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Riku114 said …
So uh.... someone reported the basis of the emotionally and verbally abusive shit my dad currently does? But the thing is it isnt towards me and its mostly settled??

So now I have to deal with this social worker up my 나귀, 엉덩이 and trying to talk to my family about this???

Like.... really???

Only two people out of my boyfriend know about it and both make little sense?? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like.... who??? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh I found out XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Okay so update. Back when my dad was entirely dismissive and called me "stupid" when I mentioned to him and my mom that I was suicidal and shit in a bit of a snap, and I mentioned that and the rest of the fight to my therapist and he contacted the school to 신고 that I am not in a 안전한, 안전 place and there is emotional abuse going on. They apparently said it isnt reportable until this Monday where they changed their mind about it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
BUT THEY THOUGHT MY DADS NAME WAS RICHARD. GET IT. RICHARD. DICK. THEY THOUGHT MY DADS NAME WAS DICK SO I LAUGHED TOO HARD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v 별, 스타 Wars added to it and :v over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man 영화 rather than half assing them too :v over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. 당신 know 당신 want to !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three 또는 four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, 또는 some traumatic shit 또는 anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, 또는 pat me 또는 something 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
So like... I had a 초 또는 two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a 초 또는 two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the 초 floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any 질문 asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting 암캐, 암 캐 face no matter what emotion Im feeling over a year ago
Riku114 said …
RIP all my classes from today 앞으로 tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school 년 when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Awesome. Be lazy time? over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Lazy is life over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel 가장 좋아하는 of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
당신 know, if 당신 think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the 일 just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When 당신 think about it like that, 당신 have to pity superheroes 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
As an idealist, I can assure 당신 gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk over a year ago
wantadog said …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE 상단, 맨 위로 OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A 음악 JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
THIS IS NOTHING 괭이 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
*cough* My irl 프렌즈 have no place judging me :v over a year ago
wantadog commented…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like 더 많이 English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a 음악 junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #Relatable !!!! over a year ago
wantadog commented…
음악 is just really nice. over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Without this 음악 I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six 책 in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I said Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She said I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other 책 (not that I even studied R&J) 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years 이전 and really liked his character 더 많이 than I should have, watched an 아니메 version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Despite never really watching the movie 또는 anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Me too! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy 일 XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder 또는 shit. Im in a demented tired :v over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what 당신 call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot over a year ago
wantadog said …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
jk jk over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even 더 많이 so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt 또는 shame to back it up. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer 당신 get to me, the 더 많이 creepy and unsettling things 당신 might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem 또는 hold against myself over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my 사무용 겉옷, 전반적인 character. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I want sleep 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
당신 NEED sleep !!!! over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Sleep? over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
ya deserve sleep so much over a year ago
wantadog said …
"If that's the case, then 당신 owe it to yourself to pick apart the games 당신 LOVE, not just the ones 당신 hate."

사랑 that. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG 당신 ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos like... 암캐, 암 캐 I doubt 당신 are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Jk jk over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line over a year ago
wantadog said …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the 나귀, 엉덩이 with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my 사무용 겉옷, 전반적인 trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make 프렌즈 and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when 당신 tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl 프렌즈 are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a 년 when 당신 live here 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Welcome back over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, Im waiting for 더 많이 information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually given out on her character.

Im super interested tho. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing 또는 sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy 또는 because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if 당신 ask me. Like I wasnt shocked 또는 surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my favorites XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD 상단, 맨 위로 Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Great to know. Looking 앞으로 to seeing it myself !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy 나귀, 엉덩이 bastard. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Not really but still. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him 또는 give him any leeway 또는 even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people 당신 want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Lol! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also a 랜덤 fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby 공룡 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Also, 당신 doubt it until 당신 hear what baby cockatiels sound like. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
link over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also 랜덤 fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 분 of bird 비디오 within each day.

It makes me happy. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my 사랑 and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement 또는 uncertainty of facts, that within five 분 Ill hear "Hey Riku! 당신 are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
It’s expected 의해 now I imagine:) over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of 당신 are right 또는 wrong. 당신 are just ignoring an entire half of his character. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side 또는 the other. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot 더 많이 interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE 게시됨 over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
It was a great movie. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence LOL !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I said we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an 시간 또는 two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest 또는 something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD 게시됨 over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure 당신 rest whenever 당신 are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
저기요 this probably sounds really weird but I 사랑 당신 guys. Feel free to ignore this if 당신 want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable 또는 just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its cool dood XD over a year ago
nightiee commented…
당신 too over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at 당신 !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just 의해 talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what 당신 feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko 더 많이 than I did the first time 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I could see 당신 relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this 아니메 !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
link over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Wow 5hats pretty cool over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
❤️ over a year ago
wantadog said …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
LOL over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
welcome back wanta! over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the list of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! 게시됨 over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Got it :^; over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Uh what was that I just did?! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Are 당신 talking about the Emoji 당신 made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Yup. LOL over a year ago
2ntyoneplts said …
<3 thanks for the hope 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Keep the hope alive. <3 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Preach 🙏 !!!! over a year ago
nightiee commented…
Keep the 괭이 alive over a year ago
2ntyoneplts commented…
Oh Satan! XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of 당신 mind but I wanted to put that out there. 게시됨 over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ !!!! over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything 당신 want. It's a blog of sorts. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! 게시됨 over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
xD leftie over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
XD !!!! over a year ago
sunny
TheLefteris24 said …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ Preach !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Aye over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that 설명 fits me VERY well XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror show about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At least we now know hes aware over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
^Eh... hes a child over a year ago
Riku114 said …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out 더 많이 of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched 랜덤 stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected 당신 and will continue to help 당신 in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free 암캐, 암 캐 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist 또는 psychiatrist about at some point. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried 또는 concerned, I should be fine.

Thank 당신 so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let 더 많이 of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my 다음 therapy session and individually on my own. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We 사랑 당신 too !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
We officially have a baby bird. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
We might have two over a year ago
GDragon612 commented…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics 주스 xD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my 가장 좋아하는 character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his 비디오 can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi 비디오 can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral 또는 calm and managable mental state over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time 또는 something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The recent events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did 또는 anything Im pretty sure.

Thank 당신 to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. 게시됨 over a year ago
Zeppie commented…
Take all the time 당신 need. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Feeling better ish rn over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
A little over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Figuring out which Akashi 아이콘 to use when 당신 have so many is hard. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Literally every time I want to display a new 아이콘 showcasing favorites of mine. It takes a while !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
For me I have to like the 아이콘 and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the 아이콘 either cos it represent it 또는 because it soothes 또는 it just feels fitting at the time over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the 더 많이 harder honestly with such a variety !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
랜덤 Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no 당신 over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn 나귀, 엉덩이 medicine 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five 또는 six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to 당신 specifically, that 당신 knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious 또는 important enough. Doing that is how 당신 make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for 조언 and a 초 opinion. Ive always lived 의해 that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt 의해 it otherwise. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick 또는 something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way 또는 solving it. over a year ago
wantadog commented…
Feel free to say your peace as much as 당신 like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another 시간 so...*shrug* over a year ago
wantadog said …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved 가입하기 Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
당신 know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, 당신 just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already 로스트 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and 옮기기 on. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I owe people in my highschool 더 많이 credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my 프렌즈 from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

또는 the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I 사랑 him. Hes family. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ill be honest. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Thats actually going to be my clubs new quote over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
True, I suppose !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 분 is always good for when the brain is being stupid. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
#Relatable !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do 당신 pretty good !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" 또는 "proud" to 당신 in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty 분 of being asked to compliment you. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. over a year ago
Riku114 said …
TFW 당신 get hit 의해 a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize 당신 forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of 수퍼내츄럴 또는 really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those 인용구 hit way too close to 집 and their dynamic feels too personal. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant 또는 tempts to bring 당신 back into a 이전 bad mental state? Like 당신 dont actually fall back to it, but 당신 feel the pull for a 초 in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Like a mini panic of a warning? over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
XD this is just a 질문 for anyone XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
@Me a 년 이전 saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly going through my 벽 for an 기사 is interesting cos firstly, this 아이콘 makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even 더 많이 shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an 시간 of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD over a year ago
wantadog commented…
That's me with whatever 랜덤 app has my interest for the 월 XD over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it 또는 get run over 의해 whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I 사랑 it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is great to know. Wish 당신 all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let 당신 name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
IM FINALLY 집 AFTER A 15 시간 ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Welcome back XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always 사랑 having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight 시간 drive to get here but Im here. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of 당신 !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself 더 많이 than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer 당신 do it... the 더 많이 magical and wonderful and secure and confident 당신 feel. 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I said before, pretty admirable !!!! over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Seeing 당신 making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
God Im tired XD 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Relatable XD !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Riku is oppressing me! 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
:v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in 사랑 with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After 별, 스타 Wars and Kylo, I fear having two 인기 series holding characters I 사랑 게시됨 over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
당신 would 사랑 Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my 가장 좋아하는 works geesh.

*knows 더 많이 아니메 osts than animes* 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! over a year ago
BlindBandit92 commented…
You've listened to the fate ost even though 당신 haven't really seen the anime? LOL over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
당신 continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still LOL !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. 당신 forget a lot. 당신 loose your history and your past. 당신 loose your childhood. 당신 loose your sense of identity. 당신 become a grandly incomplete person over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe 당신 can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in 프렌즈 and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with 조언 and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress 또는 anything over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with said person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 said …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog said …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

사랑 is nice when 당신 think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true 사랑 is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true 사랑 CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. 게시됨 over a year ago
wantadog commented…
"Love is not equal" over a year ago
wantadog commented…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! over a year ago
wantadog said …
Three cheers for depressing yourself 의해 asking for the impossible 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me 더 많이 anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Baujel is such a wonderful character over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
The only issue I have to be honest with 글쓰기 his character is that I 의해 no means depict him 의해 his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
But sh.. this isnt a formal 글쓰기 peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby 글쓰기 and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im 글쓰기 it how he remembers it so it comes out as 더 많이 mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v over a year ago
Riku114 said …
tfw 당신 have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE 당신 dont so 당신 gotta research :v 게시됨 over a year ago
Riku114 said …
Okay I decided. I will 사랑 Lusamine begrudgingly 게시됨 over a year ago
TheLefteris24 commented…
Riku: I hate you... But I 사랑 you... But I hate 당신 !!!! over a year ago
Riku114 commented…
Accurate over a year ago