*by Stephenie Meyer*
TWILIGHT - chapter 19 - GOODBYES
I was staring back at Alice's headlights when the truck shuddered and a dark shadow sprung up outside the window.
16 My bloodcurdling scream lasted a fraction of a 초 before Edward's hand clamped down on my mouth.
"It's Emmett!"
He released my mouth, and wound his arm around my waist.
"It's okay, Bella," he promised. "You're going to be safe."
We raced through the quiet town toward the north highway.
"I didn't realize 당신 were still so bored with small-town life," he said conversationally, and I knew he was trying to distract me. "It seemed like 당신 were adjusting fairly well - especially recently. Maybe I was just fattering myself that I was making life 더 많이 interesting for you."
"I wasn't being nice," I confessed, ignoring his attempt at diversion, looking down at my knees. "That was the same thing my mom said when she left him. 당신 could say I was hitting below the belt."
"Don't worry. He'll forgive you." He smiled a little, though it didn't touch his eyes.
I stared at him desperately, and he saw the naked panic in my eyes.
"Bella, it's going to be all right."
"But it won't be all right when I'm not with you," I whispered.
"We'll be together again in a few a days," he said, tightening his arm around me. "Don't forget that this was your idea."
"It was the best idea - of course it was mine."
His answering smile was bleak and disappeared immediately.
"Why did this happen?" I asked, my voice catching. "Why me?"
He stared blackly at the road ahead. "It was my fault - I was a fool to expose 당신 like that." The rage in his voice was directed internally.
"That's not what I meant," I insisted. "I was there, big deal. It didn't bother the other two. Why did this James decide to kill me? There're are people all over the place, why me?"
He hesitated, thinking before he answered.
"I got a good look at his mind tonight," he began in a low voice. "I'm not sure if there's anything I could have done to avoid this, once he saw you. It is partially your fault." His voice was wry. "If 당신 didn't smell so appallingly luscious, he might not have bothered. But when I defended you... well, that made it a lot worse. He's not used to being thwarted, no matter how insignificant the object. He thinks of himself as a hunter and nothing else. His existence is consumed with tracking, and a challenge is all he asks of life. Suddenly we've presented him with a beautiful challenge - a large clan of strong fighters all bent of protecting the one vulnerable element. 당신 wouldn't believe how euphoric he is now. It's his 가장 좋아하는 game, and we've just made it his most exciting game ever." His tone was full of disgust.
He paused a moment.
"But if I had stood by, he would have killed 당신 right then," he said with hopeless frustration.
"I thought... I didn't smell the same to the others... as I do to you," I said hesitantly.
"You don't. But that doesn't mean that 당신 aren't still a temptation to every one of them. If 당신 had appealed to the tracker - 또는 any of them - the same way 당신 appeal to me, it would have been a fight right there."
I shuddered.
"I don't think I have any choice but to kill him now," he muttered. "Carlisle won't like it."
I could hear the tires 십자가, 크로스 the bridge, though I couldn't see the river in the dark. I knew we were getting close. I had to ask him now.
"How can 당신 kill a vampire?"
He glanced at me with unreadable eyes and his voice was suddenly harsh. "The only way to be sure is to tear him to shreds, and then burn the pieces."
"And the other two will fight with him?"
"The woman will. I'm not sure about Laurent. They don't have a very strong bond - he's only with them for convenience. He was embarrassed 의해 James in the meadow...."
"But James and the woman - they'll try to kill you?" I asked, my voice raw.
"Bella, don't 당신 dare waste time worrying about me. Your only concern is keeping yourself 안전한, 안전 and - please, please - trying not to be reckless."
"Is he still following?"
"Yes. He won't attack the house, though. Not tonight."
He turned off onto the invisible drive, with Alice following behind.
We drove right up to the house. The lights inside were bright, but they did little to alleviate the blackness of the encroaching forest. Emmett had my door open before the truck was stopped; he pulled me out of the seat, tucked me like a football into his vast chest, and ran me through the door.
We burst into the large white room, Edward and Alice at our sides. All of them were there; they were already on their feet at the sound of our approach. Laurent stood in their midst. I could hear low growls rumble deep in Emmett's throat as he set me down 다음 to Edward.
"He's tracking us," Edward announced, glaring balefully at Laurent.
Laurent's face was unhappy. "I was afraid of that."
Alice danced to Jasper's side and whispered in his ear; her lips quivered with the speed of her silent speech. They flew up the stairs together. Rosalie watched them, and then moved quickly to Emmett's side. Her beautiful eyes were intense and - when they flickered unwillingly to my face - furious.
"What will he do?" Carlisle asked Laurent in chilling tones.
"I'm sorry," he answered. "I was afraid, when your boy there defended her, that it would set him off."
"Can 당신 stop him?"
Laurent shook his head. "Nothing stops James when he gets started."
"We'll stop him," Emmett promised. There was no doubt what he meant.
"You can't bring him down. I've never seen anything like him in my three hundred years. He's absolutely lethal. That's why I joined his coven."
His coven, I thought, of course. The show of leadership in the clearing was merely that, a show.
Laurent was shaking his head. He glanced at me, perplexed, and back to Carlisle. "Are 당신 sure it's worth it?"
Edward's enraged roar filled the room; Laurent cringed back.
Carlisle looked gravely at Laurent. "I'm afraid you're going to have to make a choice."
Laurent understood. He deliberated for a moment. His eyes took in every face, and finally swept the bright room.
"I'm intrigued 의해 the life you've created here. But I won't get in the middle of this. I 곰 none of 당신 any enmity, but I won't go up against James. I think I will head north - to that clan in Denali." He hesitated. "Don't underestimate James. He's got a brilliant mind and unparalleled senses. He's every bit as comfortable in the human world as 당신 seem to be, and he won't come at 당신 head on.... I'm sorry for what's been unleashed here. Truly sorry." He bowed his head, but I saw him flicker another puzzled look at me.
"Go in peace," was Carlisle's formal answer.
TWILIGHT - chapter 19 - GOODBYES
I was staring back at Alice's headlights when the truck shuddered and a dark shadow sprung up outside the window.
16 My bloodcurdling scream lasted a fraction of a 초 before Edward's hand clamped down on my mouth.
"It's Emmett!"
He released my mouth, and wound his arm around my waist.
"It's okay, Bella," he promised. "You're going to be safe."
We raced through the quiet town toward the north highway.
"I didn't realize 당신 were still so bored with small-town life," he said conversationally, and I knew he was trying to distract me. "It seemed like 당신 were adjusting fairly well - especially recently. Maybe I was just fattering myself that I was making life 더 많이 interesting for you."
"I wasn't being nice," I confessed, ignoring his attempt at diversion, looking down at my knees. "That was the same thing my mom said when she left him. 당신 could say I was hitting below the belt."
"Don't worry. He'll forgive you." He smiled a little, though it didn't touch his eyes.
I stared at him desperately, and he saw the naked panic in my eyes.
"Bella, it's going to be all right."
"But it won't be all right when I'm not with you," I whispered.
"We'll be together again in a few a days," he said, tightening his arm around me. "Don't forget that this was your idea."
"It was the best idea - of course it was mine."
His answering smile was bleak and disappeared immediately.
"Why did this happen?" I asked, my voice catching. "Why me?"
He stared blackly at the road ahead. "It was my fault - I was a fool to expose 당신 like that." The rage in his voice was directed internally.
"That's not what I meant," I insisted. "I was there, big deal. It didn't bother the other two. Why did this James decide to kill me? There're are people all over the place, why me?"
He hesitated, thinking before he answered.
"I got a good look at his mind tonight," he began in a low voice. "I'm not sure if there's anything I could have done to avoid this, once he saw you. It is partially your fault." His voice was wry. "If 당신 didn't smell so appallingly luscious, he might not have bothered. But when I defended you... well, that made it a lot worse. He's not used to being thwarted, no matter how insignificant the object. He thinks of himself as a hunter and nothing else. His existence is consumed with tracking, and a challenge is all he asks of life. Suddenly we've presented him with a beautiful challenge - a large clan of strong fighters all bent of protecting the one vulnerable element. 당신 wouldn't believe how euphoric he is now. It's his 가장 좋아하는 game, and we've just made it his most exciting game ever." His tone was full of disgust.
He paused a moment.
"But if I had stood by, he would have killed 당신 right then," he said with hopeless frustration.
"I thought... I didn't smell the same to the others... as I do to you," I said hesitantly.
"You don't. But that doesn't mean that 당신 aren't still a temptation to every one of them. If 당신 had appealed to the tracker - 또는 any of them - the same way 당신 appeal to me, it would have been a fight right there."
I shuddered.
"I don't think I have any choice but to kill him now," he muttered. "Carlisle won't like it."
I could hear the tires 십자가, 크로스 the bridge, though I couldn't see the river in the dark. I knew we were getting close. I had to ask him now.
"How can 당신 kill a vampire?"
He glanced at me with unreadable eyes and his voice was suddenly harsh. "The only way to be sure is to tear him to shreds, and then burn the pieces."
"And the other two will fight with him?"
"The woman will. I'm not sure about Laurent. They don't have a very strong bond - he's only with them for convenience. He was embarrassed 의해 James in the meadow...."
"But James and the woman - they'll try to kill you?" I asked, my voice raw.
"Bella, don't 당신 dare waste time worrying about me. Your only concern is keeping yourself 안전한, 안전 and - please, please - trying not to be reckless."
"Is he still following?"
"Yes. He won't attack the house, though. Not tonight."
He turned off onto the invisible drive, with Alice following behind.
We drove right up to the house. The lights inside were bright, but they did little to alleviate the blackness of the encroaching forest. Emmett had my door open before the truck was stopped; he pulled me out of the seat, tucked me like a football into his vast chest, and ran me through the door.
We burst into the large white room, Edward and Alice at our sides. All of them were there; they were already on their feet at the sound of our approach. Laurent stood in their midst. I could hear low growls rumble deep in Emmett's throat as he set me down 다음 to Edward.
"He's tracking us," Edward announced, glaring balefully at Laurent.
Laurent's face was unhappy. "I was afraid of that."
Alice danced to Jasper's side and whispered in his ear; her lips quivered with the speed of her silent speech. They flew up the stairs together. Rosalie watched them, and then moved quickly to Emmett's side. Her beautiful eyes were intense and - when they flickered unwillingly to my face - furious.
"What will he do?" Carlisle asked Laurent in chilling tones.
"I'm sorry," he answered. "I was afraid, when your boy there defended her, that it would set him off."
"Can 당신 stop him?"
Laurent shook his head. "Nothing stops James when he gets started."
"We'll stop him," Emmett promised. There was no doubt what he meant.
"You can't bring him down. I've never seen anything like him in my three hundred years. He's absolutely lethal. That's why I joined his coven."
His coven, I thought, of course. The show of leadership in the clearing was merely that, a show.
Laurent was shaking his head. He glanced at me, perplexed, and back to Carlisle. "Are 당신 sure it's worth it?"
Edward's enraged roar filled the room; Laurent cringed back.
Carlisle looked gravely at Laurent. "I'm afraid you're going to have to make a choice."
Laurent understood. He deliberated for a moment. His eyes took in every face, and finally swept the bright room.
"I'm intrigued 의해 the life you've created here. But I won't get in the middle of this. I 곰 none of 당신 any enmity, but I won't go up against James. I think I will head north - to that clan in Denali." He hesitated. "Don't underestimate James. He's got a brilliant mind and unparalleled senses. He's every bit as comfortable in the human world as 당신 seem to be, and he won't come at 당신 head on.... I'm sorry for what's been unleashed here. Truly sorry." He bowed his head, but I saw him flicker another puzzled look at me.
"Go in peace," was Carlisle's formal answer.
1. 당신 wake up in the middle of the night to find him climbing through your window to watch 당신 sleep.
2. He hates your dog, and all 개 for that matter.
3. He looks at 당신 like you're somethig to eat.
4. He frequently tells 당신 how nice 당신 smell.
5. His parents mysteriously let him ditch school on sunny days just to go CAMPING!
6. He stops a 봉고차, 반 from almost crushing 당신 to death with his 곰 hands.
7. He can bounce 과일 from his feet like a 축구 ball (apples are his specialty).
8. He calls 당신 거미 monkey and runs around with 당신 on his back.
9. He seems to know what everyone is thinking.
10. He claims the reason his eyes change color is because of "the fluorescence".
2. He hates your dog, and all 개 for that matter.
3. He looks at 당신 like you're somethig to eat.
4. He frequently tells 당신 how nice 당신 smell.
5. His parents mysteriously let him ditch school on sunny days just to go CAMPING!
6. He stops a 봉고차, 반 from almost crushing 당신 to death with his 곰 hands.
7. He can bounce 과일 from his feet like a 축구 ball (apples are his specialty).
8. He calls 당신 거미 monkey and runs around with 당신 on his back.
9. He seems to know what everyone is thinking.
10. He claims the reason his eyes change color is because of "the fluorescence".
one of them is you,
because we're 스플릿, 분할 in two,
all of my life,
I dreamed to be your wife,
it isn't real,
당신 don't know how I feel,
it took me so long,
to figure out you're wrong,
I drive down the road,
not knowing where to go,
might as well jump off a cliff,
I have no idea if I'll live,
so now I'm at the bottom of the ocean,
my mind going through all of this confusion,
I have no 더 많이 air,
I still don't see 당신 anywhere,
but you're trying to save me,
I thought 당신 still hated me,
as my fingers slip through yours,
I now touch the sea floor,
knowing that I won't exsist anymore.