I took a deep breath and opened the door as softly as possible and tiptoed down the stairs. Of course, not calling attention to myself is something I could not get away with.
Ever since…I winced…Ever since I came back from the cliffs, my family has kept tabs on every breath I took. Dad held vigil right outside my door for…I don’t know how many days, how many nights exactly. I heard him moan in frustration as the pain knifed my 심장 into gazillion pieces mercilessly. I heard his teeth gnashing as I choked Jacob’s name over and over again.
All my family gave their fair share in coaxing me out of my room – Daddy threatened, pleaded, and then threatened again. Mom pleaded and sobbed - tearlessly for sure, Uncle Emmett joked that I only have to ask him and he’ll gladly rip Jake apart, Uncle Jasper tried to make me calm. Tried but did not succeed. It felt like I had developed a shield of my own that repelled my Uncle’s subtle gift. My body refused to follow his bidding. I felt no calm, no peace, just the feeling of emptiness. My grandparents and my aunts tried to both plead and sweet talk – like I was a child.
I am no longer a child. A child could not fathom this kind of crippling agony. I am no longer a child because I understood it…too well.
After…I wracked my brain…I sighed…After seven days, I got up from my bed.
“Thank heavens! Finally!” Aunt Alice exclaimed. “I feel so helpless not knowing when she’ll snap out of her depression. I almost went crazy with worry!”
“Ssshh, Alice! She could hear you.” Aunt Rose admonished.
“We better wait for her in the living room.” I could hear relief color my Dad’s voice.
“I’ll ask Esme to prepare breakfast for you, Sweetie!” Aunt Alice called out.
I heard several groans. I bit my lower lip guiltily. It’s not fair to have my family tiptoe around on eggshells just because of me. It’s not fair to make them suffer. It’s not fair to cause my parents pain and worry.
“This insanity is enough, Renesmee Cullen! Get a grip on yourself.” I said aloud.
I took a deep shaky breath and marched towards my vanity table, intending to fix myself up before facing my family. I knew I was beyond recognition.
My eyes immediately brimmed with tears as I caught sight of my 가장 좋아하는 photograph. I fought to steady my trembling hand as I reached for it. I took one long look. I etched his face in my memory. His hair, his brows, his eyes, his nose, his mouth. I ingrained his face in my brain then I carefully hid his picture away, together with my heart. I stashed his pictures, letters, gifts, everything in the closet I seldom opened - it contained clothes that Aunt Alice spent a fortune on - clothes I never wore because they were 더 많이 suitably sashayed down a modeling ramp than the always soaked streets of Forks.
I stared at my wrist. The promise bracelet still around it. I almost expected it to snap, untie, loosen together with his promise.
Agony blazed inside me.
“Enough.Enough.” I choked.
I wouldn't take this stupid bracelet off. it would always serve as a reminder - never again will I feel what I felt on the the cliff, on different occasions - extreme happiness and extreme pain - for only he could make me feel those.
I closed my eyes, waited for my breath to steady and my 심장 to stop constricting. After a couple of seconds, I felt…numb.
Good. Numbness is okay. Nothing, I can’t handle. I thought.
I saw my reflection in the mirror for the first time after…I panicked feeling the numbness slipping away. I shook my head. I won’t allow myself to think of anything that would remind me of….my 심장 beat furiously against my chest, coaxing my mind to think of his name.
“Jacob…” I whispered. I gritted my teeth as a spasm of pain racked my whole body. This time I refused the urge to curl into a ball.
“You are a Cullen. Edward and Bella’s daughter. Have pride in yourself.” I told the face in the mirror.
It felt like two sides were warring inside me. One side wanted me to sob and slid down on the floor right now. The other side wanted me to square my shoulders and hold my chin up and pretend….
Pretend it doesn’t hurt 당신 badly. A voice inside my head said.
I gritted my teeth. I’ve been too weak long enough – pampered too much, sheltered too much.
This is the only thing they could not protect me from….
Half human, half vampire. Am I 더 많이 human than vampire? I felt too human now. I flinched.
I always felt like an eggshell – fragile, brittle, and breakable. This time only, I felt like a cracked, dried up eggshell – the insides (The egg white and the yolk) long gone.
“You are going to put this behind you, Renesmee, even if it kills you.” I said to my reflection in the mirror. I saw her smile grimly, her eyes still bloodshot but determined. – wildly determined.
I quickly brush my hair and loosely tied it into a ponytail. I hastily changed into faded denim pants and a black tank top.
“This is crazy.” I muttered to myself as I tiptoed down the stairs. I almost ran back to my room. I couldn’t do this. Shame and guilt wash over my entire body. How could I face my family after what I’ve put them through?
“Nessie.” My father called. I took a deep breath and went to find my family all seated in the dining room, their faces flooding with relief. They are now smiling at me, beaming.
My Dad went over to me and hugged me. “Welcome back, Angel.” He whispered.
“Ugh, Dad! Too tight.” He released me chuckling.
“Do 당신 want to eat, sweetie?” My mom asked.
I smiled sheepishly. Then every jaw in the room dropped as I said, “I think I’ll go hunting.”
Ever since…I winced…Ever since I came back from the cliffs, my family has kept tabs on every breath I took. Dad held vigil right outside my door for…I don’t know how many days, how many nights exactly. I heard him moan in frustration as the pain knifed my 심장 into gazillion pieces mercilessly. I heard his teeth gnashing as I choked Jacob’s name over and over again.
All my family gave their fair share in coaxing me out of my room – Daddy threatened, pleaded, and then threatened again. Mom pleaded and sobbed - tearlessly for sure, Uncle Emmett joked that I only have to ask him and he’ll gladly rip Jake apart, Uncle Jasper tried to make me calm. Tried but did not succeed. It felt like I had developed a shield of my own that repelled my Uncle’s subtle gift. My body refused to follow his bidding. I felt no calm, no peace, just the feeling of emptiness. My grandparents and my aunts tried to both plead and sweet talk – like I was a child.
I am no longer a child. A child could not fathom this kind of crippling agony. I am no longer a child because I understood it…too well.
After…I wracked my brain…I sighed…After seven days, I got up from my bed.
“Thank heavens! Finally!” Aunt Alice exclaimed. “I feel so helpless not knowing when she’ll snap out of her depression. I almost went crazy with worry!”
“Ssshh, Alice! She could hear you.” Aunt Rose admonished.
“We better wait for her in the living room.” I could hear relief color my Dad’s voice.
“I’ll ask Esme to prepare breakfast for you, Sweetie!” Aunt Alice called out.
I heard several groans. I bit my lower lip guiltily. It’s not fair to have my family tiptoe around on eggshells just because of me. It’s not fair to make them suffer. It’s not fair to cause my parents pain and worry.
“This insanity is enough, Renesmee Cullen! Get a grip on yourself.” I said aloud.
I took a deep shaky breath and marched towards my vanity table, intending to fix myself up before facing my family. I knew I was beyond recognition.
My eyes immediately brimmed with tears as I caught sight of my 가장 좋아하는 photograph. I fought to steady my trembling hand as I reached for it. I took one long look. I etched his face in my memory. His hair, his brows, his eyes, his nose, his mouth. I ingrained his face in my brain then I carefully hid his picture away, together with my heart. I stashed his pictures, letters, gifts, everything in the closet I seldom opened - it contained clothes that Aunt Alice spent a fortune on - clothes I never wore because they were 더 많이 suitably sashayed down a modeling ramp than the always soaked streets of Forks.
I stared at my wrist. The promise bracelet still around it. I almost expected it to snap, untie, loosen together with his promise.
Agony blazed inside me.
“Enough.Enough.” I choked.
I wouldn't take this stupid bracelet off. it would always serve as a reminder - never again will I feel what I felt on the the cliff, on different occasions - extreme happiness and extreme pain - for only he could make me feel those.
I closed my eyes, waited for my breath to steady and my 심장 to stop constricting. After a couple of seconds, I felt…numb.
Good. Numbness is okay. Nothing, I can’t handle. I thought.
I saw my reflection in the mirror for the first time after…I panicked feeling the numbness slipping away. I shook my head. I won’t allow myself to think of anything that would remind me of….my 심장 beat furiously against my chest, coaxing my mind to think of his name.
“Jacob…” I whispered. I gritted my teeth as a spasm of pain racked my whole body. This time I refused the urge to curl into a ball.
“You are a Cullen. Edward and Bella’s daughter. Have pride in yourself.” I told the face in the mirror.
It felt like two sides were warring inside me. One side wanted me to sob and slid down on the floor right now. The other side wanted me to square my shoulders and hold my chin up and pretend….
Pretend it doesn’t hurt 당신 badly. A voice inside my head said.
I gritted my teeth. I’ve been too weak long enough – pampered too much, sheltered too much.
This is the only thing they could not protect me from….
Half human, half vampire. Am I 더 많이 human than vampire? I felt too human now. I flinched.
I always felt like an eggshell – fragile, brittle, and breakable. This time only, I felt like a cracked, dried up eggshell – the insides (The egg white and the yolk) long gone.
“You are going to put this behind you, Renesmee, even if it kills you.” I said to my reflection in the mirror. I saw her smile grimly, her eyes still bloodshot but determined. – wildly determined.
I quickly brush my hair and loosely tied it into a ponytail. I hastily changed into faded denim pants and a black tank top.
“This is crazy.” I muttered to myself as I tiptoed down the stairs. I almost ran back to my room. I couldn’t do this. Shame and guilt wash over my entire body. How could I face my family after what I’ve put them through?
“Nessie.” My father called. I took a deep breath and went to find my family all seated in the dining room, their faces flooding with relief. They are now smiling at me, beaming.
My Dad went over to me and hugged me. “Welcome back, Angel.” He whispered.
“Ugh, Dad! Too tight.” He released me chuckling.
“Do 당신 want to eat, sweetie?” My mom asked.
I smiled sheepishly. Then every jaw in the room dropped as I said, “I think I’ll go hunting.”
i was in the car fast alseep. when Phil and Renee were in the front. i was going to meet my sister Bella and her husband Edward also Renessmen. i woke up "hey Karina were almost there" said Phil. I rolled my eyes. i saw a white house. i saw Bella and Edward there i got out of the car and ran to them "BELLA EDWARD!!!" i scream. i ran to them and gave them a hug. i saw a girl with brown hair "renessmen." i said "yes" she said i gave her a hug. "wow you're so grown up are 당신 like 13 또는 what?" "i'm 17" she said "come one the rest are dying to see you" she said."hi hi" i said "AHHH KARINA" yelled Alice "hi" i gave them a hug
in the mood to be 랜덤 again. *sighs*
I wrote a 기사 Last week on how Twilight found me, saying that the Cover did in fact haunt me.
but since i finally cave in and read. i realize that the Haunting is not over.
I'm Obsessed it's true, but this is turning scaryyyyy
I'm a 디즈니 팬 okay, majorly and well..i was watching "101 Dalma.." 당신 know, anyways, i was watching it to get my mind off of Twilight for once...
and something just jumped up in my face i thought i would share.
one of the Charaters is named Jasper.
the "Call" that the 개 do at night to send a message, is called
TWILIGHT Bark.
yeah...am i going insane? i think so..only i put in "21" with Jim surgess okay..and at the end of the movie he did something completely crazy he said a line from the Book.
"so, do i Dazzle you?"
I decided to turn off the TV and go to bed..sad thing is, the only thing i dream about is Edward.
should i be scared? O_______o
I wrote a 기사 Last week on how Twilight found me, saying that the Cover did in fact haunt me.
but since i finally cave in and read. i realize that the Haunting is not over.
I'm Obsessed it's true, but this is turning scaryyyyy
I'm a 디즈니 팬 okay, majorly and well..i was watching "101 Dalma.." 당신 know, anyways, i was watching it to get my mind off of Twilight for once...
and something just jumped up in my face i thought i would share.
one of the Charaters is named Jasper.
the "Call" that the 개 do at night to send a message, is called
TWILIGHT Bark.
yeah...am i going insane? i think so..only i put in "21" with Jim surgess okay..and at the end of the movie he did something completely crazy he said a line from the Book.
"so, do i Dazzle you?"
I decided to turn off the TV and go to bed..sad thing is, the only thing i dream about is Edward.
should i be scared? O_______o
Okay so I'm not one of those 팬 who wants the film to be exactly like the book-no offence to anyone- because I know thats just not going to happen.
But I was watching the new Twilight trailer and saw this:
Don't 당신 think it's a little weird that all three cars are there, I thought the Cullens didn't want to bring any attention to themselves.Now I know all 영화 aren't like the 책 they're based on, Harry Potter is a great example of that. But I thought the Cullens wanting to keep themselves inconspicuous was an obvious fact that ran through the book.
I know other people have noticed changes in the movie too- like Bella having her 재킷, 자 켓 at the restaurant, and that they've changed the name of the restaurant.
I just wanted to know what other people felt about this. Either way I'm still going to see the movie, I can't wait. But does anyone think these changes will affect the experience?
But I was watching the new Twilight trailer and saw this:
Don't 당신 think it's a little weird that all three cars are there, I thought the Cullens didn't want to bring any attention to themselves.Now I know all 영화 aren't like the 책 they're based on, Harry Potter is a great example of that. But I thought the Cullens wanting to keep themselves inconspicuous was an obvious fact that ran through the book.
I know other people have noticed changes in the movie too- like Bella having her 재킷, 자 켓 at the restaurant, and that they've changed the name of the restaurant.
I just wanted to know what other people felt about this. Either way I'm still going to see the movie, I can't wait. But does anyone think these changes will affect the experience?
So Like now EVERYONE in my school is 읽기 twilight when I read it like before they even started to film the movie. So what what's my point? Well, my point is that before before Breaking Dawn came out, when some was 읽기 the 책 it was like 당신 would talk to them and 당신 would talk like you've been 프렌즈 forever when you've just meet the person. Now I see someone 읽기 twilight and I eathier get tried of seeing them 또는 get sick. Ok maybe not get sick but still 당신 can't talk to the person like 당신 used to talk to them, all enthusiastic and excited! And for me most of the time the real exciting stuff is in the movie and the people who read the 책 nowa days don't know alot stuff about the movie. I believe that the people on the fansites are the REAL CRAZY fans, because if 당신 ask anybody else what Spunk Randsom means, they wouldn't know. Anyway i just feel like it's so not exciting anymore....