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posted by fake_buster
 pics of "-Xantona-"
pics of "-Xantona-"
I don't like fakes. And guess what?

The user link is 100% FAKE.

WHO is he faking?

SAM ALBERT.

There's a proof pic of the REAL Sam Albert below!

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link

Now, 당신 can think all that's fake, 당신 can claim the pic is photoshopped, but how about a video of the real Sam SAYING HIS NAME IS SAM ALBERT? And saying the only accounts he has are Twitter, 유튜브 and Instagram?

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당신 can't fake that.
 Sam Albert's proof pic
Sam Albert's proof pic
 Sam Albert's 유튜브
Sam Albert's Youtube
 Sam Albert's Instagram
Sam Albert's Instagram
posted by -Xantona-
Sometimes, I wake up in tears.
I literally just wake up crying. And with a headache, and my throat feels clogged, and it's awful. I just don't feel like doing anything. I wish I didn't have college 또는 work sometimes, because I hate doing anything when I'm not feeling well.

Why? 당신 may wonder. Why is he feeling this way?

Because I feel alone sometimes. As much as 당신 may think you're all surrounding me with love, the one person that means the most to me: I talk to him the least. And it hurts. Because I 사랑 him. A lot. And when he's not around, I literally feel so fucking lost. There was one time...
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posted by -Xantona-
My chest hurts.
From my heartbeat.
It's like my heartbeat
has a heartbeat.
'Cause when I think about Matt:
My 심장
it beats
for him.
My life
My soul
My virtue
My everything.
So close...
so far away.
So 로스트 without him.
So 로스트 in dream without him.
I'm not me without him.
The tears that stain my pillow
wondering
hoping
thinking
loving.
The dreams.
The wishes.
The everlasting bind.
I wait forever and a day.
I would wait forever
3 months,
19 weeks,
20 days,
and 13 hours.
I would give the world for him.
I would give my life for him.
To protect him.
Even if the 일 comes
that I don't show it,
remember:
I 사랑 him.


!~Xanatt~!
Est. March 19th, 2013
∞ For now...For Ever. ∞
posted by -Xantona-
There are actually so many--far too many--god-fucking annoying people in this world. What I don't get is where do they all come from? They just appear in my life and act like they 사랑 me and I'm like "Can 당신 please fuck off?" in myt mind but on the outside I'm just a bunch of "lol"s and "xD"s. Deception? Maybe so. Misleading? Definitely. Do I feel bad? Maybe. Probably not. I only feel bad if it's someone I can manage to give 2 shits about. If you're 읽기 this, 당신 may think I'm being mean and overtly rude for no reason. Actually, I'm just tired and felt like 글쓰기 this. I'm also kinda...
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posted by -Xantona-
My Egyptian queen
A little princess
My hair--Dawn's wife...ha ha!
더 많이 than that -- a friend
A close friend
a best friend
I go to her
She comes to me
we talked
we laughed
we slept
we ate tacos
we--
fuck that.
SHE messed with Dawn.
[*messed Dawn*
*giggles*
*keeps messing Dawn*
*giggles and waves Dawn in your face*]
My hair...has a wife.
Funny to think
that a stranger could soon
turn into
not only your best friend
but your hair's best friend
And that best friend of mine
marks today
as something new
Today is the beginning
of a new year
of a new age
Mira will grow into a lovely young lady
and today she's one step closer
one 년 closer
one 더 많이 년 of laughter
of happiness
of giggles
of smiles
of hugs
of
*messing Dawn*
of love
of growing up
Life is a ride...
Here she goes...
사랑 당신 Mira!
Happy Birthday Sweetheart...❤

[1.5.2013]
--X.E.E.D.S.S.R.
 Mira <3 15 years old today :)
Mira <3 15 years old today :)
posted by MaddyMalik18
Xantona Estafano Evinvaldo da Silva Santos Riveiros. That right there ladies and gentleman, Is the name of my closest friend. No one, and I mean NO ONE can ever compare to him. He is the most amazing person I have EVER met. Ever. Im so lucky to have met him, and to be Best 프렌즈 with such a great guy like him. He's my Big Brother & My Best Friend in the World♥ He's helped me through so much. And I deal with a lot of shit, and he's the reason I get through a lot of it. He's actually the reason I'm still alive. He's so caring and sweet, and as long as 당신 don't mess with him, he'll be...
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posted by -Xantona-
Below is a brief analysis of the first name only.

Your name of Xante has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and 당신 desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order 또는 ask permission.

You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help 당신 are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people.

You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain.

You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding.

Although...
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posted by -Xantona-
This is from January 30th.

Think before 당신 speak.
Crimson tears release the pain...
But no one understands why
You're alone, nothing...no one
Happiness is a figment of our
Imaginations
There is no such thing as happy.
No one hears your cry for help...
And no one cares anyway
They all say 'no don't do it'
But I don't care.
I can't care.
I don't want to care.
I'm tired of caring.
I'm sick of caring.
So I read my scars to the world
And tell them why
The red velvet tears
Stain the floor
With my everlasting pain
The pain that always stays
The pain that won't go.
All of them did this to me.
I trust no one xxxx
The pain...
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posted by -Xantona-
So this is gonna be a 팬 fic about my relationship with Danny. I'm using my actual diary entries so I don't know how fictional it is xD How many parts will it have, 당신 ask? Well, however many I can come up with before it just starts to get too personal. Here we go...

May 14, 2013

Dear Diary,
I just talked to this amazing guy. Literally so amazing. Too amazing for your mind brain...er...mine for that matter. His name's Danny. And he's soooo omg soooo cute. I'm not even kidding. Soooo cute.Wait. SHIT. I have a boyfriend. Lmfao. Wow. I never thought I'd say this, but I wish I didn't have a boyfriend....
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posted by -Xantona-
5 time zones
5 hours
2 hemispheres
Reversed seasons
2 continents
Hundreds of miles
The up all night's
But I don't care
About the time;
How could I possibly
Pay any mind?
I could stay up later:
But then
I have college
We talk
And laugh
And smile
And hug
And giggle (me at least)
And blush (me at least)
All the conversations
All the secrets that we keep
The 사랑 that we share
No one on Earth--
EXCEPT US
Understands our love
It's complicated:
In a good way
In a cute way
In a fun way
All the hours I've waited
"Just to fall in 사랑
It feels this right"
Funny, because I'm taller
And stronger
And older
But he protects me
Far better
Than...
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posted by -Xantona-
Ya know what? Fuck this. Fuck that. Fuck you. Fuck him. Fuck her. FUCK EVERYTHING.

I literally want to develop a super germ that wipes out the human race except for the people I give enough of a shit about because I hate all of 당신 and I'll be on Pluto not giving a fuck and just laughing because you're all going to die.

FUCK EVERYTHING FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT.

I don't like people I don't like things that breathe I don't like things that 옮기기 I don't like things that start with a, b. c, d, e, f, g, h, i, j, k, l, m, n, o, p, q, r, s, t, u, v, w, x, y, 또는 z.

I hate things that 옮기기 I...
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posted by -Xantona-
I.
Am.
The.
Messiah.
LMFAO no I'm not actually.
I wish I was.
But I'm not.
I could be.
There is a small chance.
But I doubt it.
You know why?
Because I live in Southern Brazil.
1.000's of miles away from Jerusalem.
1.000's of miles away from Bethlehem.
But, I could still believe
that I could save
my disciples.
Do I even have any?
Because I'm not the Messiah.
Or am I?
I actually have no fucking idea.
No. Like legit though.
How does anyone know?
My biggest fear
is probably that
the guy 다음 to me is
Jesus.
And not me.
That would actually suck.
Like, that is BEYOND
unfair.
That is unjust--
it's fucking criminal.
But...
what...
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posted by -Xantona-
They danced.
They laughed.
They hugged and kissed and cried.
Their universe revolved
around their small, small world.
The world of them.
The two of them.
They talked to their hearts' content.
The arms of an angel
carried them through.
It was love.
It was perfect.
It was them.
All things temporary:
Just like them.
As they danced,
her dress began to tear
at the seams.
As he ran towards her love,
his 셔츠 began to rip
at the seams.
And so they were.
Were.
And are no longer.
The hopes, the fantasies--
gone.
She couldn't understand.
Maybe she didn't want to.
He couldn't comprehend.
Maybe he didn't need to.
All they had ever...
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posted by imsexymatt
Putting my feelings into words-
Impossible.
For my feelings for 당신 are-
Incomprehensible.
If I could let 당신 see the effect 당신 have on me,
당신 would be blinded.
For if 당신 did the darkness would fade,
Shadows were no longer.
For I am in love,
더 많이 in 사랑 than I have been for a long time.
I 사랑 당신 is all I can say,
But my 심장 says more,
There is much 더 많이 to my love,
Dreams, Hopes, Fantisies,
That all can become realities.
For with 당신 I am a new me,
A me that shouldn't leave.
In these few words I hope 당신 see,
How much 당신 mean to me.
In Life, 사랑 and Spirit,
I want 당신 to hear it,
I 사랑 you!
posted by -Xantona-
May 16, 2013

Dear Diary,
OMG! He's legit falling for me too. :DDDDD OMG! OMG! He legit likes me too omg this is the best 일 of my life I was gonna write this earlier but when I got 집 I was so tired om I'm so excited I can't even breathe!!! God bless Sam Albert. If Danny knew I was I a trans he would probably blow my entire country up. Well...I guess he'll find out eventually. O.O Oh well... Point is HE LIKES ME HE LIKES ME AGHHHH OMG. I can't even right now. I'm boucing off walls. I'm so fucking euphoric right now. OMG HE LIKES ME :D I feel like Superman...except I don't even know who I fucking...
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We are born.
We live.
We die.
But what if I never lived?
Have I always been dead?
Or did I just live not knowing
what life is?
Is the world really round?
What is the reality
of my life?
...of your life?
...of anything?
How do we know
what life is supposed to be?
Is it suffering?
Or is it pleasure?
If it is suffering
then I have lived.
I lived the life of a
lost man.
If it is pleasure
then I have not lived.
I never lived.
Does that mean I was never born.
Walking down the paths of my life
I breathe.
I see.
I hear.
I feel.
But I do not speak.
It is not my turn.
This is not what I was made for.
I do not live to have life.
So...
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"Pfft," scoffed Matt, "Who goes to stores?"
"Um...I do. I also do other things." I winked seductively at him. He instinctively sat on 상단, 맨 위로 of me and chuckled. "Oh, I see how it is, muthadude."
"What's that babe? I'm so wrapped up in 당신 that I don't have time to listen to your voice."
"Oh shut your face."
He kissed my neck and whispered, "I can't heeeaaar youuu..." I couldn't helped but giggle. Again. Like I always do. "OMG BABE 당신 GIGGLED AGAIN! Why are 당신 so cute?" He looked at me with his big, blue, 강아지 dog eyes.
"Matthew Lucien Lake...marry me..." I said as I laid back down on the bed. He...
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I woke up groggily on Sunday morning with a headache. "Ugh, every single day...I hate migraines," I complained. It was almost true. Then there's the almost. I was dizzy, still tired, and pretty hungry.
"What happened?" asked Matt as he yawned sleepily. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I just have a headache." I buried my head on the pillow, 다음 to him.
"Aww, want me to get some aspirin and water?" I shook my head. I can't take aspirins on an empty stomach. I laid back a bit 더 많이 and relaxed my body. I was so tense and frustrated. He put his arm over my chest and kissed my neck. "I think you'll...
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posted by imsexymatt
I 사랑 his soft brown eyes
and the way that he catches me 의해 surprise and he never has to wear a disguise.
I 사랑 the way that he kisses me
and the way that he misses me.
I 사랑 the way that he said that I 사랑 당신 first. But baby I really 사랑 당신 the most.
I 사랑 당신 the way that 당신 just 사랑 me and only me. This is how life is suppose to be me loving 당신 and 당신 loving me. I know this is meant to be and that is what 당신 told me. Baby I 사랑 당신 and this is true. I 사랑 당신 더 많이 than words, can ever say, I 사랑 당신 더 많이 when 당신 take my breath way. I thank God for 당신 everyday.
posted by -Xantona-
Sometimes the one 당신 take the bullet for is the one who pulls the trigger. </3

Just before 당신 die, 당신 see a reflection of the one 당신 사랑 and 당신 realize that 당신 gave everything and got nothing.

But sometimes you're just imagining that you're seeing them.

Sometimes, the person 당신 take the bullet for is yourself.

Sometimes it's 당신 that's pulling the trigger and 당신 can't, 당신 just don't want to, admit it.

And sometimes, 당신 find yourself so 로스트 in the midst of the blood that 당신 don't realize that maybe it wasn't 당신 whole pulled the trigger on yourself.

You pulled it on someone else...
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