End of Chapter 4
"Then what the hell happened?"
"Um.." I said as I tried to think up something fast. I knew that if I told her about my dreams that she would probably think I was crazy..which I was beginning to 질문 myself. "I..I was going to go out..to get away..but when I went to sneak out last night I fell in the snow."
"Really Alexandra?" My mother said as she shook her head. "That's the best 당신 can come up with?"
"Yeah." I admitted.
"I'm so sick of your lies." She said as she stood up and stormed out of my room. I realized my life was a mess, both my real life and the dream life I wished I could return to.
Chapter 5
I was so confused..so lost. My mother was mad because I wouldn't..no couldn't tell her what was causing me these injuries, she wouldn't believe me anyway.
I lay in my 침대 trying to figure out my life..I wanted to go back, back to my dream to figure out what was going on to get away from everything and everyone..but I didn't know how.
I sat up, grabbing a stuffed owl off my 침대 and throwing it across the room in frustration. I needed to figure this out, I had to get things right..and the only thing in life that made me calm, made me focus was running.
I ignored the pain in my feet and legs as I pulled on socks and stuffed my swollen, raw feet into my running shoes. I knew that this was going to hurt..but I had to find clarity and this was the only way I could think of.
"Mom," I yelled as I winced because of the pain in my feet. "I'm gonna go run."
"Oh yeah," I heard her say in a sarcastic tone. "That's going to help your feet."
"Bye mom!" I said as I ignored both the 코멘트 and the pain in my legs. "Love you!"
I heard her groan something that sounded like 'yeah whatever' 또는 'you too' before I closed the door behind me and started walking down our driveway.
I usually ran on the trails that ran behind my house, they were my quiet place, the place I went when I needed to think to be with nature. Today however I decided that I needed to focus, that if I went into the woods I wouldn't be able to figure out what I needed..I needed distraction.
I turned right and ran down the side of the road, smiling and waving at a few of the neighbors as I went past doing my best to ignore the burning, pulsing pain in my lower legs and feet. I took a left onto Colorado avenue and noticed that the traffic was busier here then it was on my road, but I ignored it and kept going as I realized that the pain in my feet was getting less as I ran..that 또는 I was just ignoring the pain.
I don't know how long I ran, I'm guessing it was about twenty 분 또는 so when I felt a cramp beginning in my upper left leg. I stopped against a large oak 나무, 트리 and tried to stretch out the muscle which didn't work. I walked for about a block when I got the feeling that I was being watched, I turned and looked for someone but there was no one else walking 또는 running at this time, just the cars going by. I did my best to ignore the feeling but the 더 많이 I walked the worse the sensation got. I looked around about ten 더 많이 times looking for someone and never saw who it was but something deep in my soul told me I needed to get going home..and soon.
I turned on my heel and started running back towards my house, not at a out run but faster then I had been running before my cramp. I swear I could feel someone watching me, and it was distracting me from my run. I know better then to stop watching where I run..I'm always very careful when running with traffic but the feeling of someone's eyes on me had me completely distracted.
I heard the horn a fraction of a 초 before I turned and saw the car that I had just stepped out in front of. I knew I wouldn't have time to get out of the way, that the car wouldn't have time to stop before it hit me. I screamed as loud as I could as I closed my eyes and wished I could see Dom.
"Then what the hell happened?"
"Um.." I said as I tried to think up something fast. I knew that if I told her about my dreams that she would probably think I was crazy..which I was beginning to 질문 myself. "I..I was going to go out..to get away..but when I went to sneak out last night I fell in the snow."
"Really Alexandra?" My mother said as she shook her head. "That's the best 당신 can come up with?"
"Yeah." I admitted.
"I'm so sick of your lies." She said as she stood up and stormed out of my room. I realized my life was a mess, both my real life and the dream life I wished I could return to.
Chapter 5
I was so confused..so lost. My mother was mad because I wouldn't..no couldn't tell her what was causing me these injuries, she wouldn't believe me anyway.
I lay in my 침대 trying to figure out my life..I wanted to go back, back to my dream to figure out what was going on to get away from everything and everyone..but I didn't know how.
I sat up, grabbing a stuffed owl off my 침대 and throwing it across the room in frustration. I needed to figure this out, I had to get things right..and the only thing in life that made me calm, made me focus was running.
I ignored the pain in my feet and legs as I pulled on socks and stuffed my swollen, raw feet into my running shoes. I knew that this was going to hurt..but I had to find clarity and this was the only way I could think of.
"Mom," I yelled as I winced because of the pain in my feet. "I'm gonna go run."
"Oh yeah," I heard her say in a sarcastic tone. "That's going to help your feet."
"Bye mom!" I said as I ignored both the 코멘트 and the pain in my legs. "Love you!"
I heard her groan something that sounded like 'yeah whatever' 또는 'you too' before I closed the door behind me and started walking down our driveway.
I usually ran on the trails that ran behind my house, they were my quiet place, the place I went when I needed to think to be with nature. Today however I decided that I needed to focus, that if I went into the woods I wouldn't be able to figure out what I needed..I needed distraction.
I turned right and ran down the side of the road, smiling and waving at a few of the neighbors as I went past doing my best to ignore the burning, pulsing pain in my lower legs and feet. I took a left onto Colorado avenue and noticed that the traffic was busier here then it was on my road, but I ignored it and kept going as I realized that the pain in my feet was getting less as I ran..that 또는 I was just ignoring the pain.
I don't know how long I ran, I'm guessing it was about twenty 분 또는 so when I felt a cramp beginning in my upper left leg. I stopped against a large oak 나무, 트리 and tried to stretch out the muscle which didn't work. I walked for about a block when I got the feeling that I was being watched, I turned and looked for someone but there was no one else walking 또는 running at this time, just the cars going by. I did my best to ignore the feeling but the 더 많이 I walked the worse the sensation got. I looked around about ten 더 많이 times looking for someone and never saw who it was but something deep in my soul told me I needed to get going home..and soon.
I turned on my heel and started running back towards my house, not at a out run but faster then I had been running before my cramp. I swear I could feel someone watching me, and it was distracting me from my run. I know better then to stop watching where I run..I'm always very careful when running with traffic but the feeling of someone's eyes on me had me completely distracted.
I heard the horn a fraction of a 초 before I turned and saw the car that I had just stepped out in front of. I knew I wouldn't have time to get out of the way, that the car wouldn't have time to stop before it hit me. I screamed as loud as I could as I closed my eyes and wished I could see Dom.
Hi all!!!
Just a note to say that I did not fall off the face of the planet!! I am still here, went through a lot in the last few months..I won't bore 당신 all with my life but I moved then moved again and haven't had time to think let alone write.
SO....
This is me apologizing for not 글쓰기 and being gone so much in the last few months.
AND a promise that I will do my best to start 글쓰기 again soon :)
Hope some of 당신 are still here, still with me :)
Thank 당신 all a million times for everything!!!
Just a note to say that I did not fall off the face of the planet!! I am still here, went through a lot in the last few months..I won't bore 당신 all with my life but I moved then moved again and haven't had time to think let alone write.
SO....
This is me apologizing for not 글쓰기 and being gone so much in the last few months.
AND a promise that I will do my best to start 글쓰기 again soon :)
Hope some of 당신 are still here, still with me :)
Thank 당신 all a million times for everything!!!