It was true I had feelings for Drew. He was Beverly and strong,the whole time he fought I imagined that I was the one he was fighting for,and not Anna.I hid my anger when Drew kissed her at school,had to really hide it when i seen them making out on the beach.I was happy for them but not happy for me.I had a clue that Anna was upset ever since her mother died and I thought it would help if she got a boyfriend.I Intended and hoped that she'd have a little romance then they'd just decide to be friends.Its funny how unfair 사랑 can be.I think yesterday Anna noticed my bother about the kiss.One 일 he'll be mine,but right now one days to faraway.
I gott of the bus and went into the school,Drew was standing there,near the main entrance.It warmed my 심장 to see the one I loved.
"Good mornin,Drew"I blushed
"Oh hey,Amber."he said in a tired voice
"What are 당신 당신 doing over here?"I asked
"Waiting for Anna"he told in joy
My 심장 stopped for a second
"I heard MrsGranger wants to talk to 당신 about something."I lied
"Oh okay let's go,it's probably about yesterday's fight,I'll go to clear my name."He said as he started walking toward the science lab
I followed him.Nows my chance to tell him.
"Look,Drew there's been something Ive been meaning to tell you.."I spoke softly
I pulled him in to a closet,I kissed him...the world stopped I had a million feelings at once,I felt loved but hated and in wanted,I felt happiness and guilt,pride and shame. What am I doing??
I was on 상단, 맨 위로 of the world but felt cold and wanted to kill myself.
I let my feelings fly unthink not caring of others but at got what wanted...Did I? No I was wrong and all I had was lost.
He pushed me away,Me physical and Me emotionally.
"what the fuck did 당신 do just do!"he yelled at me
I looked at him
"I don't know"I whispered
He slammed the door as he left.
Alone,I sat there in the dark crying.
I knew with out a doubt,even before she kissed me I knew she was in 사랑 with me.Im stupid I played with her emotions,why did I ignore the fact that she had feelings for me,I even made out with Anna infront of her.Its my fault,she fels hurt I didn't 사랑 her back the way she wanted me to.Why did I yell at her like I was mad,I'm not mad just confused.Why did act so happy she should have said something.She hid her feelings for me to make us happy but at the same time she wasnt making herself happy,she herself down for us.For Anna.....For me.
"what are doing here alone?"Courtney asked
She rarely talks to me so I was suprized