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Well there is this guy liked him for along long time maybe 11 yrs. and im only 16 so we have known each other for awhile so we're really close and i have wanted to 날짜 this guy for awhile and he always gives me signs that he likes me he always looks at me when im not looking anytime we are on the playground and i go to the swings he wants to push me he tickles and play fight with me and one time we were watching a scary movie at my house where the girl gets kid napped and her bf just gives up looking for her and he says 당신 know i would never stop looking for 당신 if that happened etc. so i always thought he liked me but he always says he likes other girls around me and one 일 he comes up to me and says um..... kate im a well im 당신 know and i said plz tell me your not dating my bff (i didnt say bff just dont wanna give out the name) he said how did 당신 know what i was gonna say i said i always know what youre gonna say we have know each other forever he smiled and said yah i know so 당신 okay with this i said um haha sure no problem he looked down and said um cool i said yah gotta go to the bathroom bye and i went to the bathroom just screaming into my 셔츠 so now he is dating my bff (i havent told ANYONE that i like him) and im trying to act okay with it but i really really want to cry what do i do!