Today was not going so well. I had been a bit harsh. I should not have thrown Rosalie across the room. But then again she should not have said those horrible things. Did she not think I knew what I was getting myself into? I had thought about every single thing she’d said and more. I knew that Carlisle’s theory might be wrong and I will grow old. I knew that there was a slight chance I could die if Edward and I ever went that far. I knew that staying with Edward meant no children. But I was only eighteen so kids right now was not an option for me. Then they’re would be the constant moving around so the Cullens could lead normal lives. I’d have to wait at 집 또는 get a job because I’d be too old supposing the venom did not render me immortal. And then I’d be old. And it wouldn’t look right if I was with Edward because he wouldn’t be old. At least not in appearance. And people would think I was his mother and then his grandmother and then I’d die. And if Edward hadn’t fallen out of 사랑 with me he’d be completely inconsolable and run to the Volturi to commit suicide and then the rest of the Cullens would be devastated. And if I was immortal I wouldn’t be able to live in Forks for 더 많이 than a few years and then I’d have to leave Charlie behind and Jacob. I wouldn’t be able to visit my mother in England because I’d be too young looking. And then my life would be going down the tubes.
But then just having Edward would make it somewhat worthwhile. Just knowing he was there to 사랑 me would help me through it. Knowing he was there to support me and talk to me and listen to my incessant whining could make it a little bearable. Even after three years I still thought that Edward was a figment of my imagination. Someone I had conjured up because I was mentally deranged. And then when I figured out he was real it took me a while to remember that he did 사랑 me and wasn’t in 사랑 with a completely different person. The ring on my left hand helped a lot.
I had gone to 침대 as soon as I got home. I stuck my head under my 베개 to block out the light and closed my eyes.
Edward would be 집 soon, I thought. I would be having a few words with him. How can he buy my wedding dress? He isn’t supposed to see it until the wedding day. It’s bad luck if he does! Doesn’t he know anything?! But I smiled nevertheless. He is sweet. He just wants me to have the perfect dress because he wants the 일 to be perfect for me. He didn’t care what the ceremony was like as long as we were married. He was doing this for me. I do 사랑 him. I drifted off into a nice sleep where no premonitions abducted me and stopped my rest.
I was just on the verge of 키싱 Robert Pattinson, a British actor who had played Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, when my cell phone rang and disturbed me. I watched as Robert Pattinson faded to black and cursed the caller. I pulled the cell phone out my pocket and flipped it open, answering the call, still with my head under the pillow.
“Kayla, are 당신 okay?”
That was strange. He never called me when he was hunting. Never. From my vision last night I could see why. He was a total animal when he hunted and 동물 do not use cell phones.
“Yes,” he said, a smile in his voice. “Who did 당신 think it was?”
“You never call me when you’re hunting,” I told him. “You’re never in the position to.”
“I heard 당신 were talking to Rosalie.”
“How did 당신 hear?” I asked.
Silence from me. I wonder just how much she told Edward. Did she include the part where I assaulted her? I sat up, my 베개 falling behind me.
“She came to find Emmett, not to tell me all about it,” Edward said. “She seemed rather upset and then blurted out the entire story. I just want to know if you’re okay.”
I could answer this 질문 truthfully. ‘No, Edward I am not okay. You’re evil sister had made me doubt the venom will work thus making me doubt marrying you, I may consider wanting children now and the idea of making 사랑 to 당신 scares me s**tless. I think my father is going to get eaten 의해 a vampire because a dream I had last 년 turned out to be a premonition and now I am worried for his safety’. 또는 I could lie.
“I’m fine, Edward.” Lying took less effort.
“Are 당신 sure? Rosalie said some nasty things. I got it all from her mind.”
“I’m sure.” I lied again.
He didn’t sound convinced of my lie. He asked again and again if I was okay. I repeated my lie several times and told him to go hunt some mountain lions.
“But are 당신 okay?” he asked, his voice was low and velvety. “I don’t want 당신 lying to me to spare my feelings. I want to know everything you’re thinking right now.”
That would take a while and what I was thinking shouldn’t be shared on the phone.
“Go back to hunting. Emmett will be getting irritable if he can’t hunt his grizzly bears.”
“Okay. I’ll just pester 당신 when I get back.”
“Good to know. 사랑 you. Bye.”
I hung up and lay back down on my pillow, my feet against the headboard. I should have told him how I was feeling but then he’d come all the way back to comfort me and reassure me and that would spoil his hunt with Emmett and I didn’t want that. I’d tell him everything when he got back. Especially the dream. It was weird, the dream. I’d had it over a 년 ago. But then I thought it was just a dream, my guilt for not telling Charlie that I had been bitten, but here it was again. I had told Charlie I was bitten so there were no secrets. I was sure I wasn’t turning into a blood-sucking vampire so that person couldn’t be me. Most of my dream premonitions were like I was someone else. The person I was usually wasn’t me and if it were I would know. The person in my dream, who was eating Charlie, wasn’t me. I wouldn’t kill my own dad, bloodlust 또는 no bloodlust. I needed someone much 더 많이 intelligent than myself to help me figure this out.
This was no good. I couldn’t sleep with all this stuff going through my head. Maybe I should call Charlie. Check on him. See if there was still blood pumping in his veins.
I dialled his cell and I heard the ringing. He didn’t pick up on the first 또는 초 ring. My nails dug into the palm of my hand probably making little crescent indentations. Was there something wrong? Was I too late? He should have answered 의해 now.
“Police Chief Swan,” Charlie answered in his special Chief voice on the fourth ring.
“Dad, it’s me,” I said, sighing with relief when he answered. Panic over.
“Hi Kayla.” He reverted back to his normal voice. “I was just about to call you.”
“Oh really, why?”
“I want 당신 to do me a favour,” he said, all serious. “There have been some 늑대 attacks. Couple of hikers have found some animal carcasses.”
“You can’t stop a 늑대 from catching its dinner, Dad,” I said, smiling. “It’s not against the law.”
“They found a body as well.”
“Okay, that’s different then. But what can I do?”
“Call Jacob for me,” he said. “Ask him if he knows anything about it. The 늑대 might have seen something.”
“Sure,” I replied. “I’ll call him as soon as I hang up.”
“Oh and I’ll also be in late. I’m going into the forest to have a look.”
“The forest?” My 심장 stopped. That’s were he died. In the forest. What if a vampire was lurking in there? What if it wasn’t a 늑대 attack but a vampire attack?
“Have yourself a 피자 또는 something,” Charlie continued. “I’ll sort myself out when I get home.”
“But the forest is dangerous,” I said, trying to stop him. “You shouldn’t go in alone.”
“I am 더 많이 than capable of handling myself,” Charlie laughed. “Don’t worry.”
“I should meet you. Go with you. Two’s better than one.”
He laughed again.
“Stop sounding so worried. I’ll be fine. Bye, love.”
What if it was tonight that the vampire was in the forest? What if Charlie was going to be attacked tonight? I had to stop it. But I didn’t know where it was 또는 when it was. I needed a premonition now!
I called Jacob, just like I said I would.
“Hey Kay,” Jacob answered cheerfully. “What’s up?”
“Charlie said there had been some 늑대 attacks,” I got straight into it. “Some dead animal carcasses were found and a body 의해 some hikers.”
“Yeah. Charlie wants to know if any of the pack has seen something. 또는 heard anything.”
“Kayla, we’re not the only 늑대 in this forest.” Jacob sounded a little angry. Did he think I was blaming him?
“I’m not saying 당신 did it,” I said, hastily. “I was just asking if 당신 might have seen a 늑대 pack sneaking about 또는 some other animals.”
“You think the guilty 늑대 would be ‘sneaking about’?” Jacob laughed. “Honestly Kayla, some of the 늑대 are just animals. They wouldn’t really sneak about.”
Maybe that wasn’t the right thing to say.
“Could 당신 keep an eye out?” I asked. “Maybe send Quil 또는 Embry to scout around, see what they can find out. Keep watch.”
“I’ll see Sam,” Jacob said. “Anything else?”
I contemplated telling Jacob my dream. He’d make everything seem alright. He had that effect. He was like a 레이 of sun on a cloudy day. Shouldn’t the pack know if a vampire was coming to Forks? They had to be prepared.
“No,” I said, shaking my head. “Nothing else. Charlie just wanted to let 당신 know.”
“Okay then,” he said, not sounding convinced. He knew there was something else. “I’ll see 당신 later then.”
“Charlie’s going to be late 집 tonight. If you’re not doing anything 당신 could come over and share a 피자 with me.”
“Wouldn’t Edward be upset about that?”
“Screw Edward,” I said. “Come on over. I’ll order a few extra pizzas for you.”
“Well,” he said. “It couldn’t hurt to come over.”
“Good doggie,” I laughed.
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