The old and new you!!

I joined 팬팝 last 월 so I'm not really sure if I can say the 'before' me and 'after' me on 팬팝 :p

After:

Fast 앞으로 to now. I am 더 많이 confident in my ideals. I have 더 많이 friends. And I support them if I can. And I am not just a lurker as I could have been.

Before:

When I joined I didn't have many 프렌즈 and 의해 joining 팬팝 (joining the internet tbh) opened my world up)

I was just planning on being a lurker and not doing anything.

I also used to fight with everyone who disagreed with me which is something I don't do anymore. I try not to get into it with people.

I wouldn’t say I’ve changed much, other than growing up (mentally especially) and maturing. Due to life (thx life) I’m a lot ‘stronger’ I guess, but mostly better at hiding how much of a mess I am! :]

Me in 2011:
Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Death the Kid. I am totally convinced he's gonna become real and we're gonna get married. It's gonna happen.
가입하기 my number cult.
Respect the Onions.




Me in 2018:
Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Lolita fashion. I am totally convinced I'm gonna become a millionaire and I'm only gonna wear Lolita for the rest of forever. It's gonna happen.
가입하기 my 오리 cult.
Burger King Foot Lettuce.

Before: Pretty much in short an identity-less sociopath that didn't know she was depressed when she was. No real friends. No real attachments other than to maybe my oldest sister.

Now: Uh... I mean Im much much much less a sociopath but I do have a good bit of a sense of identity I suppose. Pretty happy with my life and I got some good 프렌즈 and some healthy strong connections.



But when I say sociopath, I honest to god probably was with my views and how I behaved and shit. Some life experiences and wonderful people have done me great to change that A LOT.

Before: Well, when I first joined, I was much 더 많이 of a mess than I am now lol. Wasn't interacting with anyone 또는 even participating in any other kind of Activity other than the 투표 and some very few Answers. Certainly didn't expect to meet anyone and was just planning to be a lurker, occassionally visiting this Website for new 업데이트 concerning my interests. That was the case for everywhere I went actually. Wasn''t really socializing at all back then.

Now: A lot happened and started making my presence 더 많이 known. Conversing with a few Users and getting to know them helped with that and inspired me. I become 더 많이 active 의해 contributing in various Clubs, participating in 더 많이 activities, meeting 더 많이 fellow 팬 and people who share similar traits, views and experiences in general. At the same time I was opening up 더 많이 irl as well so I suppose it got reflected in here too. Pretty much, it is hard to imagine myself without being here at this point. It's cozy, I guess? I have a much easier time expressing myself and being who I am in overall. Plus, there are people that I'm really glad I got the chance to meet and consider them 프렌즈 of mine. That's the gist of it !!!!

I think I might have become 더 많이 depressed and less confident in myself over time actually

before: Total jerk, annoying, not chatting with anyone much. that is how 11 년 old me was.

now: still annoying, chatting 더 많이 with ppl, and 더 많이 suicide thoughts. this is 14 년 old me

There's just not as much of a difference between how I was before Fanpop, how I was during, and how I am now. If I bothered to actually type out the words, I'd probably just sound whiny and depressing so I wont bother.

Before: I was a happy-go-lucky 9-year-old who was absolutely obsessed with My Little Pony. I made Littlest Pet 샵 비디오 on YouTube. I had a bunch of 프렌즈 and I was generally just really happy with life. I had no care in the world and all that mattered to me was having fun. I was one of those kids who was always like "rainbows and 유니콘 and 나비 and sunshine and ponies!!! :D" I was super active on 팬팝 and I actually talked to a lot of people on here.

Now: I'm a cynical depressed 16-year old who hates everything and is obsessed with World of Warcraft. I have like 1.5 프렌즈 and I will take any excuse to not talk to people. I play the 피아노 and I sometimes watch anime. I'm hardly active on 팬팝 anymore and I really don't talk to anyone on here. I've pretty much 로스트 any self-esteem I once had and I have no motivation to do anything anymore.
But I have become a lot nicer, despite my "I hate everything and everyone" attitude.

I think I used to be pretty annoying. I tried so hard to become good 프렌즈 with everybody in my 팬 list. I constantly messaged everybody, starting the weirdest conversations. And I also was cringey af.
Now I don`t mind talking, but I`ll never message first unless I know the person well enough. And I would hope that I`m not even half as cringey as I used to be. :D
And the best thing is that I really can distinguish those before/after periods on here, because after my 'before' for like 2 years I checked in here only once every few months to check messages and pick some polls.