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Riku114 said …
Me: Okay its 11 AM what are we supposed to be going? *checks calendar*

Me: .... the calendar is blank until 6 PM

Me #2: Ya know we planned to like... ya know, have an easy 일 on the weekend?

Me: .... OKAY THEN. LETS GET DOWN TO RELAXING AND HAVING FUN. WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PLAY 또는 DO

Me #2: Can 당신 like... not be so extreme and just relax when relaxing 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Deep breaths, relax muscles, lower shoulders, and just do whatever~ 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Also I officially #100%ed Hijikata and Saito and I totally have... 26.1 hours on the game XD Im officially 1/6th way done with the game 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Im going back to get Hijikatas bad routes before starting another and I just remembered again how much he needs to stfu and stop being me 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
I really miss my flock tbh. 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Its been way too long since I got to hold a feathery friend. I hope we get to hold the chickens in the chicken lab for my animal science lab 다음 week 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos Imma die if I cant hold a feathery friend for one 더 많이 week 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
University: Here 당신 have a $755 Refund Check to pick up

Me: .... i do? What for? I mean Il ltake it but idk why

Me: *going through financial papers and stuff* OH 당신 GUYS DIDNT PAY ME MY WHOLE GRANT EARLIER SO THIS IS MONEY I HAD BUT DIDNT KNOW OHHH THATS NICE

Me: Well at least that makes sense. Alright time to account it into my budge-

University: *literally one 시간 after I picked up that one* 당신 have a refund check to pick up

Me: ???? WHAT FOR??? 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im getting so much money from the 대학 I dont understand why Im getting it. 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Maybe this one is the small student loan 또는 something? 또는 maybe its the downpayment on dorm paid back or...??? 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Tbh I was $400-500 above my budget I was given and thus adding an unexpected $755 made me around $1200 saved and who knows how much the 다음 one is .-. 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Also everyone says Hijikata is originally cold, mean, and an asshole of sorts but like... I never really saw that and I dont know if thats everyone having differnet opinions 또는 a commentary on me since I relate to him XD 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Too many good Hijikata Icons. I was gonna go for 할로윈 but got distracted. Maybe Ill give him a witch hat 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Imma 구글 how to relax

Roommate: 당신 go do that. *goes off to the bathroom*

*two 분 later*

Roommate: did 당신 figure out how to relax?

Me: No

Roommate: .... get off the UC Davis hatchery page, yo uare supposed to be relaxin- no close the 이메일 too

Me: .... ..... *legit didnt realize she was not relaxing and now feels dumb* 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
I officially accepted that I have a genuine friend irl and thus also decided to give her the irl best friend at the same time and thats honestly kinda weird for me.

...

... i dont know if i like this XD 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I feel a lot of 당신 underestimate how horrifically bad I am at actually establishing meaningful connections with people IRL and then actually recognizing and accepting it rather than denying it and negating the 'meaningful' part because I refuse to let it count cos of my discomfort into getting invested into friendships 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
But TBH shes one of the only two not-boyfriend, not-therapist, not-oldest-sister people I know IRL that I am even remotely comfortable being my purely natural self and we still are in contact even after having not seen each other in two months and tbh shes pretty cool 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
#GayPTSDBuddies 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Im annoyed 의해 the amount of M&Ms in my trail mix 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I know Im weird 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
WELP. I apparently also do dissociative fugue XD The one dissociation thing I claimed to NOT have I apparently have for ffs XD

My new therapist was like "You do A LOT for being dissociated so it sounds a lot like a fugue if 당신 ask me". Apparently 당신 dont have to have that whole complete memory wipe / shock when 당신 come back from a fugue and apparently my selective amnesia and constant casual autopilot-dissociation is likely a mild but still active dissociative fugue ffs XD 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
But fuck man I got therapy homework to "relax" rip me 10 months ago
Rihanna312 said …
https://www.facebook.com/pubity/videos/767156683615418/ 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
XD Thats hilarious 10 months ago
JetBlack__ said …
Wait...who is Nomy? 게시됨 10 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Guys, check out my new 질문 on the 랜덤 club xD 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
8theGreat XD 10 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
I see xD 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Nomy: "Doing my job stuff so I might be slow to respond so sorry XD"

Me: "Its cool XD I was just mostly rambling here. And looking at birds"

Nomy: "When are 당신 not looking at birds"

Me: "good point" 게시됨 10 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ A good point indeed lmao !!!! 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey having way too much fun with the thing me and Nomy are casually working on as a side thing together tbh. 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
YES MY 7-10 PM CHEM LAB GOT CANCELED COS THE UC SYSTEM IS EXPERIENCING A STRIKE. HALLELUJAH. 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
So I managed to match with a therapist that does have experience with trauma and dissociation so that should be interesting. 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
So anyways, we did the away game and what not well and stayed up from 10 PM until 3 AM until I had to let my boyfriend go which lowkey really made me kinda sad to see him go since it was honest to god the first time none of my mental health crap was constantly pressuring me (Constantly but not majorly; present but not crushing) and I didnt really wnat him to go.

Woke up the 다음 day, had the banquet and senior speeches and what not 게시됨 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Then we got on the bus to head back to our 대학 but only got like.... 20 miles out before one of the busses started majorly leaking oil and eventually catching on 불, 화재 in the form of an engine fire. That ended up making us stranded 의해 a beach. 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Then we all agreed (quite enthusiastically as if we hadn't just been told we were stranded for two hours) to "rally at the beach" which pretty much means to play 음악 and have a band version of a party on the beach. Pretty much did that for three hours straight. Apparently a couple whose son killed himself a week 이전 forced themselves out of the house to check out hte 바닷가, 비치 and smiled for the first time since because of us, our energy, and overwhelming positivity 10 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I might 업로드 some 비디오 onto 유튜브 XD 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
IM BACK HOLY SHIT XD

Our bus broke down and we didnt get a bus until midnight and then had a 5 시간 drive back XD Plus I had a cold but tbh it was a lot of fun and I needed it XD After I get 음식 and laundry done I might ramble 더 많이 on it if people are interested but it was quite a fun adventure with the band XD

Oh yeah I was at an away game that had us in a hotel over the weekend btw. 게시됨 10 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
that was unexpected news but 저기요 glad 당신 had fun xD yes 더 많이 please.. 10 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
yyyyyyyyyyoooooo finally back!!!, but i am happy too 당신 had alot of fun<3 10 months ago
JetBlack__ said …
Riku why u no have time xD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Cuz Im a bando XD 10 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
:D 10 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
hahahaha XD 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
Fyi Goodbyes are still 200x harder than just cold turkey 또는 any actual parting 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
^This is in relation to the fact I got to see my boyfriend two nights 이전 and had to part as well tho on the same 일 XD It was harder than I thought it would be 10 months ago
Riku114 said …
My relatable character list is really hard to rank at this point XD Also I moved a few to an "EX-Relatable" list since I was feeling some really didnt match up to the standard the list held 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I also now added Tiers so I could place them 더 많이 generally into Three Ranked boxes rather than trying to compare two really close ones. 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
The Tiers arent really ranked inside the tier but First is higher than 초 which is higher than third 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
HIJIKATA GOTTA STOP DOING THINGS AND SAYING THINGS SIMILAR TO WHAT IVE DONE AND SAID FUCK OFF 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
ALSO CHIZURU STOP DESCRIBING HIM AS SOME PEOPLE WOULD DESCRIBE ME. 당신 TOO CAN FUCK OFF XD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I might just go eat my 파스타 bar and glare. XD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Hilariously hes also nicknamed "Demon Commander" 의해 his 프렌즈 and subordinates which is very well paralleled 의해 the fact everyone in my old band called me "Satan" XD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I'm not too good at showing affection out of the provider method. Providing gifts, money, aid, help, and all that stuff. It doesnt really work well for people that dont want it 또는 people that dont understand that type of affection, but its just the most natural and comfortable one for me.

Im also pretty good at the method of spending quality time, but I also feel that flies over people's head a lot since I have limited time so my 'quality time' often isnt long 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im usually busy so cutting out like... half an 시간 또는 an 시간 to just 당신 really says something 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honest to god my boyfriend is the 더 많이 sweet thing ever. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
*most sweet 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im the luckiest to have him in my life 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Ah yes. The 4 AM call time for a football game in Marching Band. Sounds about right. XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey feel a little bad cause people are comparing their schedules to mine and feeling lazy but that REALLY isnt fair. I keep myself busy sometimes as a bad coping mechanism XD Being busy is usually easier for me than being free 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Oh huh. Thats the first time I said that since I turned 18.

I guess Im finally / officially 'legal' now XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
FUCK IM NO LONGER #TEAMTEENAGER ON 팬팝 XD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Well.... "Teen"ager comes from the "teen" part so Im still a teen until Im like.... 20 XD So I still kinda am? 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Its weird tho XD Being on here since I was like 11 almost 12 makes it odd being moved a biiiiit into the older group. TBH not THAT old since there are a lot of older people still on here but yikes XD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Im 18 and take 6-7 pills every morning. What am I 60? 게시됨 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
당신 are 11 년 old cat xD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is too relatable tbh XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Welp that Chem midterm had to be on of the easiest tests Ive taken in a while 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Also I was debating between the conflict in my own values and ideals the fact that one of my closest college 프렌즈 currently does drugs (which I am firm against myself; but I have had online 프렌즈 that abused it so now that I think about it I should have no problem with it XD) but from what Ive heard and seen so far, shes rather responsible about it and doesnt push it so I suppose its fine. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
My firmness on that value of mine hadnt had such a direct 질문 to my decision of people to be around and to choose to be 프렌즈 with since those that did do it that I was 프렌즈 with did it after I already took them as longer term 프렌즈 so something like that was a matter of concern for them rather than decision making on my part 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
But personally, as much as I disagree with the usage of drugs and what not, as long as people arent in my face about it and trying to get me to take part and they themselves arent harming themselves with it 또는 their behavior while on it isnt harming others, then its not really horrible. Everyone's life is their own 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same as Zeppie and agree !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly I really like my Microecon professor XD I mean Ive always loved Economy - both Macro and Micro - but he just makes the class great. Both a wonderful professor and just person in general XD Plus with my 사랑 for participating, tendency to sit in the front, and the small conversation I have with him before and after class Im on pretty good terms with him too XD

But lowkey my 가장 좋아하는 class to go to (until we get to Poultry in Animal Science prolly) 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Imma wanna die the 다음 two weeks XD

I have 9 hours of band practice this week, then an all weekend marching trip, two labs, and a midterm XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
omg

"arrrghh my head"

Youtuber: "Yeah 당신 should just amputate it" 게시됨 11 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
ouch XD , get well soon Riku~bun<3 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah XD That wasnt at me it was a thing in the game he was going through 11 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
hehe thats good xD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
extraverted Sensing (Se) (30.2)
good use

introverted Sensing (Si) (25)
average use

extraverted Intuiting (Ne) (29.3)
average use

introverted Intuiting (Ni)      (34.3)
good use

extraverted Thinking (Te) (43.6)
excellent use

introverted Thinking (Ti) (30.3)
good use

extraverted Feeling (Fe) (20.7)
limited use

introverted Feeling (Fi) (27.2)
average use

TEMPERAMENT: Theorist 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh the Temperament was a different wording for the "Rationals" "Idealists" etc etc 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
But yeah that felt like probably the most legit of the tests out of the ones I took 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Fuck I was gonna record it but decided against it and now wanted to post it on my 벽 but now I cant find it :v

Anyways there was a Hijikata quote along the lines of "If I find myself in capable of doing a task, it is my responsibility to delegate it to someone who can." 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally thats the great thing about communications, having people around 당신 with diverse skills, and - in the larger spectrum for like nations and what not - trade. Time is very limited and one cant spend their whole life learning literally everything (against as much as I talk about it and seem to try to XD) so some things have to be passed up. 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
AND THIS ALL STARTED FROM ME THINKING ABOUT A HIJIKATA QUOTE 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I hate myself XD (not really) 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is also pretty relatable. Saito is 더 많이 specifically relatable while Hijikata is 더 많이 generally relatable 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
WOOOOO DORM TO MYSELF. God its been so long since I felt as free as this XD I 사랑 my roommates but as the 이전 post on this 벽 said, my mind just automatically assumes that they serve a presence like my parents so like... yeah XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly the thing about PTSD that I didnt really fully notice until I went to college is how it just makes 당신 have a constant sense that where-ever 당신 are and regardless of what facts 당신 present, there is a massive tag on everything that marks it a threat / possible danger.

Like I find that my dorm honestly feels exactly like it did when I was back at 집 but there is NOTHING here actually to give it that feeling 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Likewise, the college itself does as well outside of learning. I just suppose it hasnt fully occurred to me because when I felt that constant presence of a threat that isnt there was when I didnt know / accept that I had PTSD and when I did know / accept it, I had my boyfriend around me at least an 시간 almost every 일 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
And as cheesy as it sounds, I can honestly say the only place I felt normal - at least in terms of sensing a threat 또는 anxiety - and safe. When I am around him, there is no levels of filters watching every word and every gesture and every thought and everything. Im fully genuine around him because my brain goes "Oh look. We are good and safe. No worries, feel free" cause he just makes me feel safe. HE doesnt really do anything too actively. HE isnt over protective 또는 take up my inner routines to protect myself from a nonexistant threat. Its just that hes there and its like a safety net 또는 harness. 당신 wouldnt go on an obstacle course 200 feet in the air without one of them, but when its there and given 의해 a company 당신 can sue, 당신 are much 더 많이 okay with it 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im charismatic, smart, driven, good at applying myself, and considerably successful and just looking at the stats Ive got everything going for me way better than him. But honestly, its like people being amazed at the 나무, 트리 and how beautiful it is without looking at the very soil, water, and nutrients that even let it be that. 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Ughh XD Im sad now. Im hearing the band practicing field show for tomorrow's football game that I didnt sign up for cos I figured Id be exhausted but now that I hear them its giving me good old memories to late night practices and now I wanna be there XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Today was a fucking shitty day. 10/10 would NOT recommend 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Hijikata is great XD Saito seems 더 많이 fitting as a partner in my opinion but Hijikata is a great character XD I seriously 사랑 his casual cursing being part of the smaller details of his characteristics XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Oh shit one of my options for a therapist is trained in EDMR therapy XD I dunno if I wanna go for it though cause I dont really know if its the type of processign and recovery I want to go about but that therapy is like a really rare type to see 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
It really shouldn't feel as odd as it is to be given normal friendly attention and to be treated as a normal person as it does. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
IRL I mean. I have a lot of online 프렌즈 I feel give me that too 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
WHY IS BUDGETING TO MUCH FUN? 게시됨 11 months ago
2ntyOnePilots commented…
*too I’m sry, couldn’t help it. Argh.. plz don’t @ me, ik I’m hypocritical 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
It was actually supposed to be *So 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Also 7-10 PM Chemistry Labs was a mistake 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
And people are starting to notably notice that Im ahead of most of the class even when Im in a large 대학 XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
College is the ability to say "You know this professor lectures 4x slower than I can learn 의해 읽기 myself and I have a TA and discussion classes to work through anything I might not know so fuck this lecture" 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I have a midterm for Chem (not really a midterm cause I have two cause they dont understand what the word 'midterm' means) 다음 week and tehre are two 더 많이 chapters to cover and Im pretty sure I could cover the two chapters on my own and start doing practice tests in the time itd take them to cover the single first chapter today 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Personally I think I like Pokemon partly because Im an animal lover and the 판타지 of being in sync with your pets much 더 많이 like companions and partners and going into battle with them just sounds like an awesome relationship.

Of course a large part is being raised with it, but my animal lover, my combat obsession, and my 사랑 for 판타지 just kinda melds together as well. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I suppose to animal lovers, it depends if 당신 see the battles as forcing them to fight 또는 as working as a partnership to fight that makes 당신 질문 it. Also I like to imagine pokemon less in the "I wanna be the Pokemon Master" way, and 더 많이 in just like a world of Pokemon and conflicts and stuff going on and stuff. A more... mature and stuff orientated type 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
HArd to explain but I dunno XD 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I feel the same way when it comes to that matter !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
My hair is so good for hair / head banging 게시됨 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Meow 11 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
headbangs with Riku❤ 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I am honestly so sick of shitty fucking service management and help in the mental health department of fucking everything. Fuck Kaiser and maybe now also Fuck Davis 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I 사랑 Davis but fuck their whole student care. Im paying for insurance yet have to struggle to book a single fucking appointment with therapy 또는 psychiatry. I have STILL yet to get one despite all my efforts 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Poor service in the mental health department isnt even funny in the slightest anymore 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Not that it ever was 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
FINALLY GOT AN APPOINTMENT 예수님 CHRIST 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Linkin Park is a real headbanger.

Also for those that wonder how well I hide emotions and even major breakdowns, Ive had two full breakdown and like.... three 또는 four almost breakdowns and none of them have been noticed 의해 my roommates 또는 bandos who have been around me pretty much 24/7 게시됨 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I know how that is very well !!!! 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
And yes. Linkin Park rocks. It still remains one of my 가장 좋아하는 Bands !!!! 11 months ago
2ntyOnePilots commented…
Linkin Park rocks! (Literally) I’m glad I’m not the only one who still gets a kick out of their music. (R.I.P. Chester) 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I still hate when my mind randomly reminds me how ruined and stolen my childhood and teenhood was stolen from my family situation and mental health. I usually accept it and can think about it and grow from it, but sometimes my brain just hooks on it in a form of comparison and just get really envious and sad and tries to drag me back into grief over it. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Its one of the things that I still almost definately need 음악 to block out. 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I was video chatting with my boyfriend when I took a two 분 break and something just brought it back and now Im just kinda really tense trying to block out the thought cause its not good for me to think about and if I think about it my mind starts going down a bad track and I start dissociating but even when Im playing 음악 to block out the bad thought train, I still am tense af and my body still wants to be anxiety ridden 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I really do need to figure out therapy though so I can actually continue to work through things 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Personally for a while, I spent a lot of my life kind of 로스트 in my own mind and just living in the worlds in my head and even in a reality slightly warped 또는 rather wrapped in a veil of distance and separation. It felt so separate from the world.

I would have this sense of companionship and socializing talkign to online 프렌즈 24/7 while pent up in my room, rarely actually talking to anyone. A life that was perfect and a well developed and stable personality 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
While not knowing the first thing about myself and while being a mental health mess in a toxic family 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
It was honestly a bit of a false reality and while it may have felt really good from time to time, I feel that its good that I got my reality and the TRUE reality to match up and work on actually taking part in the world 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I am not to say that 프렌즈 online are not real 프렌즈 또는 they dont provide companionship, however its hard to say that it fully fills the role when there is nothing in the actual physical world to be around 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
If I were to say anything, it was probably a lot easier, 더 많이 peaceful, and fun to live like that and honestly sometimes there is a deep longing to go back to living like that, but this seems better - as 더 많이 difficult as it is 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Welp I finished Saito's route and like.... I dont wanna go onto completing ANY of the other 12 rn cos I 사랑 Saito and that story worked so well it doesnt feel like the others could compare XD

Im sure they are great but Id feel wrong moving on so fast so I might take a few days break 또는 something.

Saito is great though 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
14 hours of game play and there is 11 other main routes XD 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welp, it is reasonable. Give yourself some time to reflect on what 당신 have went through before 당신 jump straight into the other Routes XD !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Saito is so making my relatable characters list XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Sometimes, I honestly feel like if Im not of use to people, I really am not wanted, needed, 또는 worthy of attention / affection 또는 whatever.

I am very aware that it isn't true, but I can't say I am not taken off guard 또는 uncomfortable when I realize someone is liking me not for my skill in anything 또는 my intelligence 또는 my ability to help them, but just rather for me and myself and...

Its just weird 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I kinda relate to Saito in that matter 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I was actually having 공식 만찬, 저녁 식사 with one of the other trumpet freshmen and for over half of it I was internally struggling to comprehend the fact that I neither was amazing at the trumpet compared to others, havent shown off any particular academics, 또는 really anything useful to them yet.... they still treated me and seemed to want to welcome me into being 프렌즈 regardless and it just didnt seem right 또는 to make sense XD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
XD Thanks guys. Its not really a major concern but 더 많이 so a reflection / analysis / observation I noticed on myself and felt like rambling about. It is just something that I noticed and one of the things that resonated strongly with me when a similar topic was beign discussed in Hakuoki XD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Lowkey in a huggge 라면 mood since I cant go to the dining commons but also not wanting to spend money

Id kill for like... legit ramen. Like legit cooked ramen. The real delicious good shit. 게시됨 11 months ago
GDragon612 commented…
라면 I WANT ALOT*_* YUMMY!!!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
ALSO FUCK HAKUOKI SLIGHTLY XD

It makes me miss my boy 더 많이 XD Cos Im like "Aww... this is such a nice romance cute thing... I relate case of my boyfriend... BUT HES NOT FUCKING HERE AND ITS BEEN LIKE TWO AND A HALF WEEKS AND I WANT HIM BACK. GIVE HIM BACK TO ME." 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, I just kinda like having him around because I get a nice sense of security that makes it so I dont have to be well in check 24/7, looking over thigns 24/7, being responsible and controlling everything, and jsut all in all being a really spectacular, responsible, hardworker all the time. 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I mean its GOOD when I am doing that and it REALLY doesnt drain me too much to be like this 24/7 cause its honestly just a different mode of sorts and doesnt really take much energy for me to keep track of everything and stay on task and everything, but I really do enjoy occasionally allowing myself to be stupid, to make mistakes, and to not have to look far ahead to make sure everything is going exactly as I plan / want it to and all 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Still tho. I 사랑 Hakuoki 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Hajime Saito > Hajime Hinata

I 사랑 both but Saito is great 게시됨 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Hajime Ichinose > EVERY other Hajime so far !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
"All too often, doubt is little 더 많이 than a poison" ~ Saito Hajime 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I burnt my self out helping my roommate with basic Chem that I just had a major energy and mood crash the 초 a minor inconvenience occured in my work when I started it at night

Whoops 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly the great thing about a well done Otome game is it gives 당신 a small, short version of the feeling of falling in 사랑 all over again. Its not as long lasting, and its not as intense, but for a short moment when playing it, 당신 just get the rush and softness for a 분 또는 two where 당신 are like "Ah... Love"

Not enough to where 당신 fall in 사랑 for real, but enough to get the feeling of being loved and loving. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
So it seems the first game "Kyoto Winds" is 더 많이 of the set up and is much 더 많이 linear even with the different romancable options and then "Edo Blossoms" is the 초 half where 당신 start right away getting to be offered which route 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Its just kinda nice being as busy as I am to be honest XD Makes keeping my club up and active harder but still lets me have fun and what not while still feeling like Im making progress in my life

Oooooh

I think I get to sheer 양 this Friday 의해 the way

#Hype 게시됨 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Apparently I am matching with Saito 더 많이 just with my natural decision choices XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I wonder how much Ive read in Visual Novels in my time... 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Hakuoki plays a lot better than I expected XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly... People assume me to be much 더 많이 in control and independent than I am - 또는 at least 더 많이 than I comfortably am. Im driven and perseverant and all, but I really dont like doing things Im completely unfamiliar with alone and I dont necessarily know how to do everything. I mean, that is normal for people, but it seems like almost everyone but maybe my boyfriend and maybe my oldest sister realize that. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im great at leading when its somethign foreign that Im somewhat used to 또는 something similar to something Im familiar with and all, but when its completely unknown, I really 사랑 to have someone actually help me out. 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I can get pretty easily overwhelmed alone in an area I feel like I dont have any solid footing in. Most things I do feel like I have solid footing in, therefore I lead rather well and handle myself rather well - but if I dont have a plan 또는 any real guidance of something Ive seen before 또는 anything, it just throws me off 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos bois I still got severe anxiety thats just being mediated 의해 medication 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I see that being perfectly natural, Rikubun. Someone thinking otherwise would seem unusual to me. That applies to every person and the impressions they are giving. Especially if 당신 have come to know them well !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Ugh. I honestly wish I was actually taught how to do taxis and bus crap cos now I have to figure that stuff out on my own and its a pain in the ass. 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Also a note as to why I need to take my anxiety meds daily. Cause I missed it today (and probably also cause I missed it two days ago), it was causing my body to start reacting in an anxiety attack what with the inability to breathe and shit 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im alright cause my sister actually gives me 더 많이 help than "Take cash money and figure it out" and cause Im aware the reaction my body was having was primarily due to the lack of medication and I just took my medication but yikes 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Apparently I bike at least 4 kilometers on a regular school 일 so its a bit too convenient for Pokemon Go XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I might start playing Pokemon again. My schedule isnt as dense as I hoped it would be to make playing the DS 더 많이 convenient but I still probably will. Maybe help my roommate complete the Pokedex 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
My roommate and sister dragged me back into Pokemon Go. My trainer code 1156 7110 6840 for anyone who wants to add me 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Im so forwardly in 사랑 with birds 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
AQUA IS OFFICIALLY A BOSS FIGHT IN KH3 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Yeah theres a lot of biking in Davis

Oldest Sister: I told 당신 there was a lot of biking in college

Me: No 당신 dont understand

Me: Davis is a whole new level

Me: Just 구글 UC Davis Bike

Me: Just look out your window at Davis

Me: Davis is a bike 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Its kinda nice that the torturous longing to be able to hug and cuddle and be with my boyfriend has been replaced with an excitement to go 집 and be with him in just a week of being here.

I really miss him and we can do so much when I get back XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I'm honestly just so lucky to have him. The distance honestly kinda makes me appreciate even the smallest things even more. 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
But yeah Im not really the type of person who should have been out of therapy for over three months straight 게시됨 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
당신 are going to be starting it again now that Summer is over. Right? 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
If I can work through Davis 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
TFW 당신 are unsure whether 당신 are just really bad at recognizing your own emotions 또는 really good at lying / convincing yourself that one emotion is the 다음 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Cause lowkey had a bit of a breakdown over the thing mentioned below and I know my need to stay active is a hugeeee front and the boredom is a HUUUGEEE red herring to keep myself from actually having to feel / think about my feelings 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
The thing is, even after a bit of a crack in it, I still dont know what Im blocking out, what, 또는 why and for the time period that I was extremely distressed about boredom, I genuinely thought I was depressed cos I was bored cos thats a thing for me but like, I can bet 당신 I was depressed for some other reason and I only started to feel it cause I wasnt busy and was distressed cos I was feeling depressed and was using the scapegoat of boredom so I could ignore my own issue 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
God Im bored 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im not even a week into college and Im already bored of it. >.> 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
It doesnt help my mind isnt in a "Have fun and relax" mode and thus dont feel comfortable / motivated doing anything fun which means I cant get into a game 또는 망가 또는 아니메 또는 anythign even if I forced myself to 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Im HONESTLY going to burn out so fast if Im like this for much longer 또는 if I cant relax on the weekend 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
That feeling when your shy introverted roommates have a larger will / want to make 더 많이 프렌즈 than 당신 XD

I just am too lazy and dont have people Im interested in yet XD

Ive got invited to like... two 또는 three parties already XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Sorry if I dont talk too much to people I usually would XD Ive been busy and distracted to keep up with my normal online routine XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Shukuya commented…
No problem 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Hey,as long as 당신 still here that’s all it matters. 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ This. It is understandable, Rikubun. No need to even mention it !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Imma take a bit of a nap 20 분 cause Im super tired and I never end up napping for 더 많이 than a few minutes

*two hours later*

Me: FUCK ITS 4PM AND I MISSED 일 ONE OF SCH- Oh wait. Huh. *talks to roommate for like two minutes* Imma just curl up for like five 분 또는 something

*five 분 later*

Roommate: We should probably go eat soon since we have to leave in a bit

Me: Yeah sure around five

Roommate: It is five. 당신 fell asleep an 시간 이전 게시됨 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
The 침대 must be so comfy xD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Its alright XD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
I was just super exhausted 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
So this is gonna be a copy paste from what I texted people on messenger but college story time 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Also dude. Someones bike flipped and they flew off it cos a janitor bumped the back of their bike with their vehicle and she - the rider - totally skinned her knee really badly and was bleeding a lot 11 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Karma has its very own pace and ways of rewarding. Glad things worked out for both of 당신 !!!! 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
That was weird xD Hope it's just a beginners welcoming XD be 안전한, 안전 Riku<3 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
I honestly just feel happy and comfortable when I can really help the people around me that I care about. ITs one of my easier ways of showing affection and all, and if people can come to me for help and I can help them, it just makes me feel respected and liked.

Maybe its a bit wrong, since its a dynamic that could get unhealthy, but in moderation I feel like its fine 게시됨 11 months ago
Shukuya commented…
I think you're doing great 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Update: Quickly getting my good biking legs back 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly if Im not on much its cause Im moving in and doing school prep and figuring life out at college and all and I just feel odd being on my computer much now XD 게시됨 11 months ago
Rihanna312 commented…
linkI`m just gonna leave this link here for when 당신 get back on, in case 당신 haven`t seen this yet ^_^ 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Awww XD 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Wow my whole dorm room is the " 5' 1(.5)" girls with dysfunctional families bringing trauma and bad pasts to UC Davis hoping for 더 많이 luck and a fresh start here " 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
My roommate is a wonderful person and I 사랑 her XD We are gonna have a fun 년 게시됨 11 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
^Since when (her) means boy? xD 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
^ Plus platonically 사랑 XD Also Im bi / ace af so gender doesnt matter for me 11 months ago
Shukuya commented…
Sorry about that i didn't noticed!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
On a scale of one to ten, do 당신 want to die?
On a scale of one to ten, do 당신 want to die?
But if 당신 want to die
당신 cant afford a funeral
So sadly I must say, 당신 can not die 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly its not that bad for me but feels man 11 months ago
Shukuya commented…
Life is game, dying means quiting it and I never quit a game 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Me and my roommate are whining and complaining about medical shit and college shit and assholes who write their own textbooks every 년 and make their students buy them 게시됨 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
... well I was gonna make a Luka + Flugelhorn 아이콘 but I cant 업로드 it >.> 게시됨 12 months ago
JetBlack__ commented…
Oh ! why? 12 months ago
Riku114 commented…
팬팝 glitching 12 months ago
8theGreat commented…
I dig it 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
Seriously though I just 사랑 my college band. So hyped for Monday Practice this Monday XD They make me feel loved and welcome. Its great not being the mom for the first time and just being the 'kid' of the band since 당신 get that really nice older sibling feel and that "we have your back" feeling that I havent had in a while.

They are honestly wonderful people. 게시됨 12 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is wonderful to know !!!! 11 months ago
Riku114 said …
As for a college update, Im moving in tomorrow XD 게시됨 12 months ago
Riku114 said …
TFW 당신 spend all 일 playing online games with your boyfriend since 당신 both have the 일 off and 당신 still miss him XD Its honestly lowkey great to miss him like this. It both means Ive made great progress in mental health, that I really did 사랑 him, makes the smallest things feel like the largest, and honestly just makes me 더 많이 fond.

It sucks but like... Ive never been so happy 또는 excited to play Fortnite 또는 Stardew 또는 anything before. 게시됨 12 months ago
Riku114 said …
I realize that when 음식 is now on my own money, I eat a lot less of it XD Its probably for the better tho cos like... I eat 더 많이 than I should XD 게시됨 12 months ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly its quite a great thing that Im missing my boyfriend XD Its a huge improvement from what I used to be like with my mental health. 게시됨 12 months ago
Riku114 said …
Annnnd now I need to figure out something to keep me busy and entertained the 다음 two days in a city I dont know, without a car, and with dead legs from band camp XD

Ill figure it out but for now Imma sit cos my legs are dead XD 게시됨 12 months ago
Riku114 said …
I AM BACK AND THE BAND IS GREAT.

#YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 게시됨 12 months ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
WELCOME BACK! XD That is good to know !!!! 12 months ago