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ArcticWolf said:
WARNING: I am a ranter and a rambler. Depends. It may sound stupid, but school really "upsets" me. There's nothing wrong with it. I'm an 'A' student, people don't really "hate" me (not that I know of), and it's not like I really get bullied. But for some reason whenever someone brings up a topic about school, I get really sad, upset, and anxious. It's not really depression, but my anxiety issues (I really do have issues - apparently I was "diagnosed" with General Anxiety Disorder and my parents NEVER TOLD ME; I accidentally found out on my own) make me paranoid about every situation I'm in. It seems like everyone has a group of 프렌즈 at school that go to parties every other day, and I'm the only one left who actually enjoys just staying 집 most days and 읽기 a good book. It also doesn't help that I don't have a Facebook, so I never know what's going on and I feel like I'm in this outside world where I'm comfortable in, and everyone else is inside. (Not that I'm complaining, I have no desire to be on the "inside".) The problem is everyone makes such a big deal out of everything they do, and they think people who have lives like MINE is sad because I don't hang out with everyone after school every day. It could also be the fact that I don't really have a lot of "close" 프렌즈 at school. Usually in class, all my acquaintances partner up and I don't really have anyone to talk to. It also doesn't help that my acquaintances don't even acknowledge my presence in that class! It's like they talk to 당신 at lunch, but suddenly in English class you're complete strangers. It's soooo frustrating, and it gets lonely. There are also people who for some unknown reason to humankind like to let my presence known to the whole world whenever I enter a room, when they specifically know I hate attention. And on 상단, 맨 위로 of all that, there's my homework, where I'm either acing it and don't care about it, 또는 are struggling with it and still don't really care about it. It sucks when each teacher acts like their subject is soooo important to everybody's lives, and our future careers will be doomed to fail if we don't understand the class. Again, I don't think this is depression - 더 많이 of anxiety and paranoia disguised as mild depression (if that makes sense). And it may seem that I'm complaining about nothing, but this really is a big deal to me, and it bothers me a lot. It's like being pissed off and sad at the same time. I'm much, MUCH, happier at home.
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