there are times when i doubt god exists. i sin more and more often now. i want to believe in god and i want to have undying devotion to him, but i am having such problems. i fear he doesn't exist. i fear of going to hell. i try so hard to believe, to change my thoughts, to pray. i've been going to church, but for whatever reason, it doesn't help. please help me. i am such a mess. i don't want to be a non-believer. i pray but it feels as if no one hears me.i feel so hopeless. i want to be a good christian, i want to follow in gods footsteps, but i can't. i'm frustrated beyond sense. i don't want to be like the ancient greeks who spent their lives worshipping all in all nothing. please, if there is anyone out there, please help me. i need to be saved. i want to be saved. please. i need advice and hope and assurance. please. save me from myself. i am desperate.