I was totally unprepared for what I was about to face. How could I leave my one true 사랑 alone so fragile and unprotected, but surly she could stay out of harms way without the 뱀파이어 in town. I knew that it would be a while before she actually hinted that I was leaving and I knew that she would cling with every thread of hope. But this was for the best. I think.
I pulled into Charlies spot not wanting to look at the empty house so I spent the few 분 it took for Bella's truck to come billowing around the corner, with my love.
Holding her warm hand, I was so attuned to her that I could even hear her 심장 thump around unevenly at my very touch. I imagined the blood rush to her soft cheek and I even tasted her scent a deep freesia on my tongue.
I stepped out to meet her and saw her wary expression watching me. So I took her book bag and lightly threw it in the small cab.
She looked at me with the strangest expression on her face now like she knew what was to come but also a confused look. I saw 질문 in her eyes but ignored them.
"Come for a walk with me."
My voice was hard as stone with no emotion whatsoever, but what I was about to do was not exactly cause for celebration. I tried to hide my emotions as best as possible so as not to worry her more. But it was difficult and I hoped she didn't see what slipped through.
I pulled her along through the yard and onto the trail when we stopped the house was still in view.
I stared at her trying to memorize her face. It took all my self control not to stretch my hand out and stroke her warm cheek but this was going to be hard enough.
"Okay lets talk," she said.
I took a deep, long breath to prepare myself for what was to come.
"Bella, we're leaving."
She appeared as if she were preparing for a war, a long war. But in the end I would win. But instead of getting a gold medal I get my destiny taken away from me.
"Why now? Another year-
"Bella, it's time, how much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
She stared at me her expression confused, then it became understanding.
"When 당신 say we-" she whispered.
"I mean my family and myself."
I would never forgive myself for this, not even if I lived for a million years, I would never forget leaving my Bella and I realized she might not either.
"Okay I'll come with you."
"You can't Bella. Where we're going...It's not the right place for you.
"Where 당신 are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella."
"Don't be ridiculous, you're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you."
I saw Jasper snarling at Bella in my head and mentally cringed at the thought. Bella so fragile, so warm, so human. I could picture it now one lone deer standing in a clearing with seven hungry, angry lions circling it closing in for the kill.
I also remembered the 일 she almost got squished in between a truck and van. I whole point of this was to keep her 안전한, 안전 but what if I had never come into her life. What if it was her deathbed right then and there. What if she needed me just as much as I needed her.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward, Noting!"
Her cry of pain brought me out of my reverie.
"You're right," I agreed.
"It was exactly what was to be expected."
"You promised, In Phoenix, 당신 promised that 당신 would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you," I corrected.
"No! This is about my soul isn't it?"
Of course this was about her soul. I remembered seeing my Bella in Alice's head cold, hard as stone standing there with hard red eyes. Taking away a future a family it wasn't right. If 당신 truly loved someone wouldn't 당신 want them to be happy, have everything including a soul?
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! 당신 can have my soul. I don't want it without you- it's yours already!"
I looked down at the cold forest floor and tried to make my face look hard and cold to.
I finitely looked up and said the words I had been dreading. For I knew that when I said them she would never forgive me even if one 일 I did come back and pleaded her forgiveness. Never.
"Bella, I don't want 당신 to come with me."
I stared at her face, knowing that what I saw there would cause me the most pain.
She paused an I knew I had broken her.
"You...don't...want me?"
I wanted to shout out at her, it's a lie Bella, honey a total lie never could I live without 당신 but instead I answered.
"No!"
She stared into my eyes trying to look for any glitch in my expression, but there was none to look for, none that she could see anyway.
"Well, that changes things."
I looked away into the trees.
"I'll always 사랑 you... in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human and I'm sorry for that."
"Don't," she whispered.
"Don't do this."
I just stared at her.
"You're no good for me Bella."
It would never be true no matter how many times I said it.
She looked as if she were having a hard time picking the right words to speak.
"If... that's what 당신 want."
I thought I had successfully mastered lying. But for some reason I couldn't open my mouth to speak so I nodded once.
There was a short pause and she appeared as if she were going to fall over.
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much."
I saw the pain and sorrow and the true promise that I knew she would do anything for me and some of my expression slipped through. I composed my face quickly. I didn't want her thinking to much about me. I probably could just go curl up in a corner for the 다음 decade.
"Anything," she promised.
"Don't do anything reckless 또는 stupid, do 당신 understand what I'm saying?" She nodded.
"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you, take care of yourself- for him."
But it wasn't all for Charlies sake if Bella died while I wasn't there to protect her I have only one idea of what I would do.
Die to.
I knew it was a idiotic plan but what other choice did I have?
She nodded and whispered.
"I will."
"And I'll make 당신 a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put 당신 through anything like this again. 당신 can go on with 당신 life without any 더 많이 interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
Her 심장 thumped faster and I gently smiled down at her.
"Don't worry, you're human- your memory is no 더 많이 than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for 당신 kind.
"And your memories?"
"Well- I won't forget. But my kind we're easily distracted."
I gently smiled again.
I forced my foot to step back and there was no greater pain then doing so.
"We won't bother 당신 again," I said.
She looked confused and then I remembered she hadn't known that Alice left.
"Alice isn't coming back," she whispered.
I shook my head while still watching her face.
"No, they're all gone. I stayed behind to tell 당신 goodbye."
"Alice is gone?" she asked in disbelief.
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her that a clean break would be better for you."
I hoped are efforts amounted to something I wouldn't want her to ever have to think about this again.
"Goodbye, Bella."
"Wait!"
She reached for me and I locked my hands around her warm wrists and pinned them to her sides. I pressed my lips lightly to her forehead and she closed her eyes.
"Take care of yourself."
She never reopened her eyes and I left running.
15 분 later
I was in Canada before I even began thinking again so I stopped in a field and gazed at the sky. As I lie on the damp grass. All of a sudden a shooting 별, 스타 shoots through the sky and when it was gone I closed my eyes and saw Bella behind my lids.
I pulled into Charlies spot not wanting to look at the empty house so I spent the few 분 it took for Bella's truck to come billowing around the corner, with my love.
Holding her warm hand, I was so attuned to her that I could even hear her 심장 thump around unevenly at my very touch. I imagined the blood rush to her soft cheek and I even tasted her scent a deep freesia on my tongue.
I stepped out to meet her and saw her wary expression watching me. So I took her book bag and lightly threw it in the small cab.
She looked at me with the strangest expression on her face now like she knew what was to come but also a confused look. I saw 질문 in her eyes but ignored them.
"Come for a walk with me."
My voice was hard as stone with no emotion whatsoever, but what I was about to do was not exactly cause for celebration. I tried to hide my emotions as best as possible so as not to worry her more. But it was difficult and I hoped she didn't see what slipped through.
I pulled her along through the yard and onto the trail when we stopped the house was still in view.
I stared at her trying to memorize her face. It took all my self control not to stretch my hand out and stroke her warm cheek but this was going to be hard enough.
"Okay lets talk," she said.
I took a deep, long breath to prepare myself for what was to come.
"Bella, we're leaving."
She appeared as if she were preparing for a war, a long war. But in the end I would win. But instead of getting a gold medal I get my destiny taken away from me.
"Why now? Another year-
"Bella, it's time, how much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
She stared at me her expression confused, then it became understanding.
"When 당신 say we-" she whispered.
"I mean my family and myself."
I would never forgive myself for this, not even if I lived for a million years, I would never forget leaving my Bella and I realized she might not either.
"Okay I'll come with you."
"You can't Bella. Where we're going...It's not the right place for you.
"Where 당신 are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella."
"Don't be ridiculous, you're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you."
I saw Jasper snarling at Bella in my head and mentally cringed at the thought. Bella so fragile, so warm, so human. I could picture it now one lone deer standing in a clearing with seven hungry, angry lions circling it closing in for the kill.
I also remembered the 일 she almost got squished in between a truck and van. I whole point of this was to keep her 안전한, 안전 but what if I had never come into her life. What if it was her deathbed right then and there. What if she needed me just as much as I needed her.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward, Noting!"
Her cry of pain brought me out of my reverie.
"You're right," I agreed.
"It was exactly what was to be expected."
"You promised, In Phoenix, 당신 promised that 당신 would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you," I corrected.
"No! This is about my soul isn't it?"
Of course this was about her soul. I remembered seeing my Bella in Alice's head cold, hard as stone standing there with hard red eyes. Taking away a future a family it wasn't right. If 당신 truly loved someone wouldn't 당신 want them to be happy, have everything including a soul?
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! 당신 can have my soul. I don't want it without you- it's yours already!"
I looked down at the cold forest floor and tried to make my face look hard and cold to.
I finitely looked up and said the words I had been dreading. For I knew that when I said them she would never forgive me even if one 일 I did come back and pleaded her forgiveness. Never.
"Bella, I don't want 당신 to come with me."
I stared at her face, knowing that what I saw there would cause me the most pain.
She paused an I knew I had broken her.
"You...don't...want me?"
I wanted to shout out at her, it's a lie Bella, honey a total lie never could I live without 당신 but instead I answered.
"No!"
She stared into my eyes trying to look for any glitch in my expression, but there was none to look for, none that she could see anyway.
"Well, that changes things."
I looked away into the trees.
"I'll always 사랑 you... in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human and I'm sorry for that."
"Don't," she whispered.
"Don't do this."
I just stared at her.
"You're no good for me Bella."
It would never be true no matter how many times I said it.
She looked as if she were having a hard time picking the right words to speak.
"If... that's what 당신 want."
I thought I had successfully mastered lying. But for some reason I couldn't open my mouth to speak so I nodded once.
There was a short pause and she appeared as if she were going to fall over.
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much."
I saw the pain and sorrow and the true promise that I knew she would do anything for me and some of my expression slipped through. I composed my face quickly. I didn't want her thinking to much about me. I probably could just go curl up in a corner for the 다음 decade.
"Anything," she promised.
"Don't do anything reckless 또는 stupid, do 당신 understand what I'm saying?" She nodded.
"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you, take care of yourself- for him."
But it wasn't all for Charlies sake if Bella died while I wasn't there to protect her I have only one idea of what I would do.
Die to.
I knew it was a idiotic plan but what other choice did I have?
She nodded and whispered.
"I will."
"And I'll make 당신 a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put 당신 through anything like this again. 당신 can go on with 당신 life without any 더 많이 interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
Her 심장 thumped faster and I gently smiled down at her.
"Don't worry, you're human- your memory is no 더 많이 than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for 당신 kind.
"And your memories?"
"Well- I won't forget. But my kind we're easily distracted."
I gently smiled again.
I forced my foot to step back and there was no greater pain then doing so.
"We won't bother 당신 again," I said.
She looked confused and then I remembered she hadn't known that Alice left.
"Alice isn't coming back," she whispered.
I shook my head while still watching her face.
"No, they're all gone. I stayed behind to tell 당신 goodbye."
"Alice is gone?" she asked in disbelief.
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her that a clean break would be better for you."
I hoped are efforts amounted to something I wouldn't want her to ever have to think about this again.
"Goodbye, Bella."
"Wait!"
She reached for me and I locked my hands around her warm wrists and pinned them to her sides. I pressed my lips lightly to her forehead and she closed her eyes.
"Take care of yourself."
She never reopened her eyes and I left running.
15 분 later
I was in Canada before I even began thinking again so I stopped in a field and gazed at the sky. As I lie on the damp grass. All of a sudden a shooting 별, 스타 shoots through the sky and when it was gone I closed my eyes and saw Bella behind my lids.
10. Sing “Discovery Channel” 의해 the Bloodhound Gang in your head whenever he is near.
9. Hotwire his Volvo and take it on a joyride.
8. Tell him the relationship he is having with Bella is practically paedophilia and he could be sent to jail for it.
7. Ask how Tanya is.
6. End every argument with “Bite me, Edward.”
5. Call him Romeo both behind his back and to his face.
4. Whenever he complains 또는 argues, reply with “What are 당신 gonna do Edward? Go to Italy?”
3. Tell him his hair isn’t bronze, it’s ginger, and he should stop denying himself – he’s a ranga.
2. Whenever he leaves a room 또는 says goodbye, get down on your knees and beg him not to go, not again.
And the Number One way to annoy Edward Cullen?
1. Take his silver cell phone and change the ringtone to “Like a Virgin” 의해 Madonna.
Source: link
9. Hotwire his Volvo and take it on a joyride.
8. Tell him the relationship he is having with Bella is practically paedophilia and he could be sent to jail for it.
7. Ask how Tanya is.
6. End every argument with “Bite me, Edward.”
5. Call him Romeo both behind his back and to his face.
4. Whenever he complains 또는 argues, reply with “What are 당신 gonna do Edward? Go to Italy?”
3. Tell him his hair isn’t bronze, it’s ginger, and he should stop denying himself – he’s a ranga.
2. Whenever he leaves a room 또는 says goodbye, get down on your knees and beg him not to go, not again.
And the Number One way to annoy Edward Cullen?
1. Take his silver cell phone and change the ringtone to “Like a Virgin” 의해 Madonna.
Source: link
10. Take her credit cards and shopping vouchers, hold them above your head and tell her to “jump for it”.
9. Tell her if she was just a few centimetres shorter she could legally be a midget.
8. Wear the trashiest possible clothing whenever 당신 can.
7. Tie her up in a straightjacket. When she protests, tell her she needs to go back to the loony bin.
6. When 당신 go into the sun with her, fall into a twitching heap on the ground and moan “I’m melting.”
5. Pelt her with cloves of garlic.
4. When she gets a vision, ask if her “spidey senses” are tingling.
3. Trip her up and ask if she saw it coming.
2. Ask her what 당신 will be doing in five 분 every ten minutes.
And the Number One way to annoy Alice Cullen?
1. 이메일 her dozens of application forms for the position of speaker on psychic hotlines.
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9. Tell her if she was just a few centimetres shorter she could legally be a midget.
8. Wear the trashiest possible clothing whenever 당신 can.
7. Tie her up in a straightjacket. When she protests, tell her she needs to go back to the loony bin.
6. When 당신 go into the sun with her, fall into a twitching heap on the ground and moan “I’m melting.”
5. Pelt her with cloves of garlic.
4. When she gets a vision, ask if her “spidey senses” are tingling.
3. Trip her up and ask if she saw it coming.
2. Ask her what 당신 will be doing in five 분 every ten minutes.
And the Number One way to annoy Alice Cullen?
1. 이메일 her dozens of application forms for the position of speaker on psychic hotlines.
Source: link
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I feeling really bored right now, so i guess i thought about all of 당신 guys/girls :D
I want to congratulate 당신 all for making such awesome and great fanfiction. So it must be said, so everyone can read about you're fanfiction :-)
I read most of the fanfiction (allot actually) myself and i just adore them i sometimes print them out and start 읽기 them like a book, it's really amazing that people are still so broad-minded :o)
*****To all fanfiction writers out there continue the great job and don't ever stop :D LOL and to the people who want to start a fanfiction on there own, good luck and enjoy what 당신 write :D*****