This is an entry from Xante's journal. It was on his 책상, 데스크 and the page was bookmarked:
I shall die forgotten
Yet I live unremembered.
I shall died uncared for
Yet I live neglected.
The hatred.
The push-pull of life.
The tears.
The push-pull of love.
I am not over here.
I am not over there.
I am not purgatory.
I am not nowhere.
So where do I belong?
DO I belong?
How would I know if there's a path worth taking?
What's dark is light.
What's light is dark.
What I once thought was mine belongs to someone else.
I don't even belong to myself.
I shall die unquestioned
Yet I live unasked.
I shall die under-worked
Yet I live un-tasked.
I find refuge in Hell.
My Hell is my refuge.
I live.
I speak.
I dance my life away.
The shadow of the killer
Is the light if the innocent.
Always opposed
Yet never countered.
Unknown.
--X.E.E.D.S.S.R.
(Those are his initials.)
The only truly strange thing is that it was precisely two days before is suicide attempt, which is the current cause of his coma. I'm not gonna say it was planned (I don't think it was), but things that were said to him may have sped up his desire to die. I just thought it was interesting.
-Juliana R. <3
I shall die forgotten
Yet I live unremembered.
I shall died uncared for
Yet I live neglected.
The hatred.
The push-pull of life.
The tears.
The push-pull of love.
I am not over here.
I am not over there.
I am not purgatory.
I am not nowhere.
So where do I belong?
DO I belong?
How would I know if there's a path worth taking?
What's dark is light.
What's light is dark.
What I once thought was mine belongs to someone else.
I don't even belong to myself.
I shall die unquestioned
Yet I live unasked.
I shall die under-worked
Yet I live un-tasked.
I find refuge in Hell.
My Hell is my refuge.
I live.
I speak.
I dance my life away.
The shadow of the killer
Is the light if the innocent.
Always opposed
Yet never countered.
Unknown.
--X.E.E.D.S.S.R.
(Those are his initials.)
The only truly strange thing is that it was precisely two days before is suicide attempt, which is the current cause of his coma. I'm not gonna say it was planned (I don't think it was), but things that were said to him may have sped up his desire to die. I just thought it was interesting.
-Juliana R. <3