The mailman delivered my copy of Michael Jackson's Vision today. Coming 집 in a winter storm, I found the package hanging from the door handle in a rubber band and I smiled like a little kid on Christmas.
With my cheeks still blushing from the cold I opened it and seeing the holograms of the cover my smile got even broader. I was happy the casing was made with such quality detail and it brought back many happy memories. Then my smile froze. There was a promotion sticker on the cover. It read: "The Definitive DVD Collection." Definitive. As in never again, ever no more, no further. And so the sadness overtook me again and I couldn't 곰 to watch it. I have been hoping for this sort of collection for many, many years, 더 많이 또는 less since my VHS copies of "The making of Thriller" and "Moonwalker" became obsolete. But not like this.
I have been furious about the media hype and all posthumous "products". I was 쓴, 쓰라린 and saw those involved all as greedy and disrespectful, dancing on MJ's grave for money. But the same hype opened the eyes of a whole new generation of MJ 팬 and how can I not adore 당신 all? In July 2009 I saw two kids in the street, maximum ten years of age, trying to Moonwalk and spin on their toes. It truly warmed my heart.
I thought the idea of immediately turning MJ into a video game without his approval was an utter disgrace. Now I think of all these kids having a blast dancing to this video game and I see no harm.
When the info started leaking about the "Michael" album I started cringing again. I somehow thought the 10 planned albums were just a hoax, it just sounded too insane to me. Breaking News broke my heart. I was devastated, to me they were plundering MJ's grave. But then Hold My Hand was released and it did have a sparkle of Michael's 사랑 and magic and I was in tears, tears of happiness and tears of loss. I wish it would just end here. Michael gave us so much, he gave to the point where he was on his bare knees, out of breath and with a broken heart. Why can't it just be enough? Why does the money industry have to turn him into a 로스트 soul, releasing new material as if he was still here? Yet I see here on this spot how 당신 my fellow fans, are so happy and excited and I don't want to take that away from 당신 and I have no doubt 당신 사랑 MJ as much as I do, in your way.
I have been a die-hard 팬 of MJ since I was 13, defending him in all ways possible. He has had an endless impact on my life and I was inconsolable when he passed. I struggle because deep in my 심장 I am so afraid Michael would disapprove of this legacy circus, that he would feel robbed and manipulated. And even so I cave in and consume all this I'm being fed in his memory.
I stare at the snowstorm outside and I feel like a hypocrite.