I went downstairs and Grabbed a bottle of 주스 out the fridge and went to go sit 다음 to my dad on the couch. He looked at me. "You seem happier" He told me, it sounded 더 많이 like an accusation. "Me and Seth are back together." I said a smile spreading across my face. My dad looked at me. " Seth is the one who was getting pulled down the hall when 당신 were at the hospital?" He asked me. I shook my head yes." I don't like him" My dad declared. "Daddy, 당신 don't even know him, how can 당신 not like him?" I asked. "Well first of all, he said he loved you, he hurt you, I haven't even meet him. I looked...
Approaching the meadow was weird I mean we were about to try and get my daughter back os it was like I don’t know it’s really hard to explain it right now. Bella has been playing with her hair all the way here and now stood here she is crying tearless tears. She looked so helpless without our baby and I remembered back to the time she use to look like that when I first got her back when she didn’t have any life in them eyes. It pained me so.
It hit me a 분 later their thoughts about whom and which one they are after I scanned across them until I reached nessies. I...
I'm clueless. all I remember was a 칼, 나이프 in my hand and blood running down my wrist.Then it all went black,like I just vanished from earth and reality;there was no pain and no seth to break my heart. I've escaped all the choices and the useless lies I've been told time and time again.
I open my eyes to the glaring sun peering through the window.I squint at the sun. I turn my head. I'm staring at just the wrong person i wanted to see. I was backnto all the real world. The one with hatered and discust. There was Seth with his hopeful eyes staring back at me. Seth lets out a sigh of relief. He...
Seth was still sleep when I got up. I wrote him a note to tell him I would be back in a while , if he woke up while I was gone. I hopped in my car and drove down the familiar road and parked on the side walk when I got there. I walked threw the rows until I arrived at my mother's grave. I sat down and touched the headstone. "Hi Mom."I said to the grave."I miss 당신 so much." I felt the tears streaming down my face."I like La Push,it has a beach.I met a guy. His name is Seth and he's perfect..I 사랑 him." I sat there in silence for a couple of minutes."I'm sorry ,mom..." was all I could manage...
We spent two 더 많이 days unpacking and getting settled in our new home, and then we flew down to Jacksonville to spend a week in the sun. Renée was thrilled to have us there, and though the house was definitely crowded, she refused to let us sleep at a hotel.
Both Renée and Phil had to work while we were there, so Edward, Lily and I would spend the 일 의해 the pool in the back yard, at the beach, 또는 strolling around the streets of Jacksonville. In the evenings, we would barbecue on the patio 또는 order take-out. It was a wonderful – and necessary – vacation.
Charlie was about as understanding as Edward had feared. I hadn't exactly expected anything else, but a part of me had still hoped – in vain – that maybe, just maybe, he would understand and be happy for us.
"I'll help 당신 in the kitchen, dad." I said pointedly when we had finished eating. The way he was glaring at Edward – like he was trying to figure out the best way to get rid of the body – was really starting to get on my nerves; and I wasn't even the one subjected to it. The fact that Lily hadn't noticed anything was practically a miracle. I had to do something before she caught...
I was at Bella's place, playing 캔디 Land with her and Lily, when Carlisle called to tell me that he had bought the old house. It had only been a week since our trip to Forks.
"What?" I asked in astonishment.
"Your mother and I have been talking about getting a place close to Seattle anyway, so we can visit all of 당신 easier." He explained. "When 당신 told me about the house being for sale, it felt like a sign."
"That's great, dad." I had no doubt that he and Esme would be spending a lot of time in Forks. Emmett had even mentioned that he and Rosalie had talked about moving back to the area, and...
My nerves started 연기 up during the week that followed. Though Doctor Jamieson had told me that most first time mothers went over the due date, I still analyzed every feeling. I had experienced some Braxton Hicks contractions over the past 월 또는 so, but Doctor Jamieson had assured me that I would know when the real thing started.
May eleventh came – and went – and still no baby.
"The doctor did say to expect this." Charlie pointed out that Friday, three days after my due date.
"I know." I grumbled, rubbing my back. "I was just hoping that I had passed on my punctuality."
When I got home, Charlie, Renée and Phil were just sitting down to have dinner, and I joined them.
"Hey dad, I wanted to talk to 당신 about something." I said as I put some 샐러드 on my plate. Charlie insisted that I have vegetables with every meal. He was the one who told me what I could and couldn't eat, and also made sure I followed the "rules". Which was why I always went to Angela's for ice cream. Nowhere had I found anything to indicate that I shouldn't eat ice cream – I'd even asked Doctor Jamieson, who had said that it was fine – but Charlie insisted that too much sugar wasn't good....
Finally, it was December nineteenth, and I was free from the stares and whispers for two glorious weeks. Renée and Phil flew up the 일 before 크리스마스 Eve; I was looking 앞으로 to all of us spending the holidays together for the first time.
"Look at you!" Renée exclaimed as Charlie and I met them at the airport in Port Angeles. She pulled me into a bone breaking hug. "You've really got that pregnancy glow going. Hi Charlie." I heard Charlie mumble a greeting in return behind me.
"I know." I hugged her back tightly.
Angela had told me the same thing a couple of weeks earlier, but I had insisted...
"Come on in." Angela opened the door before I had finished knocking, and ushered me inside the house quickly. "Let me see."
I gave her the picture from the ultrasound, and she studied it in silence for a moment, her eyes wide in astonishment.
"Wow. It actually looks like a baby!" She exclaimed, giving the 사진 back to me.
"I know, it caught me completely 의해 surprise. I thought it would look like a 땅콩 또는 something." I carefully placed the picture between two pages of a book in my bag, not wanting to ruin it. Charlie had another copy, and we'd gotten one to send to Renée...
I woke up the 다음 morning feeling thoroughly rested for the first time in several weeks. I was surprised that the nightmares had left me alone, considering my state of mind when I had gone to bed. I had expected my subconscious to deal with my inner turmoil while I slept, but my dreams had been unusually peaceful and non-meaningful. Normal. Just flashes of memories, colors, places, that held no threat.
I walked into the 부엌, 주방 to find that Charlie had made breakfast. Granted, it was only a ham sandwich, a bowl of cereal and a glass of 주황색, 오렌지 juice, but he had tried. I felt tears...
I decided that I'd might as well head over to Newton's that afternoon after school. The store was empty except for a couple who was looking at tents at the back, and Mrs. Newton welcomed me with a smile and a concerned hug.
"Hello, dear. I do hope you're feeling better."
I didn't know exactly what Charlie had told her when I hadn't come in to work, but she didn't seem to need an explanation, and I was grateful for that.
"Mike said that I should stop 의해 to work out a schedule. And thank 당신 so much for letting me stay on, it's really nice of you."
"Of course, dear. We all have our rough spots, don't...
"Leaving? What do 당신 mean you're leaving?" I could hardly get the words out, my insides felt like ice.
"I mean that we're moving away from Forks. Carlisle has gotten a job offer that he couldn't refuse." He avoided my eyes as he spoke, looking at the floor, the walls, out the window. Anywhere but at me.
I tried to 덮개, 랩 my mind around what he was saying, but couldn't get the words to make any sense. He didn't continue as I unsuccessfully tried to grasp the situation.
"When?" I finally asked.
That's when I got mad.
"What? What the hell Edward?" And then it hit me. "You've known...
After our shopping trip to Port Angeles, Angela and I had set up a weekly "date" so as not to fall out of touch during the summer. Every Thursday, we'd go to Port Angeles to see a movie, 또는 we'd hang out at Angela's 또는 my place and order 피자 또는 do something else. One weekend, we even went to Seattle with Edward, Alice and Jasper to visit Rosalie and Emmett and look at their new apartment.
"Do 당신 want to see a movie, 또는 head over to Bella Rosa and just hang?" Angela asked one 일 as we were walking down East First Street.
"Is there anything good playing that we haven't already seen?" I wondered....
Edward picked me up at eight the following morning, since we had a bit of a walk ahead of us.
"Got comfy shoes on?" He asked as I got into the car.
"My 가장 좋아하는 sneakers." I replied.
"Good." He pulled out of the driveway and headed north on the one-oh-one, CCR's Have 당신 ever seen the rain on the stereo. After a while, we turned onto the one-ten, and drove until it turned into a small, dirt road. He stopped, and I could see a hiking trail disappear into the woods ahead of us.
We got out of the car, and he pulled two backpacks from the trunk, handing one of them to me.
The following two weeks passed almost in a blur. Time didn't seem to behave the way it usually did when I was with Edward. Sometimes it would jump ahead – big chunks of time seemed to be just disappearing – and sometimes it would pass 의해 almost impossibly slowly.
He picked me up in the morning and walked me to English before heading off for his own classes. Then he'd usually meet me after Math and we'd go to the cafeteria together – Angela and I had become a regular fixture at the Cullen/Hale table. After lunch, we'd head to Biology where we would spend the entire 시간 not...