Hurt

(Dib's POV)

Chapter 1; The Pain

I lock myself in the bathroom at my house. I pull out the razor blade from the pocket of my treanch coat.  Tears are streaming down my face as I cut into the skin on my wrist. Scarlet blood seaps out and drips on the floor. For a moment the pain of what just happened, what has been happening for so long, is gone. Gaz bangs on the door. "Dib, if 당신 don't open this door in the 다음 five 초 I'm braking it down!" Gaz shouts through the door. Knowing my sister, she really would. I quickly put my wrist cover on and wipe up the blood that got on the floor. I open the door. "What were 당신 doing in there?" Gaz asks. "Jeeze! I'm sixteen years old! Do I have to tell 당신 every detail about what happens when I'm in the bathroom?" I say. "When you're you, yes." Gaz replies. Gaz has been keeping a close eye on me ever since a few years 이전 when she saw me cutting  myself.  I go to my room and cry into my pillow. After a while I pick up the 사진 of my mother on the night stand. "I wish 당신 were here Mom. I miss 당신 so much. If 당신 were here I know 당신 wouldn't let this happen. I 사랑 you." I say as I 키스 the picture. Eleven years. Eleven years this has happened almost every day. The man I'm suposed to trust the most is the one that causes me the most pain. He's suposed to protect and 사랑 me but instead he breaks me down bit 의해 bit. To the rest of the world he's the great and amazing Professor Membrane and I'm just his crazy son. They don't even know the half of it. If only they had even the slightest idea of how much pain he has put me through, they would see who's really crazy. I try to get some sleep because school is tomorrow but I can't sleep.  Everytime I fall asleep I have nightmares about him. They're 더 많이 like vivid memories. They wont go away no matter how hard I try to make them.