지 dog eyes.
"Matthew Lucien Lake...marry me..." I said as I laid back down on the bed. He...
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I woke up groggily on Sunday morning with a headache. "Ugh, every single day...I hate migraines," I complained. It was almost true. Then there's the almost. I was dizzy, still tired, and pretty hungry.
"What happened?" asked Matt as he yawned sleepily. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I just have a headache." I buried my head on the pillow, 다음 to him.
"Aww, want me to get some aspirin and water?" I shook my head. I can't take aspirins on an empty stomach. I laid back a bit 더 많이 and relaxed my body. I was so tense and frustrated. He put his arm over my chest and kissed my neck. "I think you'll...
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I 사랑 his soft brown eyes
and the way that he catches me 의해 surprise and he never has to wear a disguise.
I 사랑 the way that he kisses me
and the way that he misses me.
I 사랑 the way that he said that I 사랑 당신 first. But baby I really 사랑 당신 the most.
I 사랑 당신 the way that 당신 just 사랑 me and only me. This is how life is suppose to be me loving 당신 and 당신 loving me. I know this is meant to be and that is what 당신 told me. Baby I 사랑 당신 and this is true. I 사랑 당신 더 많이 than words, can ever say, I 사랑 당신 더 많이 when 당신 take my breath way. I thank God for 당신 everyday.
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Sometimes the one 당신 take the bullet for is the one who pulls the trigger. </3

Just before 당신 die, 당신 see a reflection of the one 당신 사랑 and 당신 realize that 당신 gave everything and got nothing.

But sometimes you're just imagining that you're seeing them.

Sometimes, the person 당신 take the bullet for is yourself.

Sometimes it's 당신 that's pulling the trigger and 당신 can't, 당신 just don't want to, admit it.

And sometimes, 당신 find yourself so 로스트 in the midst of the blood that 당신 don't realize that maybe it wasn't 당신 whole pulled the trigger on yourself.

You pulled it on someone else...
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This was what he wrote on his birthday this year:

Two decades - a bit more.
The tears, the scars.
The sweat, the pain.
23 funerals.
The toils of life.
Life itself.
FUCK. The struggle.
I. CANNOT. EVEN.
But today is a different day.
The beginning of a new me.
The end of the old me.
I can lie no longer.
I've got to be true to myself.
All I've lived up to begins to
unravel
to reveal itself.
Today.
No longer am I the
bastard of ole.
The dick of yonder.
I am
XANTONA
ESTAFANO
EVINVALDO
da SILVA
SANTOS
RIVEIROS.
I'm gonna be a fuckin' legend.
I'm gonna be in the books.
But I have already been
bathed
in 21 years:
252 months:
7,560 days:...
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This is an entry from Xante's journal. It was on his 책상, 데스크 and the page was bookmarked:

I shall die forgotten
Yet I live unremembered.
I shall died uncared for
Yet I live neglected.
The hatred.
The push-pull of life.
The tears.
The push-pull of love.
I am not over here.
I am not over there.
I am not purgatory.
I am not nowhere.
So where do I belong?
DO I belong?
How would I know if there's a path worth taking?
What's dark is light.
What's light is dark.
What I once thought was mine belongs to someone else.
I don't even belong to myself.
I shall die unquestioned
Yet I live unasked.
I shall die under-worked
Yet I live...
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