Fanpop. I know that does not sound very romantic 또는 anything, especially since I did not do internet relation things of ANY kind, & was totally against. He was one of the first people to become a 팬 and a friend here on fanpop, to post to me and talk and we actually ended up becoming friends, then best friends. My 프렌즈 became 프렌즈 then we all became tight. XD That was cool.
I had a casual relationship with another guy at the time, on a romantic level, and no one knew, but I had not dated in so long that I was not wanting anything 또는 needing much to be content. He told me he had a crush on me & that he liked me 더 많이 than a friend 또는 더 많이 than he had anyone, that I understood him, and could talk to me like no other female, but I had someone and thought I was happy at the time, and he had his gfs and so life went on. My relationship became 더 많이 serious, his went the other way, and for a while I was caught between a best-friend and boyfriend. Both disliked the other and were both protective & rivals. Things got worse and heated at times. My 프렌즈 told me I was going to have to choose. That tore me up. Everyone said I could not have both! I refused to listen until I reluctantly gave in after several pretty heated episodes between my bf & bestie. As soon as I did, even before I realized I had chosen the wrong one, my 심장 broke. My best friend accepted my decision but I almost instantly knew that it was wrong, ridiculous and I really couldn't choose, regardless of outcome. From that time on, we made a pact. We never ever wanted to lose each other. I ended up with HIM. My bf before did not prove to have the same kind of dedication 또는 integrity. My best-friend was loyal- very true to our friendship and so I decided to give him a chance- one little date. That never worked in the past for me, and I'd given up on that. I've had great 프렌즈 not bad looking either, but no chemistry. I did not think we would have ANY chemistry. For several reasons I did not think things would work and I was completely pessimistic. I under estimated him and I had discarded without giving it a chance. I fought against it in my mind, too, even after, wanting to keep my distance. But the chemistry was HUGE and instant and seemed out of nowhere to me, maybe not to him, but to me, I was shocked and never so wrong in my life! O.O We still have that chemistry: seven months, six officially Jan 12th.
We met on this website called MyLOL. I had sent him a friend request. And he had accepted it almost immediately. What had caught my attention first was how cool his picture was. Then he said he is an aspiring musician. I messaged to him after he had accepted, saying that he looks really cute. He said the sweetest thing. x
"That makes two of us." x
Eventually we started talking on Kik, and found out that we have this instant strong connection. It was so strong that I ended up having a crush on him already. He asked where I would rather be right now. 20 questions, ya know. I said wherever my crush is. And he kept begging me to tell him who he is. He finally got the hint, asking if it was him. I finally admitted it. Because of our connection we ended up dating the 다음 day. Dating on Skype actually. x
But now what's killing me is that he is in the hospital with broken ribs. Getting surgery on his back. And he said if they give him too much gas he might die because of his heart. And it's killing me inside because he's the one who saved my life. So who's going to save me 다음 time when I try to commit suicide? It won't be him if he dies. So I'll probably be dead if he passes too. I can't live without him, because of our connection and the way he saved my life. I better stop typing before I burst out into tears. x