I know that Camilla Luddington never will be my wife, because it's just impossible, I know that I'll never meet her in real life no matter how I want it 또는 no matter how I pray about this. She always will be unreachable for me and probably I will never find real happiness in life because I 사랑 only her and while she can't be mine. Anyway I will continue pray God about her and me and willl ask God to help us be together. I know that it's bad idea because I'm sure that God will ignore my prayers. So I waste my time but I'm not regret about that because I only care if I'm togehter with Camilla Luddington. I try to believe that God will help me to be with her, but again I'm wasting my time.
Here is below a short prayer about me and Camilla.
God please bring Camilla into my life, please make her my wife, please help me to live with her for the rest of my life. Amen