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Riku114 said …
I'm alright and all XD But honestly, I'm so bad at asking for help I dont really promise people I will anymore.

Sister: "Call me if 당신 ever need help."

Me: "Honestly probably wont."

Sister: "I mean if someones following 당신 또는 something."

Me: "I mean I guess I can say Ill probably promise that if Im in big danger I can."

I'm just not used to 또는 really comfortable when I need help actually telling people I need it and actually receiving it. Its not like I dont think I can 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its just that when I think I should my mouth freezes up, my brain starts telling me all the reasons I shouldnt, and just a bit of personal pride and stuff. Thats kinda why its a huge thing when I go "Hey I need 당신 help / advice" 또는 "Hey can I be honest about how I feel about this" (<-usually something negative) over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos most of the time when I get to that point, it means I put active effort into both getting help and active effort into getting past my natural discomfort and inability to mention it in order to share which is actually a lot of trust XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its not an offense for me not to since sometimes I just dont feel like getting help and that isnt odd since I like to handle my stuff on my own fairly often, but still XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
*curls up in corner*

Davis dorms wont let me bring my knives

*depression* 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
의해 the way I dont think 구름, 클라우드 is gonna live too much longer. I think his age combined with his disability and stuff is getting to him. Hes notably weaker lately 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Sorry to know about that. I have been through it. In the end, it is simply innevitable. Pretty sure he lead a contented Life so far. I believe this counts a lot when taken into consideration !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Yeah XD I got him knowing his life span would be shorter than the others and that he was probably not the healthiest due to birth defects. It was pretty much the reason I chose him in fact. Cos the people selling him was tyring ot hind him under a 표, 테이블 and I knew it would be hard to find an owner that would take good care of him 또는 ones that could take care of him better than me so I took him to make sure that despite his health condition, I could keep him happy and alive as long as he could over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
So if he dies, itll be sad, but Ill be glad I gave him a good life and a better one than he probably would have gotten otherwise. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Am I too flamboyant at times?

*throws glitter in the air* 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That's a given. I do not believe anyone in here would say otherwise !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Nothing helps 더 많이 than waking up to having your parents having a really loud stupid argument right in the morning than looking through an old 가장 좋아하는 JRock band again that 당신 some how forgot about for a while.

#LetsGoT.M.Revolution 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Fuck I wanted to write and ended up watching Sengoku Basara Game scenes and listening to their OPs again. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
For the record, I did start 글쓰기 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
It honestly kind of shocks me and scares me at the same time.

Am I going to have an actual friend irl that is close to me?

Of course I have my boyfriend, but theres a difference between that and a friend. Like for a boyfriend, it becomes much like a partner 또는 family member

Like... an actual friend... Its been so long since I've had an actual close friend irl, I dont really remember what it is like 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So looking into who was the lead writer for the Hollywood Undead songs, most of my favorites were made 의해 Johnny Three Tears followed 의해 Danny prolly.

Makes sense that most of the ones that I love, have a lot of amazing verses, that also were done 의해 J3T XD

Seriously tho, J3T's choice in lyrics are amazing. Hes a Milton 팬 too apparently. I might add John Milton's Paradise 로스트 to things to do soon prolly. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I've had that book on the 상단, 맨 위로 of my list of things to read for a while. I jsut kinda got scared of actually trying to read cos when I fail 또는 cant focus 또는 struggle to it has a chance of making me panic over my mental health progress 또는 my future XD over a year ago
wantadog said …
Who here thinks an 기사 where Riku and I try to guess each others tentative 상단, 맨 위로 10 Video Game OSTs would be cool?

Warning tho. She has no time. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Video Game OSTs huh? As someone who loves that particular aspect, I would certainly find it pretty cool. 기사 like these are always welcome !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
:sad:

Ronnie, A Game Theorist, killed himself and from what MatPat says, he was in a really similar situation to me so I feel the pain since his battle parallels a little too closely to that of which I do. Personality, problems with personality, and role with 프렌즈 and all...

Anyone, if 당신 ever feel like 당신 need to talk to someone, send me a message. I dont care if Im unrelated 또는 anything into the topic. Ill hear 당신 out and support 당신 <3 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Always remember that the same applies for 당신 too, Riku. We're here for 당신 !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Once again, my deepest condolences for Ronnie !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
당신 ever get anxiety over a good thing? Like... all the physical symptoms of anxiety but like... in no where on bad reasons?

Like chest tightening and stuff... Is that just excitement then? Uncomfortable excitement?

Google, what is understanding emotions? XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Rihanna312 commented…
Since I have SVD in light form, it sometimes turns good moments into really unpleasant and sometimes even frightening. But it happens rarely and out of my control. But still sucks a lot. Especially when it gets hard to breathe. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I have. Quite a few times really. Mostly because of my worrying that I will mess things up somehow and turn a good thing into the exact opposite. The kind of feeling 당신 get when 당신 try something for the first time. It usually subsides when I have already gotten into it !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Shit. Ninja caught Ligma... 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Really, everyone - especially those who are new - just want someone to 사랑 and accept them. If 당신 also can provide the confidence and skill to show yourself capable of guiding, you'll quickly find there are people willing to follow and heed what 당신 have to say.

If anything, that is what leadership is. Accepting and guiding. It actually has little to do directly with responsibility 또는 giving out orders 또는 anything. They just tend to come with maintaining those two. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also at this point, I dunno who I relate to in Pandora Hearts anymore.

They are all relatable in different ways.

With that being said, I think Xerxes and Vincent are my favorites XD 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That very fact makes 당신 quite Relatable yourself XD I understand that !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: *watching "Best of Johnny Three Tears Verses"*

Me: Like... all of them? Why not just say "all of Best of J3T" cos his verses are god???"

Honestly I 사랑 J3T too much

...

I also may have been geeking out on Hollywood Undead 음악 with my roommate last night since neither of us really ever met anyone else who liked their 음악 게시됨 over a year ago
Rihanna312 commented…
Well... 당신 may have found another one. :D HU has been one of my fave bands for like 8 years. Recently went to their 음악회, 콘서트 and yes, there isn`t just one best J3T verse, because he`s 불, 화재 in all of them!!! But when I think about it I also don`t know anyone in partocular who`d be as big 팬 of them as me. over a year ago
Rihanna312 commented…
particular* over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^Yasss 더 많이 팬 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im sleepy 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I'm dopey over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I'm both of the above !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Wrote a story for Riku titled "Two Venezuelen Uncles Fliped the universe away to the Beat" but she was too tired and didn't read it. #Shaming 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
It's kind of nice that I can say literally anything to Riku at any time and have zero repercussions. Man I unleash so much shit XD 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
What is that game called where 당신 have a picture of some things and when 당신 put them together it makes a phrase? 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Why is it so early? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: *tapping my fingers impatiently even though I was told it wont happen until after the fall quarter* HMMMM. WHEN WILL I SEE MY AP CREDIT APPEAR ON MY DEGREE TRACKER FOR COLLEGE 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Time to play a game I like to call "Riku 또는 her bird?"

"Small, cute, with a couple issues that acts tough and is super confident"

Riku?

또는 her bird? 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I'll say both !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So 구름, 클라우드 also had a badly broken blood feather so I did the procedure myself cos hes old, underweight, and disabled and Im pretty sure theyd want to try to put him down.

#Successful 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
I'm too good at Sonic 3 and Knuckles 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Final Destination probably shouldnt be a childhood nostalgia for me XD

But it is XD I grew up watching these 영화 and they were like a regular hype and one of the few family traditions. Watched every single one as they came out. Probably watched all of them at least three times each and the pointless gore and creative yet unrealistic gory ways to die just get better.

I dont really like horror 또는 pointless gore, but Final Destination is special 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im not gonna say its a well made movie, but god do I like watching it XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Riku watching Rated R Gore films since they first came out over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Why do I watch this like a comedy XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Theres just so much solid irony over a year ago
Riku114 said …
*Final Destination at the Racing Speedway*

"You come here to see a crash?"

"Nah I like to watch them go around and around in circles OF COURSE I want to see a crash" 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"The trumpet is widely known for drawing in 더 많이 extroverted children. They can be bold, brash, have nervous energy and even tend to be dominant and ambitious. This is due to the nature of the trumpet, which is usually a lead instrument playing a higher melody."

Yep 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ said …
There is something about pandora hearts and bungou stray 개 xD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh? over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Is it that it tries to fit 10 volumes of information into the first three chapters of the manga? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Negative Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus struggle to remain consistent in therapy and conversations and arguments and can rarely hold my ground to long term major decisions that might be hard

Positive Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus pretty much 'reset' each morning despite negative moods / thoughts 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It actually 더 많이 so a habit I apparently picked up when I was really young. According to my older sister horrible shit would happen one day, then Id go to sleep and remember none of it. Much less severe these days as its only really my emotions and will and any emotions related to anything the prior day, but its much mroe tame over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And thats regardless of if the 일 was really good 또는 really bad. Very few things actually register in my memory with emotions attached over a year ago
wantadog said …
Pandora Update

Unsure on Gil. He said some relatable shit but like...it kinda like spawned a little thing where I created a 더 많이 accurate version of what he said so like...unsure on Gil 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I tried rewriting the quote but it didn't flow well over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Eh nevermind. No new point for Gil over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I dont think I've ever written a gay couple I 사랑 더 많이 than Nora and Lu Stevenson in the RP Wanta and I have.

While Nora never appears in the main cast, the two of them make an adorable couple and even cuter and better parents. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Neewwww 프로필 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
사랑 it. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It really looks great. I 사랑 it as well !!!! over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
Noice over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
OMG I fucking 사랑 it!! *-* over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, Lucy is so attention needy XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Seriously tho. Its still laughable my dad thinks 당신 can get a decent computer for $200 게시됨 over a year ago
Rihanna312 commented…
This makes me feel bad, because a few months 이전 I was about to buy a new computer and in my book decent started from €700 and up 😳 Have 당신 showed him what specifics fall under $200? Maybe he`ll understand that 당신 can only play solitaire on that. Even there sometimes tends to be really good deals for extra cheap prices. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh yeah Im like 99% sure hes trying to low ball me XD Since he refuses to let me input money, he promised hed work with me and honestly I know how to get him to be reasonable XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
In my book, barely decent starts at like $500 and up when on discount XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
If only there was a newly Full Time employee who offered to match whatever 당신 put in for the computer over a year ago
wantadog said …
:v I'm mad at Riku. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
She said I'm not allowed to pitch in to get her a good computer for Davis since her dad only wants to pay $200 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah its very easy to pull strings on him. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Humph over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Can someone get me a pillow? Apparently that wore me out from "could sleep but not at all tired" to like...

"Im so tired I cant figure out any new ideas for stories 또는 really create words to speak, I wanna sleep and am yawning every minute" 게시됨 over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
welcome in da club riku need so much sleep these days too, feeling that i ate drugs 또는 drunk to much over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
kat buys riku a bunch of pillows over a year ago
wantadog said …
"Do stuff I guess" - Wantadog2018 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
저기요 if anyone wants to know one variation of dissociation and depersonalization, Im right here.

I somehow ended up entirely numb cause my brain kept working me with unnecessary trauma shit and I took too long to determine if I wanted to dig deeper and ruin my mental state for processing something, cutting it off entirely and dissociating unnaturally which is worse than this, 또는 just letting myself sleep and forget it all

And now Im just sitting here pretty darn empty. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And that actually turned out to be a really short thing cos between my boyfriend and Wanta both stubbornly being stupid concerned dumbasses kinda ended up clicking with me and kind of giving my traumatized shithole brain a little bit of what it needed over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its nice to see some people have my back and genuinely really care for me as much as those two do. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am honestly tired of PTSD and trauma and feeling extreme anxiety and lack of safety for no reason.

Is there a place I could waiver out of it 또는 like.... give it to one of those tumblr shitlords that think having mental disorders is cool..? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Fuck. Took way too long trying to decide which way to go with it and now Im just emotionally numb again. Ah well. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really want to kinda just sleep even though Im not tired 또는 anything. Seems easier that putting effort to keep myself entertained 또는 to dig deeper into that crap pile over a year ago
wantadog said …
Munakata: "Sorry for making 당신 do this"

Chisa: "Say my name and it's even!"

Munakata: "No"

Riku: "Sorry for making 당신 do this"

Wanta: "Call me your best friend and we're even!"

Riku: "No" 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Lefteris: ''Call me 의해 a nickname like I do for 당신 and we're even!'' over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Riku: ''Maybe 다음 time'' over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I do a lot of things I mean to do out loud just in my head over a year ago
wantadog said …
I scared Riku with how badly the Aoi thing is taking its toll on me 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am so bored 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#RelatableAsAlways !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
FUCK I WAS PLAYING FORTNITE ON SOLO AND GOT SECOND

THE GUY WHO WON HAD LIKE 5 HP AND SINCE HE WAS RUNNING FROM ME I WAS PRETTY SURE HE WAS LOW ON AMMO 또는 SOMETHING

SO FUCKING CLOSE UGH 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Haha. Yeah the diagnosis with PTSD still is sometimes hard for me to believe since my mind has trouble believing it was really that bad.

Therapist: Well when 당신 start to 질문 it, just ask yourself [insert pair of 질문 that blantantly Bpoint out that it was very shitty]

Me: *spending the rest of the 일 frequently and randomly getting pulled into fixations and bad memories of said shiftiness* Aha... 당신 are right. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
I'd like to give a quick shoutout to a special person in my life that really has helped me throughout the last couple days when I've been going through a rough spot and facing some big decisions in my life. This person always made me laugh, made me emote even in anger, kept me on the straight and narrow, and even showed me their weak side.

So Remae from the game Spiral Scouts. Thanks! 당신 made me feel good for a bit.

#BuyTheGame 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
당신 really got me there, I must admit !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So the official final set of diagnoses from the probable last session with my therapist is PTSD with Dissociation, OCD, Trichotillomania, and GAD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh and Chronic Stress over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Take the shitty hand 당신 get dealt, accept it, and make something amazing from it.

Life is really never ever a fair thing. Some people are born with a shit ton of wealth, loving families, and everything they could want. Some people are born in absolute poverty, abusive and broken households, and in the middle of the perhaps a deadly war 또는 gang territory.

The thing is, 당신 cant really change what hand 당신 were dealt. All 당신 can do is adapt and morph it. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont have the worst hand. I have a less than ideal and kind of shitty hand but not the worst. As do others who follow this club and all. The thing is though, its possible to change said weaknesses into strengths and use it to grow if 당신 think about it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally, I take the hand I was dealt and use it to push reason to grow and to use it as a basis to let myself reach out to others better. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I'm the kind of friend that to get close, 당신 have to pay increasing work and effort into understanding and figuring out the bumps that naturally come with being close to me, but once things smoothen out I am also the type to pay it off extremely XD

Cos Im really driven and really goal orientated and good at planning and getting thigns done. Im also really good with mental health and struggles and have heard SO many stories of people both with mental and non mental health struggles 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Monetary issues? I can probably help. Mental health issues? Gotcha. Suicidal? Talk to me, Ill make sure 당신 walk out alive. Cant get your life together? Lets figure out something we can do. No passions in life? Lets figure out something for 당신 to work towards. Never seen things in life? Lets fix that. Family issues? Gotcha. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Then even better, if [I] cant help you, I have contacts that probably can help me help you. over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku is a Formula One.

Im a Ford Pickup thats left in the backyard till 당신 need a lift 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I dont think Ill ever die TRULY satisfied with life. I can be 90, saved ninty bird species, millions of birds, changed many lives, warped and washed away the stigma of mental health, had a family, mastered forty languages, mastered multiple instruments, mastered multiple combat styles, got multiple PHDs and all that

And I will STILL find things I would have wanted to find more. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I dont keep learning and dont keep evolving who I am and developing, I dont feel like Im living. And thats NOT bad. Its WONDERFUL. I feel so alive chasing goals and plans. Its not that whole "Once I get all this, I can relax" - no. Its "Once I get all this, I can explore 더 많이 of the amazing interests of this world". over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
When I die, Ill be glad I did everything I did and its posisble for me to be at peace (cos theres a chance I wont if its a shitty death) but I dont think there will ever be a time in my life where I no longer have any strict goals over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is quite Relatable. It makes me glad to see others feeling that way as well. Life is a constant struggle. Constant Improvement is a major part of it !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Huh. Despite being someone who isnt one to believe conspiracy theories and never was quite into Avril Lavigne, the theory that she died and was replaced ACTUALLY has some notable evidence XD

Its interesting. I could somewhat buy it 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally, I try to make it out to be the best that it can be and accept it, but its quite painful and frightening to know your problems with memory and knowing youll probably forget many things much faster than one shout and things no one else would

If 당신 go off to Davis, will 당신 actually remember all the fun 당신 had with people and how much 당신 care about them when 당신 return 3 months later? Did 당신 forget 또는 did it just not happen? What was it like being depressed? What about happy? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The bright side of it is I am very nicely trapped in the moment and future plans. I can get myself excited for my goals and plans. I can enjoy whatever is in the moment cos I things that happened a few hours 이전 feel like days, and days feel like months and months feel like years 이전 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Anyways Imma go to sleep over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I am Rikus memory over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Tfw 당신 FEEL that night time depression sneaking up

But 당신 ALSO wanna read some Pandora Hearts 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Prolly read some then sleep over a year ago
wantadog said …
USB = Unsuspectingly Saucy Butthole 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly shocked and disgusted with people. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Major faith in humanity and 프렌즈 로스트 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Seriously anyone who thinks thats funny and okay is disgusting as hell over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
same here over a year ago
Riku114 said …
One a 초 note, Im incredibly disgusted, sickened and pissed off with people from my band cos one of my band children and his family had a small song bird fly into their house and instead of saving it (even when it was easy to save and grab) they decided to FILM the 고양이 hunting and killing it while finding a shit ton of amusement out of it.

One kid was like "Oh should we grab the hat (that it was sitting on)?" and then the mom owuld be like "No let it hunt" and everyone had cameras 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like... are they REALLY finding amusement in watching a helpless bird get killed 의해 a cat that PROBABLY wont even actually eat it? Seriously? I mean its KINDA okay if it did because 원, 동그라미 of life, and honestly, I wouldnt mind that bad if they filmed it 또는 something. Because 저기요 maybe its an idea of recording nature and shit. Like a snake eating a 쥐, 마우스 또는 whatever. But the commentary PISSED me off. "Oh let it hunt" "Oh lets watch it" "Oh look it got killed lol" over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And of the 36 people that liked it, only one bothered to 코멘트 "Why didnt 당신 save it? ;-;" while everyone else either didnt care 또는 found it funny as well over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I could say a lot about this but 당신 already did yourself. People like these disgust me as well !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
On one note, its Lucys birthday today and he got all sorts of toys and has been 노래 all 일 like he knows it is his birthday and its great.

Im glad to have such a wonderful bird in my life...... BUT 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Happy Birthday to him. May he continue to grow and be healthy !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also, I 사랑 the look of slender builds on men.

I'm just saying that.

While I like rounded and curved women cos I 사랑 thick thighs and boobs. ((That being said, my taste is much less strict for women than men since I do 사랑 the extremely flat too and only a bit less than curved))

Slender builds are great. Perfect hugging size. A bit 더 많이 to the feminine side. Less domineering look. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really cant stand the idea of being the 'woman' in a relationship. It either has to be off the charts of being able to figure it out and balanced, 또는 I'm the "man" in it. And personally the big and bulky look, while I dont hate it and its not a deal breaker 또는 antyhing, tends to put me on guard. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And im not saying no to muscles. Muscles are nice too XD I just think slender frames are niceeee. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^^ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
While I DO 사랑 Davis and STILL 사랑 Davis and had a wonderful trip there, I do have to say the sheer amount they pushed the liberal ideologies and agenda onto everyone was a little... concerning.

As someone who is moderate, probably a little leaning towards Libertarian, I found it kind of honestly uncomfortable. It was almost cult like to be honest. Talking about lines and verses and explaining what they mean and what they make us feel like and why they are true 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
RATHER than discussing it thoroughly and properly, there was a whole "Do this, 또는 else" and a "This is the objective response to the topic / idea and not subjective, so tell me why its right" over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It was just so super PC over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I just feel people are too quick to be driven to be nice and make everyone happy and all they miss a chunk of reality over a year ago
wantadog said …
When Wantadogs fucked up mind comes up with shit so weird and unexpected that both he and Riku can't even bring up the energy to acknowledge its existence. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
상단, 맨 위로 that, Davis band chick over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
[Riku gets boners] 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
[Wanta gave Riku a boner] over a year ago
zanhar1 commented…
Put ur weiners away there are aces here :v over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD Wanta was denying his ability to write smut, and while it wasnt smut, it was a sensual scene and he did really good so I have to call him out on it cos I got an empathetic boner for my character :v over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Having seen it, I can attest to its Sensuality. Not bad at all. It was certainly a nice part !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
That feeling when the 랜덤 person 당신 met in a UC Davis band chatroom is pretty much on a 팬팝 Friend level basis with 당신 and 당신 openly discuss and share many similarities and opinions on mental health, music, classes, etc.

She noticed my extreme passion and drive to learn :v

Is it really that obvious? Shes talked to me in IM for like... less than a week :v 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I've been replaced already..... over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Hasn't even started at Davis and Wantadog is already old hat over a year ago
wantadog commented…
#TheOldModel over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great to know. It doesn't really surprise me. Your Passion on certain Subjects has a way of really standing out. One of your charms. Many in here could attest to that !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
On another note, I tore / bit my finger nails and fingers way too much yesterday out of stress of how annoying the schedule builder was.

My eyebrows are a given.

But my fingers hurt. Especially the right thumb which hurts like a betch, 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
당신 shoulda stayed up with me all night XD Clearly the smart play. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
HUNGER GAMES FOR 대학 CLASS SEATS BEGINS IN 22 MINUTES

LETS SEE WHO WINS THE TWO CHEM CHAIRS OUT OF THE LIKE 300 STUDENTS WHO WANT IT

I mean there are 더 많이 like.... eight seats for like... a hundred people but still. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Whoa. Fortnite got crazy... 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
*lays head down in a depressed manner* 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Put me out of my misery :V 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
당신 need to fight it, Rikubun !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Made it to Sacramento XD Tomorrow starts Davis' Orientation 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
Let the new journey begin. 👏🏻 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also my anxiety over college has mostly subsided now that I found ONE person who I am a lot like and get along with online XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally, if 당신 ever get concerned of how pointless and meaningless life is, think of it like this.

Life is less like an RPG game 또는 story game

Life is much 더 많이 like a sandbox game. It has no real point 또는 goal, but it is full of opportunities and game mechanics that allow 당신 to do so much, experience so much, and explore freely. If 당신 learn to work the game mechanics well, 당신 can pretty much do anything.

Heck, if 당신 work the physics engine 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
당신 can do things that might seem impossible over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its sad that I am so uncomfortable being alone with my parents for 더 많이 than half an 시간 without something actively distracting me 또는 someone to balance it out / distract me 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
Daydream might com in handy.. over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I LITERALLY HATE THAT MY 가장 좋아하는 음식 IS BIRD

AND THAT MY 가장 좋아하는 THING IN THE WORLD IS BIRD

WHY HAST GOD FORSAKEN ME 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
LIKE. I COULD STOP EATING PIG. I COULD STOP EATING COW. BUT STOP EATING POULTRY KILLS LIKE 90% OF MY DIET over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
NO BIRD LIFE IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER. ITS LIKE EATING COCKATIELS JESUS. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
And no, I dont care. XD Dont get me wrong, I 사랑 cows and pigs too. Its just that there isnt the strong instant emotional connection 또는 strong obsession and 사랑 that I have for birds that makes me feel guilty wheneveR I eat it XD Plus I dont eat pork and beef NEARLY as much as I do chicken over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I just realized I no longer remember any of the physical abuse I witnessed a lot as a kid huh...

I REMEMBER remembering it. But I dont remember it itself.

I KNOW it happened, but no matter how much I 검색 my memory files, I genuinely cant find it.

Youd think somehting like that would be embedded deeply but I guess tis the way of repeated trauma. 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
Same over a year ago
JetBlack_ commented…
A weak memory in certain situations is blessed I truly believe that because it deletes all the awful things that a person went through. over a year ago
laugh
GDragon612 said …
Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Stay humorous. Stay healthy !!!! over a year ago
laugh
GDragon612 said …
I'm a sarcastic person, and people don't get my humor sometimes. 게시됨 over a year ago
cool
GDragon612 said …
The secret to humor is surprise. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Body = Tense 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Body = Primed over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Body = Naked !!!! over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
bodycontrol ^^ over a year ago
wantadog said …
Man being stuck in the situation where 당신 are not being energized sucks ass. I find that I'm not 100% introverted in that even if I'm alone, I still am not necessarily energized. What recharges my battery is my environment. I could do the same thing with the same people in one setting and not get revved up the same as I do in others 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
But right now I'm not in any environment that gives me energy it seems cuz with each passing 일 I'm 더 많이 and 더 많이 worn out and 더 많이 and 더 많이 drained. over a year ago
wantadog said …
A 랜덤 ramble about one of Wantadogs RP characters.

I just really like Kumau because of how he is the most accurate embodiment of his nation that we have so far. He's a patriot. He can do anything because he has the support and strength of his people, urging him on to new heights. Likewise, his people can accomplish whatever they set their mind to because he is there supporting them with all the power he possesses 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I am still learning a lot about my mental health and even 더 많이 specifically on what is normal and what isnt normal and what is likely due to past trauma and shit 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ugh now Im bingeing Versailles 기타 solos. Why do I have such bad impulse control XD 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Called it over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Why does Kamijo look so young? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Brain: Remember that song that back in 9th grade even though we werent severely 또는 actively suicidal, almost helped 당신 really screwed up mind and the many fictional things in your head that 당신 talked to 24/7 that it was both good and okay for 당신 to kill yourself?

Me: Yeah.

Brain: It was pretty lets go listen to it again.

Me: Okay.

Me: ...

Me: Wait.

Me: THIS IS A TRAP. :v ITS NIGHT TIME AND 당신 WANT ME TO LISTEN TO A POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS SONG 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My hobby is spraying myself with a spray bottle 또는 shooting the spray bottle above me and letting the water fall nicely down on me on hot days

It feels so nice 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Quite frankly dealing with the issues that arise on the 아이콘 Contest and trying to go about them diplomatically is quite a pain in the ass. There is a process Wanta and I go through that makes things relatively simple

Not gonna say the idea of canceling the contest didnt occur to me. Im not going to, but I did contemplate it. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
The bitchy replies are getting annoying. Stop chewing us out simply because you’re 연기 suspicious. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^Not even that. Its just the annoying defensiveness. If 당신 didn't do it, just say so and be like "Hey I think this is a missunderstanding" instead of feeling the need to pull up an entire argument that is just sooooo over the top. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Heres the thing though guys.

Its hard to judge someone, 또는 at least it should be. If 당신 think about it, every person in the world is human - every person in the world has emotions - every person in the world have their wants, loves, desires, etc - every person has struggles.

Some might be smaller than others, some might be insane 또는 invalid. The thing is that somewhere in their head, their behavior and beliefs make sense and are something they feel is necessary, whether 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
they are aware of it 또는 not over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
So personally, I have trouble full on judging someone (at least long term) for things they do and all. Personally, if I wasnt so open and so genuinely trying to figure it out myself, Id probably be disgusted with myself and my actions, but personally, I know I am working my hardest on figuring out what feels right and what is okay. People behave interestingly based on their stories, what they want, what they lacked, what they never had, what struggles theyve been through, 또는 what struggles theyve never had over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Well said. Personally, I always try to place myself in the shoes of others before I judge them. It has certainly given me 더 많이 insight !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
That feeling when 당신 get up to brush your teeth and grab something to eat cos 당신 are hungry

But instead go pee, then go back to your 책상, 데스크 and now have to try again. Ugh XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly Im not even gonna keep it a secret since its not my natural personality to do it

Im 읽기 Pandora Hearts cos its actually an 아니메 I loved and intentionally neglected for years so I could read without much memory of it. It also had a huge impact on me like... three 또는 so years 이전 so its really interesting

Its likely going have my new 아이콘 Contest entry 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Hype 👍 !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
REALLY good time at the Fourth of July celebration yesterday. It was a lot of fun and the peopel there were great. Kinda felt like a normal family for once

....

Also I somehow dont remember much of any of it still tho.

Just a huge fog.

Thats the level of my memory 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku has really put me into a dilemma. She compared me to a character from an anime/manga I haven't seen so I can't even look into it to see how accurate it is 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same lol. Although I did some research on each Character. Just for the Personality part though. I'm planning on getting on with this Series soon. Seems quite interesting !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^Muahahahaha over a year ago
wantadog said …
Rikus new 설명 of my personality: "Mopey poutiness" 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Dude, for all the things I find New York to be kinda dumb for, requiring elementary, middle, and highschools to teach their students about mental health is definitely one I am NOT on that 보트 for. 게시됨 over a year ago
laugh
GDragon612 said …
banging your head against a 벽 burns 150 calories an 시간 게시됨 over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
ouch XD over a year ago
wantadog said …
Being as obsessive as I am is monotonous. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
To be honest, I just want my free meat and chips and soda Ill get at the 거리 party my boyfriend's family invited me to. Like... the carnivore in me is happy. The "Drinks Dr. Pepper Like Beer" in me is happy XD

The me who loves absolutely loud noises is happy especially since the neighbors have a literal 대포 they light and try to get the loudest noise out of.

Is it legal? Maybe, maybe not.

Do they keep running it back and forth between the 차고 and the street? Yes. 게시됨 over a year ago
JetBlack_ said …
Is 차 even good for parrots? 🤔
I’m watching 유튜브 👀 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Well some but I would typically avoid it since there are a lot of things 당신 have to keep an eye out for that ARENT in the 차 to make sure they are okay for the bird to have (caffinee, flavors, specific chemicals, etc) over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
It could be good for them if 당신 find the 안전한, 안전 ones but not too much to my taste over a year ago
Riku114 said …
For those that I didnt tell, 다음 session with my therapist we are going to go over the possibility of a dissociative disorder diagnosis rather than leaving it as just 'dissociative tendencies' to perhaps make my transfer to a new therapist easier when I get around to it.

So 저기요 we might see if I fit into one 또는 not XD

Cos it might just be C-PTSD. Might have gotten extreme enough to be 더 많이 than just C-PTSD which has dissociative symptoms. *shrugs* 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes makes me want to die :v 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Trust me. We tried over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
boom!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Me and Riku are playing Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes.

Riku: "It looks like a 원, 동그라미 with a little toupee"

Me: "?"

Riku: "Or like an upside down 9"

Me: "...you mean a six?"

Riku: "...oh ya" 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
ME AND MY MOM MANAGED TO CONVINCE MY DAD HE MIGHT BE GROWING A TAIL 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh man, taking advantage on his lack of any science-based education made up for his snotty 코멘트 on the vet bill being not worth it over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Well if 당신 think about it... over a year ago