You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, 당신 start school today. None of your 프렌즈 know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that 당신 are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall said he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. 당신 still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know 당신 don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, 당신 stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. 당신 nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes 당신 wanna cry. 당신 sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” 당신 explain hoping she would show some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make 당신 feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make 당신 feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him 또는 her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” 당신 ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but 더 많이 like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school 당신 don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, 당신 think that she got the idea that 당신 were annoyed with her. 당신 walk in the room and the first person 당신 see is you’re best friend, Annie, who 당신 haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. 당신 walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging 당신 immediately, 당신 hug her back.
“Hey! How have 당신 been,” 당신 ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making 당신 wanna cry….
“What are 당신 doing back here? I thought 당신 were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to 옮기기 back here,” 당신 say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” 당신 say summing up the best 당신 can so 당신 don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once 당신 got back to South Dakota so they put 당신 him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense 당신 moved and 당신 haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to 당신 또는 something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. 당신 nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend 또는 something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” 당신 say sadly.
“Aww, did 당신 really like him?” she asks, 당신 nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. 당신 smile and nod, 당신 pull out a picture of 당신 and him, hes hugging 당신 from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a 나무, 트리 의해 your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” 당신 say looking at the picture, 당신 flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. 당신 put the 사진 back into your folder and sit down 다음 to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past 월 you’ve been thinking about Lily and 당신 have also tried 글쓰기 some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, 당신 cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first 년 of ninth grade. 당신 miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all 당신 have is pictures, 당신 keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And 당신 tell yourself everyday that someday 당신 are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your 프렌즈 keeping asking 당신 why you’re back. 당신 kept telling them that 당신 would let them know during lunch time so 당신 wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch 표, 테이블 with one of your 프렌즈 Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, 당신 sit down 다음 to Mary and Chelsea. “So are 당신 gonna tell us why 당신 moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 분 of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like 당신 guys are disappointed that I came back,” 당신 say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. 당신 sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” 당신 say. They all stare at 당신 like your kidding. “Im serious!” 당신 sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking 의해 stops and stares at 당신 guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. 당신 sigh.
“Nice one,” 당신 say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and 당신 giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” 당신 yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” 당신 yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do 당신 like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. 당신 laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. 당신 shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” 당신 say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” 당신 say.
“Hey, Annie told me 당신 had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she said 당신 showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. 당신 stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at 당신 seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. 당신 reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, 당신 pull out the picture 당신 showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” 당신 scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of 당신 and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” 당신 say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. 당신 glare at her. “Not that I would wanna 날짜 him 또는 anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to 당신 after about a second.
After school 당신 walk 집 with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. 당신 stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” 당신 ask.
“Well did 당신 see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” 당신 say.
“Do 당신 like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” 당신 say. “ I really liked Marshall,” 당신 say. 당신 place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do 당신 have something 당신 have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” 당신 say 더 많이 as a 질문 rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, 당신 have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do 당신 can hate me forever and 당신 don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, 당신 know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that 당신 have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. 당신 stop on the side walk 의해 a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if 당신 should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby 또는 not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. 당신 nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes 당신 wanna cry. 당신 sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” 당신 explain hoping she would show some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make 당신 feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make 당신 feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him 또는 her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” 당신 ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but 더 많이 like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school 당신 don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, 당신 think that she got the idea that 당신 were annoyed with her. 당신 walk in the room and the first person 당신 see is you’re best friend, Annie, who 당신 haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. 당신 walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging 당신 immediately, 당신 hug her back.
“Hey! How have 당신 been,” 당신 ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making 당신 wanna cry….
“What are 당신 doing back here? I thought 당신 were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to 옮기기 back here,” 당신 say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” 당신 say summing up the best 당신 can so 당신 don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once 당신 got back to South Dakota so they put 당신 him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense 당신 moved and 당신 haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to 당신 또는 something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. 당신 nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend 또는 something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” 당신 say sadly.
“Aww, did 당신 really like him?” she asks, 당신 nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. 당신 smile and nod, 당신 pull out a picture of 당신 and him, hes hugging 당신 from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a 나무, 트리 의해 your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” 당신 say looking at the picture, 당신 flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. 당신 put the 사진 back into your folder and sit down 다음 to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past 월 you’ve been thinking about Lily and 당신 have also tried 글쓰기 some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, 당신 cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first 년 of ninth grade. 당신 miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all 당신 have is pictures, 당신 keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And 당신 tell yourself everyday that someday 당신 are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your 프렌즈 keeping asking 당신 why you’re back. 당신 kept telling them that 당신 would let them know during lunch time so 당신 wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch 표, 테이블 with one of your 프렌즈 Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, 당신 sit down 다음 to Mary and Chelsea. “So are 당신 gonna tell us why 당신 moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 분 of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like 당신 guys are disappointed that I came back,” 당신 say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. 당신 sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” 당신 say. They all stare at 당신 like your kidding. “Im serious!” 당신 sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking 의해 stops and stares at 당신 guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. 당신 sigh.
“Nice one,” 당신 say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and 당신 giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” 당신 yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” 당신 yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do 당신 like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. 당신 laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. 당신 shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” 당신 say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” 당신 say.
“Hey, Annie told me 당신 had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she said 당신 showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. 당신 stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at 당신 seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. 당신 reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, 당신 pull out the picture 당신 showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” 당신 scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of 당신 and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” 당신 say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. 당신 glare at her. “Not that I would wanna 날짜 him 또는 anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to 당신 after about a second.
After school 당신 walk 집 with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. 당신 stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” 당신 ask.
“Well did 당신 see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” 당신 say.
“Do 당신 like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” 당신 say. “ I really liked Marshall,” 당신 say. 당신 place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do 당신 have something 당신 have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” 당신 say 더 많이 as a 질문 rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, 당신 have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do 당신 can hate me forever and 당신 don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, 당신 know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that 당신 have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. 당신 stop on the side walk 의해 a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if 당신 should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby 또는 not tell her…
