There's something wrong with me....

Yeah. Not going to lie, I've had that image once 또는 twice. But when I think of my family actually dead, it would be awful.

Oh that's very wrong. Sounds like 당신 have a problem, what 당신 could do is go to an therapist and talk about it with her/him. That's all I can say, hope your problem goes away :)

no its just scystophrenia

*stops strangling* Huh? What was that?...*Shrugs and continues*

It sorta does sound like something's up. Have 당신 tried talking to your family about it? Maybe they can help 당신 find a solution. I hope the situation gets better!